My brother i remember the fear when you were three and i saw in the future you would no longer be here
i cried real tears and ran to you yelling come here i held you in my arms and for some reson you were crying too
as cliche as it was this happened on a cold dark night the only light was the stars above the clearest ive ever seem them
a string of cars drive by the red taillights like eyes of the demons that took you from us
that night it was like the world went quite and it was just us and our tears
i told you i loved you and i would always be here
fast forward to the future your time was near plagued with bad dreams i woke you up and asked you to sleep next to me this happen more nights than not but it was ok because i felt you were safe next to me
you came with me on my expeditions to make button buddys we had good memories and great laughs but i was not in your mind and couldn't see what was going through it at the time i forgot about the vision for a time
when your words grew dark my eyes watched you as i grew scared and angry that you were going to leave this world
i told you to watch your mouth words cast spells i threaten to tell i wish i did maybe you would still be here instead of saints marys
i stayed close for a while you seemed to be better watching moves spending time together then a trap was place and i was distracted
you knocked on my door that was not my own foreshadowing the future you said you were scared
it was like i wasn't really there out of my body i told you to go back to sleep nothing is there
it was like the world lagged i could have sworn you were in there laying on the floor at the bottom of the bed wrapped in that green cover
so i was confused ripped from my dreams when mom busted in turning on the light your lifeless body in tow
fear has never felt so strong soul crushing and heart shattering i knew the clock caught up
so many tears and screams you were not breathing not responding but when you threw up we let out a short breath of relief and it was stolen
carrying an 8 year old has never felt so hard so heavy the stairs were longer than normal the lights brighter
calling for help took for ever beating my self up along the way because i knew what no one else did
when they carried you to the car and you left everything was quiet we waited forever for the call that murdered us all
you took part of my soul and most my tears time flew and its been a bad 7 years wishing you were here
now 8 is my lucky number and green is one of my favorite colors as your dew date grows near this void feeling is back
when writing these words ive shed some tears my brother i had you i wanted to be your protector to rescue you from your fate but they are cruel and had more power than I do
my brother i miss you my brother i love you my brother its lonely with out you beside me my brother im sorry
I've held this secret deep in my mind and my heart a weight has been lifted but only one this stills feels like a dream im ready to be done i hope your there when i wake up my brother my brother my brother