(Mint POV)
I always think it would be better if the whole of society will prefer us as normal people. not only some special person or some acceptable people acknowledge about us. it would be better to live in a society where we can live in freedom to express ourselves, love our self. acknowledge, who I am. a society where being one of us may not be shameful in the eyes of people. just this much is worthy enough for people like me. but it seems less possibility that my world exists. ah! it makes me cry. if someday it will occur, there will be no one left for being unacceptable.
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moreover, let's get it straight, I want a world only filled with the LGBTQ people only. where no one is straight ( I'll discuss this in the next chapter.) at least 70% of the people of the world population should be bisexual so the straight couple thing can be maintained. and other 30%, gays and lesbians should be 15%, 5% queer and 10% other sexuality. or 30% can be the percentage that varied for different sexuality. or just let me discuss it openly in the next chapter.
the thing is that when he called me out to meet. I was not expecting he called me to discuss that, neither I have thought that he will say that too. yes! I was saying all the stuff that happen until now. rather form his come out. he stated another thing too.
"Actually I was a bit concerned regarding another issue."
"yes what is it?"
I asked him frankly.
"Mint, I actually, I think I like Eric."
"!!!!!!"
that was... ah!!!!! that's slams my face directly. It supposes to be heart heartbreaking right? it does makes damage. tore with those words, just like a knife does. it feels freaked hurt. my hope of wonderland collapse in seconds when those words came out of his mouth like a wrecking ball. I didn't know how to react. I just, go with the flow and wanted to talk more openly about it in a specific way but normally.
"I am not fully sure but whenever he gets close to me I kinda feel a bit weird."
I looked at him, my mind was trying to understand his sentences. what does that mean? is he confused or something? I was curious to acknowledge his words so I asked.
"are you trying to say that you are still confused about liking him or not?"
"Maybe!😅"
I exile my breath as a relief that he is still figuring out about that. but still I... don't wanna accept this fact. my heart was hurt for sure. so cause it's trying to convince myself and him.
"Ok!!! suppose if you really like him then what you gonna do?."
"A!! M!! I will make my move."
"Are you sure?"
"ya, definitely. if I like him then it wastes to hide it form him. if that person doesn't know about my feelings how can I expect him to like me back."
"Probably, you are right? but aren't you afraid of being rejected?"
"Mint, if I sat around and do nothing that person will never know about my feelings. neither do I knew his feeling towards me. rather than that, if I didn't speak to him, he might be taken by someone else. then I have regret that I haven't tell him on time."
"But still...."
"Mint, look when I confess, I might get rejected. maybe even can be accepted. probability is 50%-50% each."
"but aren't you afraid that when you get rejected he might gossip about you to others."
"Mint, I know why are so concern. people like me are afraid of that too. if something goes wrong I might have to ready to face consequences. if something like that happens I sure I'm brave enough to deal with it.
Eric is actually a good person moreover a good friend of mine. and I know he is not that kind of person gossiping about someone. I trust him."
"Ya, that's true too. he is trustworthy. but still.."
"as I said, the world might not be as good as we thought. it might be a little bit different. they might not understand, but there are some specific people in this world that are trustworthy enough that we can open up. Like my friend, I don't need to hide myself to them. whatever am I, they can accept. things can take time, but if they truly love me they can accept me for being who I am. they can understand and never leave."
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"I'm gonna hit on Eric. like for sure."
"ok, if you are confident then do so."
"Yup, definitely. but for that, I need your help."
here it goes. he gives me that creepy smile of his. oh! God, it's already started. now he will use me as a tool to approach him. why is this happening?
Dam!!!!!
"Mint help me."
he grabs my hand and started shaking it making a pout type of appearance on his face which was begging for help.
I am not saying that I don't wanna help, the thing is that it's hard, it's hard as you see that the person you may be like, liking someone else. and the worst scenario, ask for your help to approach the person he like. things are so likely to seem like, I don't have any opportunity other then helping him.
"Ok, I do it."