He offered his hand, letting it hang in the small space between
our bodies.
Dance?
Gaping at his hand, I hesitated. Not really sure whether I had a reason to
doubt his offer or if it was just the way I automatically reacted to Aaron.
"Is this part of the deal?" I heard myself ask.
Aaron frowned.
"Us dancing, I mean. Just for show, right?" I explained.
I wasn't blind—or stupid—and I was pretty sure that dancing wasn't
something we needed to do. But a big part of me was effectively confused,
and I was growing more so by the moment. So, by saying that out loud, I
was simply throwing myself a lifeline I could grab on to until I could clear
up the mess in my head.
"Right," Aaron answered, that frown disappearing and his hand still
waiting for my decision. "Just for show."
I accepted his offer, letting his large palm wrap around mine, unsure of
how good of an idea it was.
Aaron pulled me gently behind him, and my legs shook with a weird
mix of anticipation and unease. His hand was warm and firm against mine,
making me feel good and tingly even though I could tell it weighted down
that lifeline I was trying to hold on to with teeth and nails.
I was still unsure of how good of an idea this was when he softly
dragged me where a small group of people had gathered to dance.
But it was when he stopped walking, turned, and stepped close—so very
close—that my mind finally flagged this as a bad idea. So much that a part
of me started debating whether I should run away or pretend I fainted right
there and then so I didn't have to face what we were about to do.
Dancing.
Together.
As in Aaron Blackford—the man I had been antagonizing for so long—
and me.
Oh sweet baby Jesus.
Aaron draped his arms around my waist, and I felt a shock of electricity
spreading across my body from the points where his hands rested on my
back. My breath caught, and something heavy and solid dropped to the
bottom of my stomach.
Swallowing hard, I tilted my head back. I thought I saw dare and
wariness in his gaze. All at once. And that sent an unsolicited spur of
anticipation through me.
I placed my hands on Aaron's chest—noticing how hard and toned it
felt under my fingers—but unlike earlier tonight, when I had accidentally
touched him, this time, I let my hands rest there. Only then did he bring me
to him. My small frame immediately cradled in his much larger one.
A heartbeat later, we were moving, almost every part of our bodies from
our chests down pressed together. Aaron's motions were sure, directing,
while mine were stiff and incompliant.
Releasing a breath through my nose, I tried to relax my limbs. To focus
on the mechanics of dancing. To calm that red-hot awareness raging inside
of me. But the knowledge of how close our bodies were was blowing up
alarms inside my head and making it impossible for me to think about much
else besides that.
Dancing. We were dancing. Bodies flushed. And that was something we
weren't supposed to be doing. A situation in which Aaron and Lina, who
barely tolerated each other, shouldn't be finding themselves in because this
wasn't something that people who couldn't stand each other did.
Aaron spun me in a circle with a swift motion and pressed me against
him one more time, making my heart quicken in a way it had no business
doing.
The music was slow, perfect for swaying and forgetting about
everything outside the smooth rhythm. Ideal for getting lost in the peace
that being in someone else's arms could bring. But the more we swayed, the
further I was from feeling anything that resembled peace. Not when Aaron
was so … big and hard and warm against me.
That was probably why I tripped. Before I knew what was happening,
my feet had messed up the beat and tangled together, and they would have
probably sent me straight to the floor if not for the man—the pair of strong
arms wrapped solidly around me—who held me in place.
"Thank you," I muttered, feeling my face heat up and my body tense up
further. "And sorry."
God. I had never blushed so much in one single night. I didn't recognize
myself.
Aaron's arms tightened around me. "Just for precaution," he said,
bringing me even closer.
Each and every nerve ending in my body turned into the end of a live
wire. My skin tingled, my heart raced, and my mind whirled.
"Oh. Okay." The words reached my ears, strangled, as if it had come out
of me in a gurgle. "Thanks."
The skin on my face heated up further.
Aaron hummed, just as his thumb brushed my back very lightly,
drawing one single circle that left a tiny trail of goose bumps behind. Goose
bumps that traveled to all corners and nooks of my body.
As much as I told myself that this was a simple physical reaction to
being held against a male body, being held by a man's arms, it was Aaron's
male body and Aaron's arms after all. So, either I had been alone for too
long or I was losing my mind. Because this felt … good. Really good.
Too damn much.
Those ocean-blue eyes shifted to my lips briefly. So quickly that I was
convinced I had imagined it. It didn't matter though because then his face
dipped, getting as close as it had ever been and making me forget all about
that. Making me notice instead details that I had never paid attention to
before. Like how full those lips were, which I saw pressed in a line so often.
Or how his eyelashes were long and dark and framed the blue in his eyes so
perfectly. Or how I could see the lines of the soft creases adorning his
forehead, right above the spot where that frown that was almost a fixed
feature rested.
I was so lost in all that that one of my feet tripped again, but Aaron's
arms tightened their grip around my waist as he shifted his head to one of
my sides.
"Aren't you supposed to be good at this, Catalina?" he asked a few
inches from my ear. I felt the air leaving his mouth on my temple.
