Erik POV
I cannot remove my gaze from Enya as she makes her way back to the pack house. She is walking slowly at first, I hear her heart skip a beat again before she starts running.
She's always been a runner, even before she challenged Lukas on her 15th birthday. She never knew that I had been watching her train every night with Kate.
I saw her ambition to become faster than him, she would drive her feet into the ground harder each lap she completed. When she beat his one mile record at 2 minutes 8 seconds I was very impressed.
Then she kept going. It wasn't good enough for her. She had to be even swifter.
When she finished in 1 minute 48 seconds, after training for 6 months, I was absolutely blown away. The next day she challenged Lukas to race on her birthday, I was next to him and could feel the panic rolling off him.
He never for a second let on that he was worried she would beat him though; he had his pride to maintain. I just know Luke better. He's my Beta after all, we've been best friends since we were babies for crying out loud.
He knew how determined Enya was when it came to training. She is a force of nature, someone you wouldn't want to cross when it came to her pack.
She's fiercely loyal to all of us, but I know that deep down the four of us mean even more to her.
Luke was always teasing E about training so hard, with my Alpha blood and his Beta genes, we have always had an upper hand on the rest of our team. We are also a few years older and had been in training longer.
I could never join Luke in his pompous attitude, I have always known there was something special about Enya. She was stronger than she realized.
I could sense her aura, it didn't feel the same as her dad's; all Zeta warriors have the same aura. It's a powerful force don't get me wrong, her dad has put me on my ass plenty of times (before I got my wolf).
Enya herself was able to take me on most days, her aura radiated more untapped power though. It was unlike anything I have ever sensed. My mom and dad agree with me too. We know there is something remarkable about E.
Each year she grows stronger, faster, more agile. Every time I see her sparring my heart fills with pride, I swear one day it's going to burst.
I have been waiting 4 long years for her wolf to come out. Finn gets more and more restless the longer we wait. We are both on edge of finally being able to claim Enya.
Sometimes I think she knows we are mates, and then other times she seems clueless. It's maddening keeping my distance from her.
I told her, along with Kate and Kai so she wouldn't be suspicious, that since I had shifted I wouldn't train directly with them until they had gained their wolves too. My parents disagreed with my decision, but I couldn't trust myself.
Tonight only proved I was right.
I have never been more tempted to claim and mark Enya before our match. The desire has been building for so long, I was barely able to stop myself.
Most Alphas don't have to wait as long as I have before finding their mate. They don't even sense their mate until they have their wolf too.
Enya and I are the exception. I knew as soon as Finn came bursting out, his first words to me were, "How dare you not wait for Enya! She should be the only one we lie with!"
I was more than shocked, I've never heard of a wolf knowing their mate before they see them.
Technically Finn had never laid eyes on Enya before my 18th birthday, but he knew exactly who our mate was.
A second later I caught her scent, even in a crowd of hundreds of wolves, her scent is the one that stood out. She smelled like sweet cream and strawberries, with a hint of vanilla. It was the most mouth watering smell I had ever sensed.
She stood in the front of the crowd that had watched their future Alpha's first shift, her parents were on either side of her. She wore her hair down, I rarely saw her hair out of a pony tail, her curls were perfectly defined.
She had donned a simple turquoise dress that complimented her eyes and complexion perfectly. I had never truly appreciated her beauty before.
Finn and I wanted to mark her that same night, but there was one major problem with that. She was far too young, she was only 14 when I shifted.
When Alphas mark their mates they must do it in front of the whole pack in a marking ceremony, and their mates must mark them at the same time. She was still a child, even though I could appreciate her beauty and know that she was my mate, I couldn't look at her sexually. Not for a few more years.
I regretted not waiting to have sex with my mate, especially since Finn was constantly calling me a piece of shit for tainting myself with any other she-wolf besides Enya. The wait has been absolute torture.
When she turned 16 and her body filled out, she gained more attention from the unmated males in the pack. I had to watch in agony as they shamelessly flirted with her; I could do nothing to stop it without using my Alpha command on them and that was an abuse of power, I could never bring myself to do it.
My fear that Enya would lose her virginity to another male in the pack consumed me. She was always adamant that she was waiting for her mate, she chastised me when I slept with Valerie at 16. Said that I would regret it later, she had no idea how right she would be.
I didn't listen of course and proceeded to bed more than a dozen she-wolves until my 18th birthday. I had no right to be angry if she chose to sleep with another male. Not after what I've done.
The women in the pack still try to bed me, some have spread rumors that they have in the last 4 years. All lies of course, I can't even imagine anyone else but Enya. Anytime another she-wolf touches me I curl away with disgust.
I can only hope Enya doesn't reject me for my past.
I was a sorry excuse for a mate. I didn't deserve Enya, she is pure and loving, fearless, powerful, sexy as fuck, everything any Alpha would want in his Luna.
When I saw her without a shirt on tonight, her cleavage on full display for me, I felt my cock twitch. I fantasize about Enya every single day, but the reality is so much better than my imagination.
She usually wears a shirt over her sports bras, but for some reason she chose not to for our spar. I could swear she was teasing me. It would serve me right if she did.
I pushed down my lustful thoughts and focused on our fight. I had decided to not use my wolf strength, giving E a fair chance against me. In the first round she bested me so quickly my head spun.
The Alpha blood in me took over before I realized it and I pinned her under me in 3 seconds flat. Finn was fighting so hard for control, he was sick of waiting to formally meet Enya.
It took me several minutes to push him to the back of my mind. In that time frame the world seemed to stop. All I could see, smell, hear was Enya.
Her heartbeat had never been so fast, she was panting under me causing her sweet breath to envelop me. I could smell her arousal too, she smelled so sweet I wanted to bury my face in her cunt and taste her until she screamed my name.
Picturing her on display for me, and devouring her, instantly made me rock hard. I knew she could feel it because her arousal intensified. She was getting wetter for me.
I had to put distance between us or I wasn't going to be able to stop myself from kissing her. And if I kissed her I would need more.
After years of waiting for her, and years of her waiting for me, I wanted our first time together to be special. It couldn't happen in the middle of the training grounds. She deserves so much more than that.
Our tense exchange only happened because I needed her to understand that we can't train or be this close again until she shifts.
I had to make sure she knew how proud of her I was. I could sense her nervousness at not being good enough to be the packs Zeta, my Zeta.
I had a feeling she would be devastated to learn she wasn't going to be Zeta, but would be our Luna.
Never before has their been a Luna-Zeta warrior, I wasn't sure if the other packs would allow that. Or even our pack.
I have always wanted E by my side, for years it was as my Zeta, now I hopelessly need her as my Luna. No other she-wolf could ever do.
If she rejects me...I'm sure it will kill me.