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Bai Xi's Pov:
I kissed him with all the longing and all the desperation I have been feeling over the past two days.
Forget about two days I couldn't even stay away from him for a single minute more.
The moments felt long and were a test for my mental capacity, which finally snapped right now. It would have snapped a few days later maybe but it would have at the next site of him. Because that's how much of a goner I am.
The last two days were pure agony and torture, and at more times than I can count I have lost myself thinking about him. It probably was the way I felt all stupid and cursed my existence for my inability to be with Si Yihan.
I kissed him deeply, hoping whatever I am doing is right because I got no experience in it. So I went with the feeling, gently sucking his lips in between mine before I got bit on my lower lip as he seeked entrance which I gave and he flicked his tongue inside, invading it.
It was a breaking point and I felt him pushing me further into the couch, while he followed me down, his hands moving along my sides, molding, caressing my curves up and down.
I arched up into him as he pressed down at me, his length pressing on my stomach, while his weight pressed against all of me and I roamed my hands on his broad back.
I played with the hairs on the nape of his neck before gliding them down his neck and then back upwards onto his back.
He took hold of my leg and wounded it up and around his waist as his length further pressed into me, sending all delicious tingling to my core, which literally left me on fire.
I grinded on his length to release the ache that has formed in my lower belly not knowing what I am doing any more. He groaned in response. "Don't do that baby or I won't be able to stop myself."
"Please" I whimpered.
"Please what baby?" he asked, while kissing his way down my throat and then nibbling on my collarbone giving me shivers as I shuddered against him.
I arched up and he moved his hand along my hipbone before grabbing my hip and squeezing it.
I moaned hard at the feeling and he pushed my hips up with his hand while grinding back into me.
A gasp escaped me at the foreign sensation and my thoughts blurred out as his lips reached the column of my neck and bit down there, a possesive growl stumbled out of him.
I let go of the inhibitions and moved my hands on his muscular chest which felt firm and hard beneath my fingers and I gazed at him as I moved my hands at his waist for balance as he grounded into me hard.
"Yes baby, let it go." he guided me with his voice.
I came hard, while shouting his name while he too came seconds after me.
He dropped a peck on my forehead before putting his head against mine and sighed against my lips.
"You okay Baby?"
"Yes" it came out hoarse due to all the shouting that I have done ."That was good"
He gazed at me with hooded eyes and a small hint of a smile pulled up at the corner of his lips.
"Are you okay? Did you...I mean..was it...good?" I asked him as I nervously glanced at him but couldn't speak any further than that.
"Yes baby. It was good for me too, infact amazing. You make me lose control so easily." He whispered while nuzzling my right cheek.
I shyd away at his words but nuzzled back him.
He continued saying, "I loved the way you looked when you came while shouting my name."
I felt blush creeping on me at his compliment while I turned my head slightly, resting it on his shoulder and breathing in the scent of him. I lightly kissed his pulse point on his neck.
He shuddered against me while moving his hand up to cup my face while asking, "look at me baby.
His eyes bored into mine before his gaze turned serious but gentle and whispered, "I want to make sure something baby, I hope you won't shy away from me anymore and definetely no more thoughts of staying away or anything like that. I hope you understand that it's already too late. And now I am not letting you go."
His words fell out possesively as his eyes roamed over every inch on mine and and I realised we are still in the same position. So I tried to push at him but he didn't budged as he looked over me giving me an intense look.
I sighed as I gazed into the deep flickers of brown and I nodded at the clear certainty that reflected in his eyes.
Well atleast this got me back on the track. And this time after I pushed he moved back and asked me to point him to the bathroom.
I guestured at the back while he detangled from me. He squeezed my hand before going away.
Without him, my thoughts snapped back in place and I sighed at my sheer lack of willpower against him.
I really am intolerant to him. One word and I was a goner. I am ashamed of how easily I gave in.
But atleast this time I don't feel the guilt or any other uncertainty that I felt last time. It isn't like I didn't tried, atleast I tried to stay away but it clearly didn't work out so I am left with no other option than this.
I relented too quickly and I groaned softly before pushing my face against the pillow and screamed silently at my lack of intelligence.
"Too soon, so stupid, so stupid." I groaned at myself.
"Too late to regret don't you think."
I gasped at his voice and turned around to see him standing against the wall while looking at me with an intensity that made ashiver run down my spine.
I visibly stiffened for a moment before snapping back , "when did you came back"
"When you were busy with cursing yourself for giving in too soon while calling yourself stupid over and over again."
I blushed at the realisation that he saw my mental fight.