The very next day after tending to injuries and trying to calm the student body, things at Xavier's finally settled down, at least for a little while.
" Why did this happen?" Ian asked himself. He looked up at the ceiling and just stared at it. He couldn't understand why things happened the way they did. Or why he seemed to keep his memories and so many others did not. But more importantly, his most important thought was that of his girls. " Why? When I tried to move on, When I tried to just get along with my life, why am I reminded about everything I ever wanted? Why?" Ian asked. His mind flashed back to everything. " I remember our wedding day. I remember our honeymoon. I remember when I found out she was pregnant! How she cried in my arms, when she told me. How happy she was! The way I dressed like a goofball every day to make her laugh. Taking care of her through the pregnancy. I remember being there when Sarah was born! I remember holding her soft and delicate body in my hands. I remember when we first took her home, how she cried so loudly and how you would sing her a song and the entire house would go quiet and she would just relax. I remember watching her smile when you held her. But she always cried when I held her. And I just couldn't understand it. I remember being hurt and afraid that our daughter didn't love me. And what did you do? You kissed me on the head and placed her in my arms and you told me to "try softening my expression." I didn't get it. Then you told me blatantly that I had a scary face and I laughed and laughed and laughed." Ian spoke.
" And then, one day it happened. Sarah spoke her first words. Da-da. She said Da-da and I cried. God, I couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe it was real. There I was sitting in my own home with the girls that I loved more than life itself. And it just felt perfect. And then she grew up, her first day at school, her first time riding a bike, the first time her powers manifested! Hehehe! Oh, boy we spent weeks trying to get her howling under control, and then all the transformations, we must have wen through a hundred outfits, before we could get her something that could change with her. God, Sarah. She was my pride and joy and Rahne... God you were my hope, you were my faith. You were my light. And... When I lost you! Oh, God. When they took you from me... I... Just couldn't bare it. I tried so hard to just end it, but I always healed. I couldn't even suffocate myself. I was so lost in the darkness and I ouldn't find a way out... Until I met him. When I saw how Exodus fought against those that would rule over him, I saw myself. And it was then that I knew, that there were others out there, who suffered like we did. And I knew that alone none of them could do what needed to be done. I knew alone they were weak. But then a thought came to me, what if they were together? What if we united, our strengths, all of it into one singular beast, with many heads. Our own version of the Brotherhood. I came to him, and Exodus refused at first. But then I proved how serious I was. I went to the capital of Tokyo, where you were murdered, and I excuted the chief of staff of the Sunfire corporation. I made sure to send a personal message to Sunfire, that I was going to do what he did to me. That I was going to take everything from him." Ian explained.
" And that's what I did. Exodus, came to me after that, and bowed to me. Promised to help and guide me along our path, I may have been the creative mind behind the brotherhood, but we couldn't have thrived as well as we did without him. Our ranks grew and swelled and then I met her and God, she was amazing, a crazy, irational, charismatic, nut-job, firecracker. Tabby was one of your old friends, I knew that much. But I had never met her personally until I saved her life fromt he Avengers and The X-men. At first she was defensive around me. And that was understandable. But I like to think that as we got to know each other she began to trust me more and more. But when I do think about it, I realize that I didn't show her as much love as I should have, or at least I should have done it more often. I loved her though. I really did. She was what helped me regain my confidence. My purpose. She became my driving factor. She made the mission all that more important. And now, after every thing, I don't know if you or her remember all the pain and all the happiness that we experienced. And here I am. Stuck! rememebering it all alone. It's beginning to become easier to handle, but I still have trouble trying to think about what is happening. If that world was real or if this one is. I couldn't choose one to live in even if I could. In one world I lost you and my daughter. In this one I've lost just you."
" Why? Why did I remember? Why couldn't I forget such a thing? Why did I have to be the one to remember having every single one of my dreams come true. And why do I have to remember losing it all? It's not fair. It's not fair! I need, you Rahne. I wish you'd come back. I'm hoping that you'll come running through those doors any day. I miss your howling at night. It made me feel safe knowing you were there beside me. And the worst part... The thing that hurts the most is... I can still feel you through our bond. I can feel you out there, and I know that you're finally happy. And I'm not. You've found yourself. And... I don't even know who I am anymore."