The day Adrian is supposed to travel came earlier than expected. As promised he came to work on Monday and Tuesday. He spent most of his working hours on Monday with my parents, so I didn't get to see him at all. On Tuesday, Mom had asked me to come along with her to a meeting. I saw him briefly by the door to his office while I was going out with Mom. My emotions have been all over the place lately ever since that night. Being that close to him, with my arms around him and him breathing in my scent like that, did something I can't explain to my whole being. I wanted him to kiss me. A part of me knows I am attracted to him, another part of me feels it's too early to have this kind of feeling towards another man. I don't think I am ready for the rollercoaster of emotions at this moment and then there is still James and Vanessa that I still haven't taken care of. James would milk the situation if he ever finds out about me going out with someone else. What a mess.