I rushed back into the house immediately the car came to a standstill without looking back to see what expression he had on. He didn't think twice before doing what he did to me so why did I have to care about him.
"He didn't listen to my tears. It even looked like he was having fun than someone who had been forced to do something. He could have just pretended he did it but he didn't, he could have just spoken to me about it but he didn't.", I mouthed angrily staggering into the room.
"Is that you my Princess?", Ana never seizes to notice my presence whenever I entered the house. I just continued moving till I got to my room locking the door behind me.
"Why do you always lock the door behind you? What's going on? You haven't been yourself these days", Ana's voice was coming through the door and it was aching my heart. I didn't mean to get her worried but I couldn't control it either.
I pushed everything on my dressing table and it came crushing down on the floor. Sitting down and letting out loud cries, Ana could not get her heart to rest. She kept knocking and when I still refused to open the door, she threatened me.
"I'm just going to count to three and if you don't open the door, I would have no choice than to call your mum to inform her", she knew how my mum's temper was and she wasn't going to clam down once she hears I've not been myself.
I walked hesitantly towards the door holding into the knob when she started counting.
"One…two…", I realized she was being serious and I didn't want my parents involved in any of these matters. I wanted to solve this my own way and that was exactly what I was going to do.
I opened the door and she rushed in rubbing her hands on my body to searching for something I don't even know about.
"What are you doing?", I stopped her when she started cupping my face in her palm.
"What is wrong with you? How long have you been crying? You look so miserable ", I didn't know I needed shoulders to cry on until then. I jumped into her arms like an eight year baby and sobbed bitterly on her shoulders. She rubbed and parted my back as she used to do whenever I cried from my mum's scoldings.
After a while of being in that position , I released myself and sat on the edge of the bed.
"Are you going to talk to me now or you want to discuss it with your parents rather?", she was threatening me again .
"I…found…I found him", I finally spoke stopping to sniff.
"Found who?", she was confused.
"I found him Ana but …I don't know …why I can't hate him". It was true I wanted to hate him but I don't know why the hatred refused to show itself. It was as if I was forcing myself to hate him. It looked like my inner being wanted to reason with the fact that he had no choice.
"Can you speak in details because you are confusing me right now", she complained.
"He said he had no choice but to comply. He said he had fallen in love with the girl he f**led without her approval. Is that even possible?", I asked wiping my tears.
"Seriously Ash, I still don't get you"
"It was him, Keenan. He said it was him. He said he didn't have any choice. He said he had to do it to save him mother. He had to….rape me in other to save his mother".
"You can't be serious. That guy can't do a thing like that, maybe he's just pranking you", she had the same face of denial I had when I also heard it.
"Yeah. That was what I said to myself until he used the same phrase he used back then", I chuckled.
"You are speechless, ain't you?", I smirked at her shocked expression.
"What are you going to do then? Tell your mum?", she came back from her imaginary tour to the unknown.
"Ana I don't want her to know about any of this. Let me handle my life for once, please", I pleaded with her and she gave me a confused nasty look.
"Ash, you are trying to accept his explanations because you have fallen for him", she said making me pout my lips.
"Ana, I have not fallen for anyone, I'm just trying to be a bit reasonable that all", I told her stretching my body on my bed to sleep.
"You are hurt not because he did that to you but you feel betrayed. You can't hate him because you love him and you want to lie to yourself that what he did was right…. I'd leave you to rest", she said not wanting to continue whatever she had in mind and left the room.
"This should be between us Ana", i informed from behind before hearing her footsteps fade away.