Trying not to pay any extra attention to how close his mouth was from
my face, I focused on my feet and answered almost absently, "What do you
mean?"
Aaron's diligent and smooth motions spun us one more time to the soft
tune.
"I thought you were supposed to carry the beat in your blood," he
explained in a low voice, his head not giving up an inch of space. "Or was it
the music in your veins?"
I hoped my ears were not red with embarrassment. "This is not my
style," I lied. I'd never done a worse job at dancing, and it had nothing to do
with the music and everything to do with the man I was currently flush
against. "Or maybe it's my partner that's not the best fit."
Aaron chuckled. It was low and short-lived, but it reminded me of the
way he had laughed earlier, leaving me a little out of breath.
And so, I inhaled through my nose, trying to restore my breathing and
immediately regretting it. Because what an awful idea that had been. The
worst idea. All I had accomplished was filling my lungs with Aaron's scent.
Aaron's very nice and very heady and very, very masculine scent.
Could I unsmell it, please, universe? Please.
"Was that you admitting something you are not good at?" Aaron asked,
pulling me out of my head. "To me?"
"I never claimed to be a spectacular dancer." Not when my partner was
someone who certainly succeeded in distracting me so damn much. "Plus,
all that rhythm in your blood stuff is nothing more than a stereotype. There
are more than a few hundred Spaniards who can't follow a beat to save their
lives."
"I bet there are. I'll keep leading then." His voice was low, a little closer
to my ear than before. "But just in case you belong to those few hundreds."
"If you must," I muttered because what was the point of denying
something that was so obvious? I was doing a poor job at it. "I didn't know
you danced."
Just when I thought it was physically impossible for Aaron's body to
fold around mine any more, for our bodies to come any closer, he dipped
his head further. Impossibly low. His lips hovered directly above the shell
of my ear. "There are a few things you don't know about me, Catalina."
My body went even more rigid in response. A flutter taking flight in my
stomach.
I forced myself to remember that I was here to pretend I was his date—
of sorts. That I had put on a little show at fighting that woman over him at
the auction. So, fake or not, to everybody else, I was supposed to be
someone who would welcome this kind of closeness and not someone who
would jump back, startled.
So, I settled my hands on his hard chest with a little more decision.
Unfortunately, the gesture only managed to turn that flutter in my stomach
to a full-on flapping and waving and whirling riot.
"What's on your mind?" Aaron asked, sounding genuinely curious.
Being caught off guard by the question—and the interest—I blurted the
first thing that came to mind, "You said this had nothing to do with a
woman." I shifted my palms across his chest. "But it looked to me like it
had everything to do with one."
"I've never seen Mrs. Archibald so riled up," he admitted.
I adjusted my hands on his chest again, trying not to get lost in how
warm his skin felt, even beneath all the layers of fabric. "So, you are
familiar with this Mrs. Archibald, huh?" I felt his head nod once, his jaw
brushing my temple. "Let me guess. Tonight was not her first time getting
into a little charitable quarrel over you."
"It wasn't."
"Aaron Blackford, the cougar magnet." I laughed lightly, the sound
coming out a little shaky.
A soft puff of air hit my ear, rousing a wave of shivers. "It wasn't only
Mrs. Archibald enthusiastically bidding, if memory serves me well."
"Smug," I muttered.
But Aaron was right. There had been many other people—younger,
attractive—interested in him.
"Is this why you asked me to be here?" Aaron didn't immediately
answer, so I continued, "I guess it all makes sense. What Angela said earlier
and TJ kind of confirmed."
"And what's that?"
"That Aaron Blackford is scared of a bunch of overly motivated wealthy
ladies who want to buy his company."
His palms shifted on my back, spinning us into the changing rhythm of
a new song. "Are you teasing me?" he said right into my ear.
I was. But I would never admit to such a thing out loud. I felt myself
relax just the splinter of a hair in his arms. "Does it happen often?"
"What exactly, Catalina?" he asked very slowly. "Almost being
exchanged for a man with a boat or having a questionable dancing partner?"
"Neither." Feeling the smile tugging at my lips, I went on, "Women
flaunting themselves at you. I saw how tense you were on the stage. You
looked ready to jump out and get out of there." I thought about that for a
second. Him bringing me here … it kind of made sense now. "Does that
kind of attention make you uncomfortable?"
"Not always." I felt the brush of his jaw against my cheek, the simple
and light gesture causing an electrifying wave of sensation to trail down my
neck. "I'm not scared of a woman's interest in me, if that's what you're
asking. I don't send them all away."
"Oh, okay." My voice came out breathy and unsure.
Of course he didn't. I was sure he had needs. And those needs were
something I wasn't willing to think about with his arms around me.
Aaron's right hand shifted on my back, trailing down an inch or two.
Meanwhile, the skin of my face—no, my whole freaking body—burned.
His arms tightened around me one more time.
"Thank you," he said.
And I felt those two words like soft puffs of air against my hair.
"What for?" My voice was barely a whisper.
"For not stepping on my foot." I opened my mouth to apologize, but he
continued, "But also for not being deterred by Mrs. Archibald. Last year,
things got a little … uncomfortable when she found out our date consisted
of cleaning dog kennels and spending a couple of hours walking and
playing with them." I felt his sigh on the skin on the side of my neck. "Not
that it dissuaded her this year."
