But if there's one thing I learned after all of it, that is forgiveness. I was so hurt by everything that happened. The pain turned into pure anger. Until the anger turned to numbness. I realized that locking myself in the past will never help my wounds heal. I want to be free. I want to start a life without the burdens of hatred in my heart.
The key to it is only forgiveness. I have been able to forgive over time. Maybe it's because of Zach that I was able to do it. I forgave Mommy for all her unjustifiable decisions. I forgave her for being unreasonable and vain.
I also learned to forgive Klyde for all the pain he inflected to Ate. I know I blamed him a lot even though I knew he had no control over what happened. I was driven by anger and sought revenge. Even him blamed himself. He was also very affected by what happened. And perhaps out of sadness and excessive guilt, he clung to drugs to temporarily forget everything.
