INDIGO'S POV
"Did I do something wrong, waterlily?" Lily's eyes widened as she looked up from her phone. She quickly put her phone in her pants pocket, as she held her breath. I could hear her heartbeat quickening.
"Lily...please, if I did something to hurt or offend you..."
"No!" she said before I could finish my sentence. She rose her hands and started frantically messaging her scalp. She glanced up at me with her silver eyes, the same eyes I wanted to get lost in forever. "Indigo, you didn't do anything wrong."
"Then what's wrong? Why are you so nervous? Do I scare you?"
"Absolutely not! You don't scare me at all!"
"Then what is wrong? Was there something wrong with the kiss?"
"No! The kiss was amazing!" My wolf howled in excitement.
-See! See! I told you she would feel it! I told you she would feel the mating pull!-
~Not now, Shadow!~
"Then why did you run out of the classroom?" She looked down and muttered curses under her breath.
"Waterlily," I reached for her hand, but the moment my hand touched hers she pulled away. My heart became heavy as I felt a piercing, aching pain in my heart.
"I'm sorry, Indigo. I just...I just don't know what's going on."
~Should I tell her? Should I tell her I'm a werewolf?~
-Yes! Tell her! Then she'll understand! Then she'll agree to be our mate!-
~Shadow, I don't think it works like that.~
Shadow began to whimper as he paced around anxiously.
-Then what are we going to do? I don't want to lose her.-
~I don't want to lose her either.~
"Lily, I know this might be confusing and strange. But I can explain everything, I just need you to trust me."
"But that's the thing! I don't know if I can!
"What? What do you mean! You know I would never hurt you!"
"Do I? I can't even think straight when I'm around you!"
"Then let me prove it to you! Let me prove to you that I am someone you can trust!"
"Why, Why should I?"
"Because you're..."
~My mate. What good would it do if I told her? She would probably think I'm crazy.~
I took a deep breath, the last thing I wanted to do was to make things worse. I didn't want to say things out of anger.
"Because you're the person I want to know more about. The person I want to be around. Don't you want that too?"
She stared at me, silent for a moment. Her eyes swelled up with tears.
~I hate that she's crying, I don't ever want to see her cry.~
I stepped forward and put my hand a few inches away from her cheek. Careful not to touch her without her permission. She glanced at my hand, gave me a small smile, and glided my hand to her cheek. I rubbed off the falling tears with my thumb causing her to close her eyes. Giving in to the sensation of my touch.
"Yes...and no. I don't know." She opened her eyes which were now tinted red.
"I...I don't want to force you into something you don't want to do. But I promise you, I can be trusted. Let me prove it to you. How about we go do something together? Like a movie or a picnic, so we can know each other better."
"Like a date?"
"Yeah, exactly like a date." She reopened her eyes, allowing me to again get lost in their beauty. For a moment I was happy and hopeful. But then she removed my hand from her cheek, her eyes no longer loving but cold.
"No. I'm sorry Indigo, but I can't go on a date with you." She looked at her feet, continuing to move farther away from me. "I don't want a relationship with you at all. I'll complete the final with you and be friendly, but that is it."
Shadow began to whimper as he laid down in a ball. I couldn't blame him, I wanted to do the same.
~I waited five years for her, and now she is going to reject me.~
"Why? Can you at least tell me why?" Her cold, silver eyes stared right into mine, tears still falling down her cheeks.
"I can't get into another relationship. Not now, I just can't."
"Is it true though? Would you never want to be in a relationship with me?"
"Why do you even care!? We only just met three days ago!"
"Please Lily, can you please just answer the question?"
"Yes! It's true ok! Are you happy now!?"
~No... happiness would be holding you in my arms. Happiness would be kissing you good morning, goodnight, and good afternoon. It would be me getting to taste your lips anytime I could. Happiness would be me waking up to you every morning and seeing a smile on your face. I would be happy if my mate felt the same way! No, I'm not happy!~
-What if she is just confused? Maybe she'll turn around. Maybe she just needs time?-
~No Shadow, she made it very clear that she never wants to be with us.~
"If that is the way you feel Lilyanna...then I need you to say 'I Lilyanna White reject you, Indigo Woods, as my mate,'" I said with my fist and teeth clenched.
"What?"
"If our kiss meant nothing, if our pull means nothing then say 'I Lilyanna White reject you, Indigo Woods, as my mate.'"
"What are you talking about?" She looked at me with a confused look, "What do you mean mate? We are not mates!"
"Please Liliyanna, If you care about me at all then just say it!"
"Lily? What's going on?" I glanced at where the other voice came from. I recognized her from the party, it was Lilyanna's best friend.
"Nothing Una. I thought I was meeting you at the nursing building's parking lot?"
"Yeah you were, twenty-five minutes ago." Una tapped the face of her watch. Lilyanna pulled out her phone, as she unlocked it her palm smacked her forehead.
"Fuck, I'm so sorry Una. I must have lost track of time." She then glanced at me, her eyes kinder than they were before.
"Ind..."
"No, Lilyanna. Not today, not right now. I think it would be best if I left. Goodnight, I'll see you in class tomorrow." I turned the opposite way and started walking, I didn't care where I was going I just wanted to get far away from there.
~Is this my fate, moon goddess? To live the rest of my life with a mate that wants nothing to do with me? Yet the most fucked up thing imaginable is even after everything she said, I miss her.~