I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine (oh we had everything)
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin'
And it's all in your mind (yeah but this is happenin')
You've been havin' real bad dreams oh oh
You used to lie so close to me oh oh
There's nothing more than empty sheets between our love, our love
Oh our love, our love
.........…..
Sometimes we don't know where the thread of destiny and fate will lead us...
Because the future doesn't belong to us who living in the present….
This pair of legs, only able to walk and move forward…
When the universe calls out our names and takes our hand…
.........…..
Johan's house, a week later, in the evening…
"Okay, Dian. I see…."
"No, I'm not postponing the treatment. It's just…."
"I don't think this is the right time and Johan has been very busy lately with his work, I don't want to bother him either. Please be patient okay? When I'm ready, I will inform you about it…"
Mama Sharren hung up the phone and exhaled a deep breath. A weak smile etched on her face. She's not making it up. John has been frantically busy these past few weeks. There are some projects that his beloved son is working on at hand so he had to fully concentrate on his work. As a homemaker, it's none of her business. Her job is to wait for Johan to come home from work, and prepare the meal for his son so Johan can maintain his stamina. Throughout her life, Mama Sharren felt so grateful to be blessed with a son that not only handsome but also a dashing boy and an obedient son, especially to his parents.
Even though, as a mother, she always wants the best for her son and often interferes with her personal decision. It was all because of her motherly love for him. In front of everyone, she was known as arrogant and a dictator because she came from the upper class.
Many of her friends tried to pitch Johan to be their son-in-law, but all of them were flatly rejected by her. Until then, she didn't realize, it turns out that Johan has secretly been in love with Renata without her knowledge and asked for her blessing to get married. Even though she's unwilling to, Mama Sharren was "forced" to allow Johan to marry her, even though personally, she doesn't like her daughter-in-law. And, finally, she found a chance to separate them when on their fourth year of wedding anniversary, the offspring that she wanted so dearly, never came up..
With her influence, Mama Sharren finally managed to separate them, even though in the end, her brute decision hurt Johan deeply. The tinge of sadness and a gloomy face are two things that keep sees on his son's expression when she arrogantly forced Johan to marry Kinara as soon as possible. Thinking that her choice would be always the best choice for a mother to her son. A perfect girl based on her family background, her looks, and her academic scores. Kinara and Johan. They are matched and equal. However, she never would have thought that the accusations that she had once put on Renata would turn against her like a boomerang.
Kinara, her daughter-in-law after Renata, was finally able to get pregnant after she had an affair with her ex-boyfriend and the doctor's verdict stated that the one who was infertile was actually Johan.
BOOM!!
Mama Sharren felt as if she had just been hit by lightning in the broad daylight. Her pride, her prestige, everything….
Crumbled down…
Fall and broken into million pieces without any single string of hope left…
Moreover, in the shortest time, Johan's second marriage with Kinara also didn't last long and ended tragically with her daughter-in-law's shameful scandal that tarnished her reputation. Over the past few years, when their condition was critically down and at the lowest point, Mama Sharren couldn't stop crying and regretting all the stupid decisions that she ever made. How her authoritarian and coercive attitude has caused so many troubles and hurts people that she dearly loves. How arrogant she was when she forced his son to be with a woman who had never been Johan's choice from the beginning. When she met Kinara for the first time, she thought that she was the one. She thought that she would be the perfect partner for her son. And now, she suffered the consequences. She had dug her own grave with her stubbornness and recklessness. Then, the disease that she is suffering now, was probably the final chapter of all the retribution she deserved.
It's fine…
It doesn't matter…
But, if she's able to be a mother once more, she would do it…
Her regret…
It always comes after her stupidity...
And now, when she was finally forced to face her karma….
It is the verdict for cervical cancer that she's having now...
She can't do anything else now...
What she could do is surrender her life to the hands of fate and sincerely wait for her time to come...
What she really wished for is…
Before she closed his eyes to deep, eternal sleep, she would be able to see another girl who stood next to Johan. A companion who will be able to accompany his son through his ups and downs in life. Through bad or good times just like she and her husband had done before. A lifetime partner that would cherish and treasure every single moment that they shared together. Just like her marriage to Papa Benito before her husband died a few years ago.
