Neha
I was crying . The pain worsened. It felt like someone was slicing my heart with a knife. My fists clenched tight on the edge of the bed. Tears soaked the dress I was wearing. The crying turned into sobs and sobs turned into hiccups. The feeling of being humiliated and forced returned. The disgust and hatred I felt for myself had retuened.
I didn't remember stop crying. I didn't remember falling asleep.
I woke up by someone shaking my shoulder. My reaction was jumping in fear.
" Don't. Don't touch ! "
It was the first sentence I said at that moment.
" calm down. Calm down "
He said. His palms faced me as they moved parallely up and down repeatedly. My breathing caught their rhythm. My eyes held the contact with his. Once my breathing got steady, those hands made their way to cup my cheeks. They felt warm, comforting. My eyes eventually closed. I leaned on them.
" you okay ? "
He asked. His tone as light as feather. I nodded as I enjoyed the warmnness he was providing. Was appreciating the comforting silence for a while.
" you cried ? "
" yeah..a little. Don't now when I knocked out."
" I can tell"
When I opened my eyes they started to burn. Head was throbbing. I blinked several times and rubbed them a little.
" why were you crying? Everything good? "
"Nothing serious. Everything is fine"
I lied putting a smile. I could tell he didn't believe me but decided to let it go.
" put your sweater on , wear a muffler and...."
His gaze fell on my knee length dress and travelled down to my legs . I pull the hem of my dress . I followed his gaze to check if something was wrong with my legs .
" what are you looking at? "
I said blushing.
" nothing. And wear a leggings too "
I frowned. Why he was telling me to wear a leggings? Are my legs that much ugly? . I got sad. I knew they weren't beautiful but didn't know they could be that much unpleasant to people's eyes.
" it's really cold outside "
He informed. I frowned.
" And why are you telling me this? "
" cause we're going out "
" why? "
I asked.
" can't you just do what I said instead of throwing a bunch of questions at me ? "
He scowled.
" is some kind of surprise waiting for me ? "
I asked raising my brows.
" I am not gonna answer that "
I smirked at his reply . The headache was long gone as they replaced with excitement .
" so it is what I am assuming, right? "
" just shut your big mouth and do as I said "
I glared at him.
" don't call my mouth big."
I warned pointing my index finger at him. He held my wrist and turned it down as well as my warning. Now it was him ,who was smirking .
" oh yes, I will call your mouth big. And if you want me to stop ,then get dressed as I ordered, you have ten minutes. And your time starts..."
He glanced at his watch.
" Now."
" fine!"
I said being annoyed. I hate when someone orders me. I dragged my lazy self to my cupboard. I pulled out a leggings and went to the bed again. I sat at the edge so that I could easily wear that. Then I grabbed my sweater, which was lying on the bed and put that on. Once I finished I stood infront of him. He looked up and pointed at my neck.
" muffler"
He said informing that it was left.
I sighed and made my way to my cupboard again. I pulled out a purple colored muffler and wrapped it around my neck. I turned around and looked at him again. He was already looking at my direction. He got up and walked to where I stood. He brows furrowed. I folded my arms infront of my chest and looked at him with a look that said " what-now ? "
" something is missing "
I looked at him confused.
" wait a minute "
He said before started rummaging through my cupboard. My eyes popped out.
" what are you doing!? You can't just rummage through a girl's stuff !"
I whisper yelled.
" And I don't know why. We know that boys have a p**is and wear underwears . Girls have b**bs and a v**ina , they wear bra and panties. There is nothing to hide. Every boy know girls have periods and wear tampons, menstrual cups or sanitary pads . And if you're worried that I will get disgusted then don't- "
" oh my god ! Just shut up ! "
I grimaced as I covered my ears. It was so embarrassing!
" I don't keep them here "
I said looking away.
" what? Your Bra and panties ? "
" No! I mean sanitary pads "
" ohh "
" Although you know everything about girls , you can't talk about this so casually to girls and neither touch their stuffs"
" why not ? I and Sarah talk about this every day. I even buy tampons for her "
" she is your girlfriend idiot! "
I face palmed.
" I am a medical student and maybe a future doctor. I don't feel shy talking about body parts. Even they include va**na-"
" okay okay. I understand. Stop ! "
I stopped him before he finished.
" why your face is red?"
He chuckled.
" cause it's embarrassing! "
" Aww..you don't have to "
" But I am ,okay ? I can't help it ."
I muttered covering my hot cheeks. It was not only embarrassing but it made me uncomfortable. As if he read my mind, he took my hand in his .
" I am sorry "
I looked up.
" I am sorry if I made you uncomfortable. I don't want to feel uncomfortable around me ."
" I know . Just need some time "
I smiled and gave his hands a light squeeze.
" I am sorry again "
" don't be. Now tell me why were you searching for ? "
He showed me a woolen cap , which he was holding. I rolled my eyes and shook my head. He made me wear that.
" Now we're ready to go "
He said before taking my hand again.