Neha
" I can't ,Neel. It's not easy to go back normal. It's not easy to forget. When a mirror breaks you can't put it back together again.Now, I am not different than a trash . they used me.... and threw there , like a trash. I am nothing more than a burden to my parents. No one needs me, I am unwanted. I don't find a reason to live. I am tired..... of my life"
" I know it's not, it's not easy . But it's not impossible. Even if there is 1 percent chance, I am not letting you give up. If the pain is unbearable then share it with me. If crying will lessen your pain then cry as much as you want. I will be there to lend you my shoulder. Don't ever think you're unwanted. Cause , you are. I want my bestfriend. You won't feel unwanted when you will find the one who will cherish you, love you , want you. You haven't meet him yet or maybe you already did. Maybe you just don't know that he is the one . You're not trash , you're a gem. The one who is trash is those bastards who made you like this, who caused this . Don't let them break you. Don't let them win. You don't need to find a reason to live. Cause, you should live for yourself,You have to . I don't think I can find another Neha sharma and she will become my bestfriend "
I laughed a little.
" you don't want to bother finding a new bestfriend. If you do I am sure you will find better than me."
" maybe I don't want to. I don't want a better one . I just want Neha , my bestfriend. Neha, the girl who found me cute with those big round glasses and braces. Who didn't feel embarrassed to introduce me to her friends, who didn't feel embarrassed to sit beside me in the canteen. Who befriended me with my nerdy, boring look .....seriously though, how could you thought I was cute with those ugly braces ? "
He scowled. I giggled.
" to be honest, I myself don't know either. I never had good taste in people. Maybe, it was once in a eternity thing. I knew you would be hot without those glasses and braces . "
He smirked .
" so , you think I am hot. huh?
I smirked too.
" yes, I have a smoking hot bestie. And I am proud of it "
He looked away for a while and laughed while shaking his head .
" Are you done joking? Don't boost my confidence too much ."
" I am not joking."
I said.
" oh yeah ? As far as I know girls would prefer a hot boyfriend more than a best friend "
He asked raising his brows. I smiled a little. It was more like sad smile.
" Because, I didn't wanted a boyfriend. I didn't wanted relationships . I still don't do yet"
I shrugged my shoulders.
"It's okay, if you don't. We're still young . I am sure there are plenty of fishes in the sea . Don't get upset for not having the most hot man as your boyfriend "
" now I think I shouldn't have boosted your pride "
I said rolling my eyes at him. He laughed making me laugh with him.
" does your girlfriend knows...you know? About this?"
I asked. Dad warned.....or should I say threatened me not to tell anyone. I didn't know what would he do if anyone came to know . I was terrified. Was terrified thinking about the day people will know.
" No, I didn't tell her. Nobody knows except you, your parents, uncle simon and me"
He said .
" what if uncle told this to someone? "
" he won't. I am sure. Don't worry. It's your Choice whom you want to know about this. I am not in the place to tell this to anyone, neither he."
" Does she know that you are visiting me at this time?"
I asked.
" she has a name, you know? And no. She doesn't. I am too young to be killed "
He joked.
" so you're afraid of her? "
" no. I just don't want her to know. She will overreact "
"Is she scared that I will seduce you or she doesn't trust you?"
I asked raising my brows.
" what the hell are you talking about?"
He asked as he laughed.
" you know very well what I am talking about. Go back to the day , when she and her as**le brother accused me of being a home wrecker ."
He sighed. He rested his elbows on both his knees. He looked down for a while then looked at me.
"I am sorry about that. She is just over-possesive toward me."
" that's her damn problem! ...
....I didn't give a damn about them. You know what hurted me ? ...its you didn't trusted me . You didn't give me a chance to explain "
" what did you expected from me!? I was mad. When sarah and I reached there , we heard you calling her a bitch! I heard with my own ear you saying that you were trying to break us. You can't blame me "
" what you heard was half of the truth . I was mad too. At that as**le, Jack. He said I was stealing you from her dear sister. I said those things out of anger. It wasn't the first time he did that. I told him many times that you and I are not more than bestfriends. But his d*ckhead can't get those simple words"
I said . I looked away . Concentrated at the white wall to calm my anger.
" I didn't know. You didn't tell me "
" I didn't. Cause I didn't wanted to make a big deal about that. But he crossed his limits. He pissed the hell out of me . I already had enough to deal with. And we could never have a proper conversation without your girlfriend interrupting us and dragging you away "
" I am sorry about jack and sarah.she is just insecure. Her past relationship didn't go well. Her ex-boyfriend broke up with her. She thinks the history will repeat itself. "