That night, she was waiting for Johan to come home from his office as usual. Dinner has beautifully served on the table. Shortly, she heard the door open and approaching footsteps entering the house. Not only one but two people. Mama Sharren raised her eyebrows and pay attention attentively to the direction where the noises came from. Then, her old eyes sparkled with joy when Johan came to her and brought a stunning lady who looked a bit nervous beside him.
"Mom, I would like to introduce her. This is…"
.............
A week before, the VVIP room, Hotel Ragasa….
"Please, Wina…"
"Could you help me this time?" Johan pleaded at her. Pitifully.
"My fee is incredibly high, Johan..."
"I'm afraid it would be too much for you…"
Wina cleared out her throat and smirked with a mischievous expression. While inwardly, she prayed that Johan would drop it and cancel her services. She has nothing to lose in this case.
"I know. It was also Derry who recommended you to me…"
Wina's eyes widened in shock once again. Uh? That jerk? Damn right...
Wina still remembers how fiercely that guy chased her when they were no longer bound by the contract that had been agreed before. At that time, she pretended as Derry's mistress because that guy really wanted to break up with his obsessive girlfriend who was terribly possessive of him. And, it was a success!!
The couple finally broke up after going through various dramas and conflicts that almost made her give up on the persistence of this crazy girl. Thankfully her efforts were not in vain. After the breakup declaration, Derry rewarded her with massive bonuses in the form of cash which was really needed by Wina to pay off her pile of debts. But, afterward, the same guy was purely obsessed with her and chased her vigorously wherever she went. Until then….
Wina decided to move out and deliberately hide herself to avoid Derry at all costs and change her phone number. Only then, she could breathe a sigh of relief…
But, now, the same guy has just given him another headache.
Uhhhh….that fucking jerk….
"I believe that I can meet up with your requirements, Ms. Lidwina Andrea…" Johan told her confidently.
"Fine…"
"If you are insisted. There are some terms we have to agree on and deal with..."
"The first is my payment for the role I have to carry out. If you just need me as a chaperone for family outings, it's fifteen million per call. But if you need my help for other, more specific roles like being a mistress or something else, my rate can be twofold from my initial price. Why is it? Because for these kinds of roles, I probably need to cooperate with other parties to accomplish the mission and our goal as well and for that, I have to pay for these supporting actresses or actors to do so, right?"
"Secondly, I'm in an undercover mission and you can't reveal my real identity to anyone. I want to stay anonymous all the time. Do you understand?"
"Thirdly, once the two of us finished the contract and the job is done, the contractual relationship between us is over. You can delete my number from your contacts list because I've never received any task from the same client…"
"Fourth, we will always meet at different places and times according to both parties' agreement. There's no need for you or me to know where you live or interfere with each other's personal business and vice versa…"
"Fifth, there is no string attached. Physical touch will be carried out due strictly and respectively to our roles only, like hugging, holding hands, and kissing cheeks. I've never had any intimate relationship with my former clients or been entangled in romantic drama with them…"
"Is it clear enough, Mr. Johan Alvaro?" Wina explained it as formally as possible. Strive to remain professional in carrying out her duties as an independent contractor without being disturbed by the presence of her ex. Whereas. If she could be honest, she's nervous right now. Her heart was pounding in her heart like it was about to jump from her rib chest.
Damn!
After these years, it turns out that she still has feelings for this man. It is deeply entrenched and gripped in there without she can turn or move on to anyone.
John Alvaro…
How strong are your spells and charms on me?
Then, why after they two were separated for so long, did this man's persona shine even more in front of her?
Gosh...Winaaaaaa…. Wake up!!!
Open your eyes wide out!!! A man as handsome, as rich, and as perfect as he is..
He would have…. chosen someone else after all these shits are over…
"Okay..."
Johan replied to her again as he took out a black card from his wallet and handed it over to Wina.
"This is my platinum debit card. Think of it as the first down payment of our current deal….
"Then, the role I want you to play is…"
"Be my fiancee…"
WHATTTT???
Shocked, Wina's eyes popped out of their sockets and her jaw dropped to the floor.
"Beloved???"
What the fuck is this?
"What did you say, Johan?"
Asking the man before her to repeat his statement one more time, in case she misheard it just now. In an instant, Johan grabbed Wina's hand and glared at her. Made her world stop revolving completely.
"Be my love once again, Wina. Even if it's just a pretense…"
............….
Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again
It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again
(Give Me A Reason – Pink)