~~ CARMELA POV ~~
Zamiel walked into the room with a straight face, he seemed worried about something but am not going to ask him about it ... as am mad at both him and Carlene
if you're wondering why .. then don't cause am about to tell you what happened
A FEW HOURS AGO
After escaping mum's wrath, I left to go freshen up .. after which I left for the dining room
" Hey sister in law " Xavier greeted with a wild smile which I returned and gave him a hug
" it seems like we haven't met for day's.although we stay under one roof..which is kinda true " he complained making me chuckle and he returned to speaking to Asher and the other two guys
I left for the kitchen and to my relief Rain and Grammy were making breakfast. Mum and Dad must probably be somewhere romancing... eish.. what weird parents I get
and Carlene is nowhere to be found.
I decided to go search for her and was shocked to hear her conversation when I arrived at her room
" what are you trying to say " I heard Zamiel ask in a bored tone
" just say away from my sister..and don't forget you both are just going to be a married couple for a year " Carlene retorted and I could tell from her voice that she was annoyed
" so ? "
" How can you be this heartless Zamiel Dean .. don't forget that your marriage to my sister is just a contract and ... "
" Can you just go straight to the point and stop beating around the bush "
" I want you to keep your distance from my sister I don't want her to be heartbroken when this contract is over," she said and stormed away...
okay one thing is for sure theirs surely more to this marriage than Carlene told me about and why does she think I'll be heartbroken once this contract is over
" Carlene " I called and ran after her
" Carlene...hold on a minute," I said catching up with her
" what is it and why are you running around"
" am not running around... " I took in a deep breath to calm my nerves
" what were you and Zamiel talking about ? why did you have to marry him in the first place? .. remember you still owe me an explanation "
" it's nothing "
" nothing? Carlene did you just say nothing... don't forget being in this marriage because of you and your actions..so don't I at least deserve to know the reason behind this marriage? " I asked trying not to lose my cool
" and what difference would it make to you if I tell you the reason behind this marriage?.. would it change the fact that you're in love with Zamiel? "
" ... " to be sincere I was left speechless after hearing this
" don't pretend Carmela I know you better than you know yourself and I know you love Zamiel.. and also if you want to know the reason behind your marriage to Zamiel then ask him yourself don't ask me," she said and work out on me
Okay my mind seems to be in a mess
firstly am aware of the fact that I do have feelings towards Zamiel even if he's not that nice to me ..but that doesn't mean I love him... or does it?
and secondly, she's giving me attitude although she the one in the wrong
am surely not going to spear her
I wanted to chase after her and pulled her by her hair then slam her face on the table ...but stopped in my track when I remembered the punishment mum gave us both the last time we fought
I took in more breaths to calm myself and then made my way to the dining room
I ate my breakfast quietly not reacting nor contributing to the discussion going on and then left for my room
...
I know you might feel like am overreacting but why did she have to answer me the way she did
I understand if she didn't want to tell me what she and Zamiel were talking about but she didn't have to react like that ... Still lost in taught about what she said
' stop arguing you do have feelings for him ' my subconscious said and I wanted to argue but stopped as I couldn't prove otherwise
" what are you doing? " Zamiel asked dragging me out of my thoughts and taking a sitting ting beside me
" Are you blind?.. or maybe you're pretending to be blind. isn't it obvious that am ready " I waved the book I borrowed from Dad and he snatched it
" my love affair with music " he read out the name of the book and I couldn't help but roll my eyes.. what a hypocrite I fell for
" Can you just let me be.. after all, am not Carlene who you keep secrets with," I said remembering thaththey wereding something for me which made my blood boil
" hmm... what happened? "
" What secret are you Carlene keeping? " I went straight to the point
" secret.. what are you talking about? "
" oh don't pretend to be innocent I want to know the main reason behind our marriage "
" hmm... you know what Carmela there are just some things that aren't supposed to be revealed " he said and sighed
" And what if I say I love you... what if I say am madly in love with you although you don't treat me nicest " although that wasn't what I planned to say I couldn't be greater andandt
for the very first time I felt as if am doing the right thing although it seems stupid.
" Carmela you shouldn't joke with stuff like that " he dropped my book and I suddenly felt the urge to speak more, I could feel my boil so much.
" I didn't say am joking... I don't know how or when I fell for you but I can boldly say that 'I LOVE YOU ' " I argue more
I don't know if what am doing is right or not but I couldn't care less as long as I can get this burden off my chest
The burden of learning how to cook so I can please him, or trying to do things to his thirst.
At first, when Xavier confronted me about my feelings towards Zamiel the other day at the park I brushed it off saying I just care for him.
but when I suddenly became angry at the fact that both Zamiel and Carlene were keeping secrets and she confronted me about my feelings I also couldn't deny the fact that I have feelings for him not just feelings I love him