In the grand halls of our empire, I've come to know the secrets veiled within the palace walls – the untold truths that could shatter the very foundation of our royal lineage. I bear the weight of my mother's legacy, aware of the shadows that linger, revealing the demise orchestrated by unseen hands.
Astonishingly, she chose a path of forgiveness instead of vengeance.
To my dear siblings, I extend my apologies for any moments of anger or unkindness. Despite your hostility, I love you all very much and wishes for your happiness Witnessing your births brought unparalleled joy, akin to celestial beings gracing the earthly realm.
Despite the palace's cunning games, I strived to be a devoted and responsible elder sibling.
Even if our paths never cross, my desire is to grant you every wish. You, innocent of the palace's treacheries, deserve unbridled happiness. My earnest wish was that, as your elder brother, I could shield you from the palace's deceit.
May the happiness I sought for myself now belong to you, my cherished brothers and sisters.
Having never experienced love or acceptance within my own family, I yearn to find a place where I can be valued and respected for who I am.
In my pursuit of universal love, my gaze rested on Rose, my ex-fiancée – the second love of my life. Her rejection stung, yet my love for her was unwavering.
It was more than that which affected me but it's not appropriate to say other things here.
Life, from the onset, proved arduous. Post my mother's demise, Rose became the beacon of my affections. In a world teeming with faces, she stood as my sole devotion. My mother's counsel echoed – never make a girl cry, and for the one you love, relinquish all for her happiness.
Bound by the responsibilities thrust upon me as crown prince, my days were marred by perpetual stress.
The weight of constant meetings, document scrutiny, judgments, and self-preservation bore heavily upon me. I contemplated an escape from this mental turmoil, but my duty detained me within the palace's confines.
Recent years unfolded as a lone flower amidst rocks – distinctive and isolated. God, it seemed, bestowed misfortunes upon me, making my existence a canvas for suffering. The warmth of being loved faded, while those who harbored resentment endured.
Reflecting on my past, darkness loomed, devoid of a glimmer of light. Even if a flicker emerged, it vanished swiftly. I denounce this time, this place, the devil, and all his machinations!
Loneliness enveloped my existence, with hatred as my constant companion. Living seemed devoid of joy, and the solitude became unbearable. I yearned for someone to stand by me through all emotions.
In my departure, I hope for your happiness. Live the lives you desire, embrace joy, and remember the black star that once dimmed the royal radiance. I harbor no hatred; Crown Prince Alex's end marks the end of animosity.
In retrospect, irritation festers for recent events, yet I remained in the palace for eighteen years to honor a promise, not due to societal expectations.
As my mother once said, "Even the moon weeps for someone at night, that's why the leaf adorned with dew at dawn." My journey, once fraught with disdain, concludes without harboring resentment.