When I entered the bulding Uncle Sam, who is the receptionist, smiled at me."Go ,you are late again.Rayan has come."I also smiled at him. But there were some ideas in my mind. If he say so ,that means no one has suspected anything.To be able to not let anyone suspect means that there might be three or four people.Two hench man at most.I cann't deal with them alone.Should I call some people over?No, I cann't endanger their lives.I regreatted for not learning any martial art."Ok. Take a deep breath.Fine .You can do it.You just have to distract them and find a way to escape.Once you go to a crwoded place they can'nt do anything.Everything will be fine." I talked to myself to reduce my fear. That time the door of elevetor opened.I walked forward and pressed the doorbell. I tried my best to keep myself calm, to stop trembling.My leg was feeling numb from extreme nervousness.I cursed myself for being this idiot and weak.Then Rayan opened the door with a big smile." Welcome home, my love." I stopped my urge to punch him with much difficulty.I felt nauseous inside."How can he be so calm when he just murdered a person not long ago?Was he always this heartless?How come I thought of him as a kind person? Was he too smart or I was being too idiot?"
I walked into my house. There were three person including rayan as I predicted.I saw my mother being tied on a chair. I wanted to go near her but Rayan grabbed my hand.
"It's not like our deal. Where are my things?"
"I threw them away before you talked with me."
He ordered his two man to search my car.They went to search my car.At the same time my father came out from inside.It has really been a long time since I we last met. He hasn't changed much.Still it feels like he is a stranger .Is it really that person I called father for my entire life? I always thought my father is bad but I never thought him to be like that.
"You exceeded my expectations,Father."
He became startled.Maybe he didn't expext me to say that. He looked at other direction.I couldn't help but mock him.
"Why are you looking other direction. Are you feeling guit?Tell me did you even blink your eyes when you sold your daughter to some kind of mafia?Why are you silent ?Tell me!" I screamed without noticing. I was trembling with anger.
"Why you did that? Rayan is okay.He is not my blood related.He can betray.But why you?They say blood is thicker than water. But that doesn't seem to be applicable in my case.Don't keep quit.TELL ME!"
He looked at me and told me,"Why wouldn't I?I raised you for 18 years.Still you didn't repay me anything.You gave everything to your dammned mother.Then why would I care for you?I got enough money from them that can repay my money with interest."
I became speechless.Just for some money? Just for some money he betrayed his own daughter and wife? What a pathetic scene !I couldn't help but laugh at my luck.
"Why did they hire you?"
"Of course to keep an eye on you.Rayan knew that your teacher won't tell him everything and if you sense anything on him you won't either.But you share everything to your mom, right? She thought I would be proudful to hear your achievements.And I will come to take you back .Then you will get a happy family. But I should thank her .Otherwise we wouldn't know that you completed the project and the pendrive is in your hand. Your biggest mistake is that you shared everything with your mom and your mom with me.Hahaha...."
I never knew my mother was in contact with that person all this time. I look at her. She looked down."Mamma didn't I tell you to never contact with this person? Why didn't you listen to me?Moreover you shared every single detailes with him!"
Her eyes gave me the answer.As usual ,"I wanted you to be happy."
I looked at my father to see if therewas a single bit of guilt or regreat.No ,there was not a bit of guilt.
"How much did you get?"
"Enough ,to lead a wealthy life."
I couldn't cntroll my tears anymore. "When I was a child you were indifferent to me. When I cried at night, you became annoyed.You yelled at my mother and me saying that you cann't sleep.But had you ever took me out to stop my crying?When I grew up I saw how fathers treat their daughter.Do you know how bad I felt then? When I was 5 years old, I choked myself with a fish bone. I was crying in pain. But as a father neither you didn't took me to hospital nor comforted me.You yelled at me why I was crying. You asked me to keep quit unless I am dying. Do you know how much it hurt? When I was in nursery class, I wanted to go to a picnic like my friends.Do you remember what you did back then?You locked me in a dark bathroom for three days without food. I survived drinking water from tap. when I wanted to ride a cycle with you you threw me away. I kept decieving myself no father is bad.You were doing it for my good.Luckily I had a good grade in school.Otherwise you might have killed me for wasting your money. But you never spared brother for being bad at studies.Maybe he is a boy thats why you spared his life.You remember that night?When you whiped me with your belt for standing up for my mother.I still have a mark on my forehead.I loved long hair, But I cutted it short because you said it's a waste to use that much shampoo after it. I never bought any skin care product like other girl because its a waste. I wanted to do makeup but I couldn't, pretending that I don't like it to save money. You turned me into a studying machiene cause I had to prove myself ,I had to break my mother free. I studied so much that my eyesight became poor.You call providing some food ,cloth or school fee raising me up even though you have done so many things to me?I even don't recall everyone of them." I said all of those in one breath. I started gasping.When I became calm after saying my feelings out I looked at Rayan.
"I don't even want to know your reason. My mother wanted me to be happy ,have a family.Thats why I deceived myself saying that I fell in love with you.Maybe I started beliving it at some point. That's why I feel a little betrayed inside my heart. But my hands won't tremble if I get the chance to kill you."
Actually I was feeling terrible inside.I really loved him.But giving my heart to him wasn't easy after seeing how my father treated him .But he constantly tried to win my heart so I became weak.I was really naive.I shouldn't have trusted men again.I was really an idiot. I learned how to stand still infront of indifferrnce but forgot to learn how to stand still in front of affection.
"I never loved you from the begenning.I knew someday you would do something big so I wanted that thing to be mine, simple.",Rayan said without any hesitation.
I stopped him from telling his reason not because I felt disgusted just because I feared I would hear something like this.I looked at my mom and suddenly understood why she was staying with my father after so many humiliation.It was for us, but more than that she loved my father so she couldn't let go of the hope that he will accept her some day. Maybe that's why she kept contancting with him. Maybe she wasn't even sure of this.She just justified this to herself saying she was doing it for my sake. why didn't I notice her twisted personality?If had noticed it maybe none of these would have happened.I am really, really incompetent.
Rayan's two henchman returned after searching my car. Of course they didn't find it .Cause I really buried it while coming here.
Rayan grabbed my hair and asked,"Where is it?" His face turned red. I cann't tell him so easily otherwise he will suspect him.
"I won't tell it to a murderer."
"Don't test my patience,Aayat. Tell me or..." He gestured with his eyes and someone held a knife on my mother's neck.
"I will tell you. Don't hurt her.Its in the forest behind the lab. There's a human faced stone, you remember?I buried it there."
Rayan gestured again and someone tied me on an other chair. I told him about human faced stone because only I and him know it. So he will have to go .And thats what I want.
Before going out he held a knife on my neck and slightly scratch it.
"Don't try anything foolish, Aayat."
Then he went out with his henchman.