Something that felt a lot like protectiveness flickered in my chest.
I shook my head lightly, trying to make sense of myself. All this
dancing and spinning was clearly messing with me. "Well, as much as I am
sorry for your wallet, considering the amount the donation reached, I am
happy I got to see that sulky face when I beat her," I admitted, shocking
myself at how pleased I had really been. "I'm also sorry for those doggies
and what they had to endure last year with that woman. What kind of
hypocrite donates money for a charity that focuses on animal shelters and
doesn't like dogs? Those poor guys. I'd adopt them all if I didn't live in a
tiny studio apartment. Hell, I'd happily volunteer to spend some time with
them any day."
"I can take you, if that's what you want." Aaron's words hung in the air.
A part of me wanted to say yes. Yes to the chance of seeing a new side of
him. Perhaps another smile too. "You just bought a date anyway."
"With your money."
"Regardless," he countered. "It's part of the package deal."
That pang of unprecedented hurt hit me again, reminding me of what
this was. Part of the deal. That was Aaron, a man of his word.
Aaron's head reared back, revealing his face. His gaze was searching.
"I …" I hesitated, feeling stupid for considering for just an instant that
maybe he'd offered because he genuinely wanted to take me there. "I just
…"
Shit.
Everything that had happened tonight was spinning in my head. Aaron
in a tux. All these … new and different ways I was feeling around him. The
auction. His smile. His laughter. Dancing. My body against his, flushed
together. All of that and then the fact that we would be going to Spain in a
matter of a few weeks.
Everything tangled together in knots that messed with my head.
Aaron kept looking at me, a strange emotion behind his blue eyes. He
was probably waiting for me to say something that wasn't mumbled words.
"Would that …" I shook my head. "I wouldn't want to get you in
trouble," I finally managed to say. "I guess that someone could check if the
auction contract was fulfilled?" I didn't know if this contract existed. Didn't
even know if anybody would even check anything. "The last thing I'd want
is to hamper the good that the fundraiser has achieved tonight." I kept
going, Aaron's features unchanging, "Nobody needs to know that the date is
fake anyway. Right?"
He kept looking at me in that searching way I didn't understand. "No.
Nobody needs to know."
"Or that we are going as friends, right?" That had not sounded right.
Were we even friends?
"Is that what you want to be, Catalina?" Aaron shot back calmly.
"Friends?"
"Yes," I answered. But did I? We had never been, and that had never
had anything to do with me. That hadn't been on me. "No," I rectified,
remembering that one big obstacle that had stood between us since the
beginning. One that Aaron had put there, not me. It had been him, the one
who never liked me, not the other way around. It wasn't fair of him to ask
me now. "I don't know, Aaron." My palms felt clammy and my throat dry,
and I was … confused. "What kind of question is that?"
Aaron seemed to ponder my words. "Yes or no?" he pressed.
My mouth opened and closed. We had stopped dancing at some point.
My palms, which had been on Aaron's chest, dropped down. Aaron's gaze
followed the motion. Something locked tightly behind that unreadable mask
that was his expression.
"Forget I said anything," he said, his arms, which had been still around
me, falling down. "This was a bad idea."
That made me physically flinch, and I didn't really understand why I
had done that or what he'd meant by this.
Both of us stood in front of each other, unmoving. And as much as
Aaron had been distant and dismissive in the past, he had never looked this
… aloof. Almost as if I had said something that hurt him.
The urge to reach out and place my hand on his chest resurfaced again.
And I couldn't, for the life of me, begin to fathom why. Not when a small
voice in my head—which I assumed was common sense—was telling me
that I should be glad, that this was us getting back on track to where we
should stand.
But I wasn't any good at listening to sense these days. So, when my arm
lifted—because I was like that and I couldn't help but comfort those around
me with hugs or touches or whatever they needed—and Aaron stepped
back, away from me, it actually stung. So much that I had to scold myself
for being that stupid.
"See?" I said under my breath. "This is why I don't know if we can be
friends. Why we have never been."
Tonight had been a fluke, and this was the reason. Everything always
escalated out of control when it came to us.
"You are right." His voice was unspeakably flat. "Being your friend has
always been the last thing on my mind."
His words, together with mine, felt like hail falling unrelentingly on me.
On us, as we stood there in front of each other. Poking holes in the little
bubble we had been in for the past few hours. The one we had been in while we danced. Right before the truce that had been silently established blew up
in our faces.
Just like I should have expected.
I blinked at him, not knowing what to say.
"If you'll excuse me," he said, "I'll be back in a few minutes and take
you home."
He turned around and left me right where I was.
Rooted to the place.
Standing on legs that I didn't trust without the support of his arms. My
heart beating ruthlessly against my chest. Feeling the cold seep through my
blood in his sudden absence and my head questioning everything that had
happened tonight regardless of how much I reminded myself that it meant
nothing.
Nothing at all.
We had never been friends.
We were back to being the same Aaron and Lina we had always been,
and that was something that would never change.