Chapter 35 (Andrew's POV)
I came back home in the late afternoon hours.
All day long I had this weird feeling inside my gut, something was wrong.
and even now standing in front of my house I couldn't shake this weird feeling.
I forced myself to step inside my own house.
I swear I wasn't that reluctant to step inside even when I knew Shawna was waiting for me on the other side of the door.
When I was finally in, I locked the door behind myself and went to put the keys in the bowl I kept beside the door.
But there stood a letter. Just the sight of it sent cold shivers down my spine.
I knew that net writing.
I knew whom it belonged to.
It was Vicky's writing.
And if a letter was waiting for me, it could mean only one thing.
She was gone.
I opened the letter with shaky hands and my worst fear was confirmed.
She was gone.
I understood the reasoning behind her words, but it was still painful.
"Damn you Vicky! Why did you leave!"
I knew I was speaking to myself but I didn't care.
She was gone.
The worst part of her being gone was the fact that she was wrong.
I did love her, but she didn't even give me a chance to tell her and to show her how deep my love for her truly was.
She didn't even know it, but she dug herself deep into my heart.
And now, because I was an idiot and didn't tell her soon enough, she thought I didn't love her, and I have lost her.
After a few hours of silence and thinking I finally came to a conclusion.
She wanted us to go back to the way things have been before she came to Scotland.
I can give her that.
We can go back to texting and chatting through video calls, and in the meantime I can show her how much she means to me.
I will give her today, because I had no idea when her plane took off or landed, but I will call her tomorrow in the evening.
I need to let her know I'm not angry because she left, but also that she hurt me all the same.
Then we can go back to being friends, because just like she said in her letter.
I can't lose her either.
In a short time she became a huge part of my life, so losing her was not an option.
And I will keep her in my life in whatever way she will let me.
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It was 6 in the afternoon the next day.
So that means it was 7 on Vicky's side.
Amy was with my mom, because I asked her to babysit my little monster for a few more days and she gladly accepted.
I opened my Whatsapp and dialed Vicky's number.
I just hoped she would answer my call, and my prayer was heard a few moments later when she picked up her phone.
As soon as I saw her smiling face, a huge smile also split my face.
A huge rock has been lifted from my chest and it felt like I breathed for the first time since reading her letter yesterday.
"Hey there love. I was afraid you would ignore me now after your letter yesterday."
My words were only partly meant as a joke, but I could see my words hurt her nonetheless.
I was just about to apologize for wording it the wrong way when she spoke up.
"I really am sorry for the way I left. But saying goodbye to you would destroy me. And I was afraid you would find a way to make me stay. Even though I wouldn't need much convincing. So it was better I left the way I did, but like I've written to you. This ain't goodbye, it's only until the next time. We both had to return to our lives sometime soon. But if it makes you feel any better, I miss you like crazy already."
I smiled at her gently. She had a point there.
And as much as I wanted to argue with her, she was right. I would try to convince her to stay with me. Which was completely egoistic on my side.
Not once since she came to Scotland did I think about the fact, her life was in another country.
"I know love. And I really am sorry for being such an egoistic idiot. I was only focused on keeping you with me and not once did I think you also had a life you needed to get back to. Can you forgive me? "
She started laughing as soon as I finished talking. And at that sweet sound my world just became right again.
I now know we can keep each other in our lives at least in this way for now.
"There is nothing to forgive you dummy. Just don't be a stranger. We need to keep things the way they were before, which means, speaking to each other on a daily basis. Do we have a deal?"
"Of course we have a deal. Any other option is not an option at all. Now tell me how was your flight?"
And so our friendship was back on solid ground.
For now.
What she didn't know was that I was not going to give up on her.
I will show her just how far my love can reach.