With a heavy heart, I walk towards the gates - why am I so broken? Eli doesn't deserve me. Maybe I should just die—
"Morning bitch!" screams my beautiful best friend Kyra. She's walking up to me in all her 5'7 glory with her hair up in a messy bun and in her signature mini skirt.
Everyone stays away from us because they're scared of Ky but she's my best friend and I don't know where I'd be without her.
She looks up at me with her bright blue eyes - concern swirling in them and I realise it's because I haven't said anything yet. "Hey." I say.
"Are you ready for another day in this hellhole?!"
"Come on," I say, locking my arms with hers, "we're going to be late."
"Yeah yeah. You do remember my party today right?" Oh shit. No it completely slipped my mind.
"Yeah I do, why?"
She eyes me suspiciously before saying, "good then after school you're coming with me to go shopping then to get ready."
Before I can reply she starts dragging me to our first class. English - what a lovely start to the day.
"Finally it's lunch time. Mr adams is such a pain in the ass. No way am I doing his stupid 4 page essay. I'm going to be too busy partying and you're coming with besides we deserve a break from schoolwork. We've been working too hard - my brain is going to explode. Thena are you listening?"
"Yeah I am." No I wasnt I was just lost in my head. Again.
I feel like I can't breathe sometimes. I really do want to confide Ky in but I don't want to burden her as well. It seems like all I am is a burden.
Ky eyes me again for what seems like the hundredth time today before taking me over to somewhere private. "Thena, listen. I'm worried about you love. I know something's wrong and I want you to tell me. I can help you, I'm your best friend." I want to cry.
"Ky, don't worry I'm okay." I say in a very shaky voice. I'm not okay and I know she knows.
She hesitates and then says, "Look Thena, something's wrong I mean all you've been wearing are hoodies and it's the middle of summer, you're barely yourself anymore - hardly smiling and talking. I decided not to say anything these few weeks because I thought that you would tell me when you feel comfortable but now I'm really worried and it pains me to see my best friend in so much pain. I want to be there for you. I want to help you and I only can if you tell me what's going on."
That's all it takes for the dam to burst and tears can't stop spilling from my eyes. Ky wraps her arms around me and lets me cry. I'm shaking and sobbing and it doesn't stop.
"Ky I'm so sorry, I'm sorry." I keep repeating.
"It's okay Thena, I'm here." She whispers.
Finally I stop crying and I tell her everything. From the rape to the cutting.
She's my best friend and I'm so happy that she is. She's crying with me as she hears my words and she's shaking with rage.
After I'm done she just hugs me for the longest time and I feel a little less heavier than before.
"I'm so sorry that those bastards did that to you. But you're not ruined. You're the strongest girl I know and I love you. I'm so lucky to have you as my best friend. I'm sorry that you've been going through all this alone but now I'm here for you like I've always been. You're so brave. I love you Thena."
"I love you too Ky."