I feel as if my feet have grown roots where I'm standing.
Our hands still had a hold of each other. My eyes are glued to Erik, I can't move or look away no matter how much I try.
We have never danced like that before. When we would dance in the past it felt like two friends who were just having some fun. But this... is something else.
I could see it in his eyes. He has never looked at me before like this. He had complete and utter control of my body. I had been powerless in his hands.
I wasn't sure what scared me most: how easily he could control me... or how much I liked it.
Clearly I was still in a trance. And who could blame me? The man standing before me had practically made love to me on that dance floor. I have never left more alive.
I am so memorized by his oasis that I don't even see Kai approaching.
He slaps his hand on Erik's shoulder and pulls him back. Erik finally withdraws his hands from my body, I feel colder instantly.
"Wow, man I didn't know you could dance like that! It was amazing! You'll have to show me some of those moves!", Kai speaks in awe.
Kate and Jemma flank me and grab a hold of my arms. Jem is squeaking again. I tear my eyes away from Erik subsequently and peer at my best friends.
"Oh my Goddess! How did I not know you could dance like that? It was unbelievable the way you glided out there!", Jem gushes.
"Yeah girl, where have you been hiding those moves?", Kate wags her eyebrows at me.
I giggle at my girls, I'm feeling more grounded the more they talk to me. "I, uh...I didn't even know I could do any of that.", I breathe out. "It was all Erik.", I finish.
Subconsciously my eyes dart to the spot I last saw Erik in, but he's disappeared again. I sigh internally.
'What did he do to me?'
*****
Over the next hour I danced with a few other unmated males, but their arms around me felt...wrong. The entire time we would dance my skin would crawl, and not in the exciting way that Erik evoked in me.
Before I knew it a giant birthday cake was being brought in. The pack began to sing Happy Birthday to me, it was a surreal feeling when they were closing the song and said my name.
"Happy birthday dear Enya! Happy birthday to you!"
The deafening applause broke out yet again. I was starting to get a headache from having to concentrate so much. I feared if I didn't keep my focus on my heart that my ear drums would blow out.
Instead I made a wish and blew out my candles. I smiled brightly to my pack and felt more tears forming. I pushed them down and thought about my wish.
'I wish I knew what Erik was thinking right now.'
The cake had 3 flavors, mom said they did that so there would be more options than just chocolate (my favorite). There was also vanilla and strawberry. Like the Neapolitan ice cream that was being served. My mom is adorable.
I spot Erik a few moments later grabbing a piece of strawberry cake. He glances up and catches me staring. His eyes rake down my body and I begin to feel warm again. He slides his gaze back to my eyes, the passion I saw before is back, it steals my breath once more.
He turns around to head back to the table his parents are sitting at. He sits next to his father and takes a generous bite of the cake.
When he closes his mouth around the dessert my wanton thoughts return.
'What I wouldn't give to be that cake.'
'I wonder what his mouth tastes like.'
'He'd be delectable I'm sure.'
"Hey Enya, what's wrong? You look like you're burning up.", Kate says breaking me from my wicked imagination.
I turn to her, "Huh? What? Oh...no. Um, I'm totally fine.", a fake smile appears on my lips. She doesn't look convinced, but decides to not press me further.
Her brother pulls her aside to talk about boarder patrolling and some improvements that can be made. While Kate is distracted, I make my way to the Alpha table.
As I approach their table, Erik must've scented me because his eyes snap to mine. I ignore the perplexed look he has and address Alpha James.
"Hello Alpha.", I greet him first with a bow, "Luna.", I bow to her as well.
"Enya, hello, how are you? Enjoying the evening I hope?", he asks.
"Absolutely Sir, this whole night so far has been more than I could've hoped for.", I answer back.
"Good, glad to hear it.", his warm smile reaches his eyes. I can't help but return it.
I clear my throat lightly, "Sir, I was hoping I could steal Erik away for a moment. I have some questions about shifting I'd like to ask him."
