(Mint POV)
when the smell of cherry blossoms bloom in full glory,
it feels like, I'm taken to another world.
the petals full of pinkish aura furnishes the whole garden into a delighted zone,
the love that it received from the sunshine was worth enough to encounter a minimum 80% of human to the meagre into this world.
it can make one to chose this path aren't look stupid enough,
like a sweet poison, it's maybe dangerous,
but as it's sugar calls upon the consumer so delightfully I don't think maximum can resist.
the atmosphere, the scene and the natural gifts to this environment fits perfectly,
makes everything suitable for the memorable moment that will occur in a few time.
what was it? I don't imagine, but it feels like something better is going to be,
the laps of time continued I saw my phone again and again. but I didn't find anything suspicious.
I turned my head down in shame of hoping for more,
sincerely I took my phone back to my pocket thought
It is maybe not today.
but,
once I have heard a notification message, it quickly turned my face to joy.
the one text I was waiting for was printed on the screen.
finally, my blush came out as an expression on my face,
breaking every resisting shy that was over me.
the time proceeded and continued until I can feel him near me.
I turned,
he was there at the path standing and feeling shy about something.
blushing gives him a different aura on his body language,
I can see clearly though that from distance.
when I see him smiling more than I can handle,
my heart cannot take those dreadful strikes.
walking along the path towards me he blinked his both eyes,
felt me like a summer spring I have been sinking into the deep-deep ocean.
did I? am I?
ah! I have no answer.
yes, he was in front of me, standing straight and looking me happily,
his face with that blushing glory and have a flower smile stuck in there for a long time.
he was trying to state something to me, but was wondering,
tell or not?
might his mind was thinking to share his thoughts with someone like me.
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Ah! he looked so dam cute and adorable. what can I do with my pounding heart? if it's going like this It might burst in seconds. he asked me to come along to a silent place. he needs to discuss something important. I get him to the spot.
"what is it, Martin? you asked me to come along here."
"Mint, I have something to discuss with you."
"yes, ask what is it?"
"but first promise me you won't get mad or let know anyone about this."
"Wait, what?
what kind of question is that makes me mad?
why does it have to keep it secret?"
"I'll tell you, but first promise me that."
"ok, ok, I promise I will not tell anyone."
"Mint you are one of the most suitable ones that I can discuss this. you look more open-minded person that can understand this matter out of any one of the people I know. your advice is best for someone who is in a situation like this, I can rely on you in this."
he asked me that, I was surprised what kind of question he was going to ask me.
wait? what? open-minded? is this related to his preferences? I looked at him with a shocked face. I now can guess him what he was going to say. I swallow my saliva and make myself ready for his question.
"Mint, I don't want to hide it from you. but I don't know how you react to this if you listen to this. so I have not discussed it."
Is he really going to come out to me today? I was waiting for him to answer my thoughts.
he takes a deep breath and he exiles his breath. and said.
"Mint, I am a bisexual."
I was right about him. it's really related to his preference
I thought it was a question but instead, he was telling me something true. somehow I feel happy I don't know why? but feel freaking happy.
"Please don't hate me for being like This."
"It's ok."
I stated those words in a sympathetic way.
"Usually I don't have to come out, Maximum of my friends know about my sexuality even I didn't tell them. almost every one of my classmate at my previous school. and about this university maximum people whom I trust knew too. somehow, I thought you might not recognise regarding this. so it's better to talk openly to you. so, I am telling you this."
he was so brave that he tell me directly. I couldn't do that. I was afraid if I open up to people, my existence will cause a problem for my family. and I know my family would not accept me like this. that's why I was not brave enough to come out. I feel self-pity myself for not able to say like he does today.
"I can understand."
with this much speaking. I thought I should tell him too about myself. even I hesitate my inner voice take charge of my lips. and it wanted to spoke out.
but...
{"It's probably a big deal to telling your inner self, Martin. you are good at it, some of the people out there even can't express that. it feels so dead from inside when you can't live freely. I am well aware of that."
His face turned to me. and looked, he can understand my vocals. but his expression was telling me he was willing to acknowledge what I was truly talking about. final I spoke out.
"I can feel this because I am one of you."
"!!!!!"
"yes, I am Gay"}
these words seem simple to think to say but it's, way more complicated than one can imagine. after all these all words written inside the bracket were happened in my imagination.
it would have been better if I said those line above, maybe on that day, my voice would speak truly. somehow I can't. things might look simple but could be far more riddle when around them. if it gets right then everything is fine, but if it came out in an opposite way, the person who said those should be ready for the consequences that it follows. in other terms, it's only the matter of person whom you have been represented those sentences. having a lack of faith in someone is like the thinnest thread tied around, can be broken easily. that the reason I haven't told about myself rather than Jasmine. so, I stop myself from speaking those words for a while. I might think it's not the right time though. I need more time. I'm not like Martin, I'm not like the person to let others know about my personal life more. I don't like to get away with that idol figure. I don't like to misjudged or miss treated by the people. I don't like to be a disappointment to my parents. I don't like to see as an imperfect man. these were the reason that stops me from saying what inside my head. and it stops me while figuring out what he was truly here for...