I remember my first sex, how I lost my virginity for that ingrate. I bleed to the extent of going to the nearest clinic.
I can't forget that faithful day. I lost my virginity, it's a memory I can't let go of. That's how it all started.
My craves and feelings become high to have more of the excitement because back then, Richie was still a virgin and he was not ready to play until our honeymoon.
Richie is the only one I love and have craved, but he disappoints me wholly without a second thought. I never cheated on him before or crave to be with someone else but he break up with me easily without any remorse because of my concerns to see him succeed.
It baffled me with many discomforts having different series of thoughts. He is the only man whom I love sincerely, but he dumped me when I needed him the most. He knew I succumb to having sex with the CEO for them to accept the Alliance. But he baffled me with how easy it is for him to break up with me after everything.
I became traumatized and I pleaded to have his love and care again but he seemed different, and never want to see me again.
Pulling myself back to reality. I sighed rapidly growing in my rage about how I was been treated because of my decision.
My affairs with my sugar daddy, the CEO is the best I have now. He loves me beyond belief, and his love and care for me are unprecedented, exceptional, and remarkable.
After he breaks up with me. For some inexplicable reasons, my mind goes completely blank, and my hatred for guys is uncontrollable. I remember that's the reason why Amelia never wanted to have a relationship after the man she loves to break her heart. This is the reason why she's always against my relationship with Richie.
Though my feelings for him are pure and real base on the fact that we grew up together as lovers.
But, I'm ain't gonna rest until my heart is justified. I will do everything within me to make sure he suffers from all the pain he causes me everything because, I won't have peace of mind knowing my friends and family, abandoned me because of him.
I will be at every opportunity he will come across. At every step of happiness he takes, I will be there. I will disgrace and humiliate him at any given opportunity or event, at any occasion we come across. I will make him suffer for everything.
He's at this level today because of my relentless effort that leads me to sacrifice my virginity for his success.
Pulling my thoughts back to reality. I moved to the open window, drop my chin back to the upright, and sigh hastily. My stare drifted back to the upright. And I raise my eyebrows slightly and inhaled the gentle breeze that wheeze on my face.
After a few minutes, a knock came from the door before it was pushed open after giving my permission. It was Jessie my bestie.
"Hi Kendi, I know you have waited a lot for me. How's everything going?" She sound so vibrant and happy the moment she walked in, but I wasn't too cheerful.
"Am fine Jessie, am just thinking about my parents. I think a lot on them when am alone, but am happy you're here." I said giving her my most charming smile.
"I understood your thinking Kendi, but it's ok. I know it's difficult to let go, but you have to, just to be happy." The word happy echoes in my head, because there's no happiness when my love once rejected me. I sparked in anger, the bitterness inside of me overpower my body and my face became pale.
"You mean happiness? How do you expect me to be happy knowing my parents, friends, and relatives have abandoned me for almost 2 and half years because of that ingrate called Richie, and you say I should let go just to be happy?" I said abruptly and my rage was high...
The bitterness inside of me overran my body as am always in pain anytime I recall back.
I lay out a loud sighing and threw my hands in frustration.
"I understand your anger Kendi. Am ain't happy what your ex did to you, but you have to calm down, and let's plan." She said in concern.
Immediately my mood was calm because I hate getting myself angrier.
"Please make yourself comfortable Jessie. Tonight we gonna stunned Richie at his party, but don't worry. I gat your back." I announced and go straight to the musical set and play Cardi B. Rock with me.
"Please a moment Kendi. What about Richie, bodyguards? Would they allow us inside the Cruise?" Jessie ask as she was wondering how we gonna get inside the Cruise.
I sighed hastily and smiled, but she did ask a brilliant question. But I gat no problem getting inside the Cruise boat. No one can stop me, not even his useless bodyguards.
"Don't worry Jessie. I said I gat your back. Tonight we stunned Richie's party." I retorted and pops up a bottle of champagne and we drank and dance happily.
A few minutes later, I became drunk from the trauma and the feelings that my parent repudiated me.
"Stop drinking Kendi. you wanna get yourself drunk because of your ex?" Jessie sparked in concern as she tried to stop me from excess drinking.
"Yes Jessie, I wanna get high so when I see Richie tonight, I will be brutal to confront him." I said as my eyes were red and muffling because I miss my parents.
"Please take it easy. We still have 4 hours to stun Richie's party, but there's something I'd like to tell you." Immediately I stop and lower the sound of the music.
"Okay, dear." I bottom my sit and look forward to her.