Erik scrunches his brow at my question, he probably thought I would ask Kate or my mom about shifting. He'd be right, but I needed a reason to pull him away without the prying eyes of the room.
"Of course, I'm sure he would be happy to help.", he states. His parents turn to him, he looks to them before standing up.
He walks around the table to me and we head to the east exit doors.
I walk us to the library down the corridor avoiding his quizzical look. My heart is pounding with anxiety, I'm not even sure what I'm doing right now.
Once inside the empty room I close the doors behind us and turn to Erik while leaning against them. He is standing over 10 feet away from me, for some reason it's infuriating.
"Why do you always stand so far away from me?", I question him.
"I thought you had questions about shifting?", he crosses his arms over his broad chest.
My breathing hitches for the hundredth time tonight.
'Focus Enya, shit!'
"Answer the question Erik.", I demand crossing my arms defiantly.
He sighs and hangs his head, "E, I don't know what you want me to say."
I uncross my arms and advance on him. "I want you to tell me how you could dance so close to me earlier but feel the need to keep your distance the rest of the night?"
He is backed against a bookshelf now and I'm only a few inches from his face. My focus shifts from my heart to his without me trying. I hear how rapid his heart is beating.
My gaze travels down his neck landing on his chest. His breath is coming in quick and I can smell his arousal. I don't even realize it, but my hands are on his chest now.
My touch makes his heart quicken even more, feels like it's trying to fly out of his ribcage. My hands start to roam up on their own, my eyes return to his face. He looks...in pain.
"Erik...", my eyes hold a question in them. I can't help but to dart my eyes back and forth. Eyes, lips, eyes, lips.
Without warning Erik grabs my hands pushing me off him and turning me to have my back against the bookshelf. He is in control again and I am at his mercy.
Both of us are panting, I can feel his growing shaft against my belly, the all too familiar heat spreads to that sweet spot between my legs. I feel my panties dampen.
His eyes darken as my arousal wraps around us. His lips come crashing down on mine. I feel the hunger in his demanding lips.
He releases my hands only to place his right hand over my throat while his left drops to my hip. He grips me harshly and I savor the feeling. My hands cling to the sleeves of his shirt as I try to mold my body to his.
His tongue licks my bottom lip asking for permission, I moan my approval and his tongue dances with mine. His grasp on my hip loosens and he moves his hand to my ass.
He squeezes my cheek unforgivingly, I arch my back into him and he presses us into the bookshelf harder. He swallows my moan greedily, I can feel the smile on his lips before he deepens our kiss.
My left hand travels down his arm to the hand wrapped around my throat. My fingers close around his wrist. He breaks away and searches my eyes.
He is looking for fear, his forehead is pressed to mine, I can see his apprehension. He doesn't want to hurt me.
I hold his gaze steadily, my fingers grip his wrist tighter as I press his hand harder against my throat. His cock twitches against me. He groans before taking my lips again.
My body feels electric from his touch, not even in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine my first kiss to feel like this. He drinks me in like I am a fresh spring and he is a parched beast.
"I knew you'd taste like strawberries.", he groans in my mouth.
He takes my bottom lip between his teeth lightly biting it, I gasp at the force of pleasure it sends to my pussy.
He captures my mouth again sliding his tongue over mine. He moves his hand from my throat to palm my breast. I whimper at his touch, my body craves more.
"Excuse me...Alpha.", Luke coughs to interrupt our lascivious moment.
I gasp at the sound of his voice, Erik jumps off of me and backs away. My breasts are heaving from my panting breath. His chest rises and falls as quickly as mine. He casts his eyes down and turns his back to me and Luke.
"Didn't mean to interrupt, um but it's time.", he says.
My eyes widen as shock pulls me back to reality.
"The pack will be moving to the lawns shortly.", he finishes.
Luke turns around and leaves me with Erik. Without a second glance my way, Erik follows him out.
"Oh Goddess..."
'My first shift'