when i reached home i aske dmy motheher whats happened to me, my mom said to me nothing ghani dont worry, i told tgem mother please tell me i wnt to know i have some problem from many years i know but its a little bit but now its came out with full power and show me and feel somthing is wrong, my mom tell me son dont worry nothing, i went towards my room and close the room, i am thinking whats happened with me and at tht time mikey,s phone came to me she asked ghani how is your feeling now i told them i am almost fine you have no need to worry for this, mikey tell me how she was frightened, after when her phone call was finished i go to my parents room when i reached near room i heard that mother was talking with father i heard mother was weeping and ask my father that whats happen with ghani he is our only son and dr told them that h have severe kidney,s problem and ghani have by birth a solitary kidney only one kidney and that might be in a failure position and if the test and reports come negative then may be ghani will not survive more in future, my father was a brave man and he is a Muslim and he is from pakistan and the peopels of pakistan were very brave, my father told my mother dont worry God knows better what is good for us we are their peoples and God is so merciful he will do good for us dont worry.
when i heard this i came back and close the door of my room and wept hardly and said to God whats happen with me and this should be appear at that time when i was planning for marry with my love and on that time when my life,s big wish come true and during this time i have feel sleep and slept, i wake up in the morning and again i was not move able from my bed i was feeling nausea and vomiting and severe medical problem i have vomit of blood again, my mom come to me and she give me a some support for bathroom and she weep again to look me.
after a short time i was better feeling my mother take me on dining table where my father w already sit and they said me ghani how is your feeling i told them father i know every thing whats happen to me i heard your story at yesterday when you are talking with each other about me and i know abut my medical condition, father put my hand in his hand and tell me sit down son near me boy dont worry God knows better what is right or wrong just pray with God and he will help us, i was weeping like child then my father told me ghani trust on God and he will help us, ok know do your breakfast and take your medicine, after breakfast i came in my room and make a phone call to mikey but she is not attend my phone, i will do my other works then i went outside home at the evening mikey,s phone call came to me and she asked that she is coming home to look me i told them that she is not come home because i am sleeping now, in fact i dont want this that she come and see my condition and she will sad with this.
any how my appointment day come and i go with my family at hospital dr ask that he wants to talk with my parents and you will stay outside, i told to dr i know about my medical condition dont worry i have to face them,please speak, dr told us that your lab reports and scan reports tell us that you have on kidney failure soon or later it could,t work and you have solitary kidney also mean you have only one kidney by birth, i was almost lay down to hear this my father and mother was also fed up and my mother start weeping, there was my father who control this situation and ask us to stay calm and ghani you should be brave my son, then i try to come back in my senses my father told to dr, now what is the solution, he tell us initially we have need of dialysis and then we will see the position of the kidney then we decided, shortly my life was in threat that how much time i survived with this diseases and what is the future i was totally blind now, after my first dialysis which is very painful and difficult process we came home back with the new date of checkup.
when we reached home my mother was still weeping i asked o my mom please keep calm if the God wants this then he knows better what we can do mom we just pray to him, and please give me a one promise nobody can knows bout this except us and nobody could,t know about this out of us especially mikey because this the shock for mikey to one side she was engage with me and want to Mary with me and on the other hand this could be happens she will not bear this shock, mom told me ok ghani as you wish then i came in my room and sleep at the night time i wake up due to pain and vomit i just come outside on terrace there was awesome weather moon light spread every where and cool wind blowing, i thought that this weather i like most and always make a wish that mikey should be with me at these movement, but God know something else.
next day morning mikey phone call came to me that she wants to meet m,i told her that i am going outside city to met with one of my relative so i cant meet her, she tell me that she will take a few minutes and than she move from home and you may go, but i tell her i am ready to move so now after come back i met her, mikey tell me ghani listen before she speak more i am cut off her call and throw my phone on bed i pray to my God that he take my soul from my body but this is happening with me i cant do with miky, because she loves me a lot and what i was did with her whom i could,t think about it, without mikey i dont have need this life and i will die and if i tell about my disease she will die, i was capture in the hard life cycle,
meanwhile i told my mom the whole story about mikey phone call i tell my mom that please dont ask mikey about my presence in home, when ever she call you and ask you about me. then i come in my room, after a week again mikey calls me on my phone at this time i was doing breakfast i cut off her phone call mom looking all of this scene and she tell me, why ghani , mom told me mikey,s phone call came to her yesterday and she ask question about your health and about your tour out of city. but i did not tell her about this now tell me why you did not tell them whole story about your disease, i asked to my mom if i told her she will die she will not face this truth, i am waiting for some good time may God give me health or i have my decision to when i will talk her. then the time come after one month we went to hospital for routine checkup, dr take again some test and scan, after examine he tell me ghani you have need again dialysis because your kidney is not doing propr work and its goes down day by day, i asked to dr philips that i have my bad condition i am also feeling my position worse day by day.
my father told dr philips dialysis again after one month with this he will die soon, dr tell them mr usman the one last solution is kidney transplant if you have your family member or some one else donate, we transplant it my father told dr its not so easy if you asked me then take my kidney and if this is possible dr tell them no mr usman it si not possible your age is above 50 and there will be a loot of problems with this and may be it can not work properly, so we have need some young person which kidney match with ghani, shortly i go for dialysis again and this time i bear a lot of pain then we came home.
one day i was sitting in terrace mom come to mean ask ghani what did you think about mikey i told mom as you know i love her and i dont want to leave her but what can i do my God wants this, now i decide that i leave mikey because i dont want to ruin her life just for my love, and mom it dose,t mean that whom you love you have to mary with them, love always want sacrifice, those peoples who met with each other after love is the lucky person but unfortunately i dont have luck.