Ashton barges in as I was looking at the roof. Breaking my train of thought. I looked at him ready to punch him as I am completely pissed off. But I felt a fist connect to my face and I was shocked. I looked at him as I touched my face. It actually hurt a bit. I looked at him confused as I heard Sarah crying in the background. Something happened and I don't know what it was. He looks very pissed of and that is very hard to do. Ashton is really a chill guy and a laughing type. Joking. But what could I have done to receive a punch. I hadn't even left my room for a whole day. I did eat but I haven't left my room.
I wanted to give my mate some space after what happened yesterday. She needed space after that outburst of mine. I was going to go and apologize to her. Schedule a day so I can show her and tell her everything about our world. But I still don't know how. He had clenched his hands again and I knew he was ready to beat me up for something I don't even now.
"What did you do?" Ashton asked pissed off
"What do you mean?" I asked in return shock of his response
"She's gone! What did you do to Kira?" Sarah is the one who snapped at me
She walks into my second bedroom and stood by Ashton as I am frozen "What did you do Luke? I couldn't find her in your bedroom... What happened?"
I tried to stand up ready to search for her and Sarah smacks me she was shaking like crazy. My wolf was running wild with the disrespect they are giving me but they are holding me back from searching my mate. But I could see the pain in Sarah's eyes. She was so attached to Kira and her friend. Even if we weren't mates. Sarah really loved her as a big sister. I ruined it didn't I?
"WHAT. HAPPENED?" Ashton snaps at me again
I flinched a bit as I felt like a child this time and I am being scolded by my own parents. But I am an Alpha why should I explain myself of something. I need to get Kira back. But Ashton and Sarah look pretty mad at me for something so I decided to explain everything. How I woke up. How I exploded. How I let my temper get the better of me basically. I explained everything. Ashton looks at me disappointed. Disappointing this man is really hard so seeing how I disappointed him like this actually made me feel horrible. He pinched the brink of his nose while groaning out at the ending of the story.
Sarah looks at me also disappointed. What? I left her alone for her to calm down. I didn't want her feeling worse if I tried being myself. I would have gotten slapped or she would have rejected me.
"Men sometimes don't understand a woman..." Sarah tells me a bit mad
I tried defending myself "I didn't mean to actually leave her alone but you now me! I would have made things worse!"
"She barely knows you but you left her alone! ALONE! To cry to herself... She is heartbroken... She must be thinking she was the one at fault!" Sarah starts to yell at me
"But it was my fault! I am to blame! Why would she be blaming herself?" I was the one now worried but frustrated
"Dude she is a woman... Human emotions and traumas are out of your field of knowledge" Ashton tells me with arms crossed
I went to speak but stayed quiet as I knew what he meant "Alpha... Next time become a scientist it is understandable that we woman can be hard to know but when we are an emotional wreck we depend on your strength to keep us stable at times..."
Again something I didn't know about but I say "What if I did it?"
"Apologize and buy her something she likes... Or make something she likes" Sarah says while shrugging
'Martha clean my room! My main bedroom!' I mind linked the cleaner of the house and I heard an alright alpha from her in return. I did my very best and I just watched Ashton glare at me one more time and run out of my bedroom. Sarah just sighs out and walks out with arms crossed. I wanted her to get me a chocolate cake from the bakery but she is pretty mad at me so I won't ask her to go get it. So I grabbed my phone and messaged Lilac to make me a super chocolate cake with a romantic design. I now it's not supposed to be romantic but something cute can be nice too. I messaged Anna for her to make me a meal that can combine as a desert for Chocolate Cake. As I don't want my mate having a stomach after eating a full meal and she wanting a desert.
Wine for drinks to combine it all. I sent Abigail to get me some flowers from the garden. They all responded back with an yes alpha and I walked out of the room. While they get everything I need to get mentally prepared. I will tell her the truth even if we take hours and hours talking. I will tell her everything. I need to get the book I have. It gives all information since our ancestors. I swallowed a lump. Will she stay? Will she go? Will she believe me? Do I have to shift into a wolf form? Will my wolf scare her? Will she hate me? Is she ok? I looked around the hallway as I felt lonely. The emptiness in my heart was growing.
I should have been there for her even if she didn't want that. I should learn more about woman. But they are so confusing. Woman are like a math problem. If you do a calculation wrong everything goes horribly wrong. If you go the easy route everything will get more confusing. And I know as I had to study so much advanced math for business. I groaned out as I entered my office. The Book of Knowledge is what I need for her to read it in her time. I don't want her being persuaded or annoyed by others.
I will have to notify her about the war that will start soon. Human will be in the middle. Vampires will have to come join our side if they wish to survive. Hunters want to exterminate us and only experiment on the remaining to make themselves stronger. Sell our parts in the black market. All they care is about exterminating and money. They love power. But we do not fear them. We do not care. Jey will be here tomorrow but I will have to speak to him about my mates friend. Scarlet. If she is his beloved or whatever they call their destined forever lover. Is Scarlet is his forever lover he will have to tell her everything also.
The war is near and I need to get everything ready. The person who wants to build in the empty land by the pack is not budging. So Oliver is busy making a deal. The construction company as been escorted out while negotiations happen for that piece of land. I have over two thousand acres of land and I will get a larger one. I want to keep the forest alive. Alana is talking with wild life to get a few more acres into our permit before whatever happens humans can't do anything.
Alana is also scheduling to be able to get this whole place and get a construction company to build a few more houses and at least get some cables system so I can be able introduce internet and cable in here. As well as we need a professional construction company to build an underground city for this war. Woman and Children will be placed down there for emergency. So Jonathan and his team are making a list of food; entertainment and drinks that can survive down there for a while. We have fifty people in our pack plus the two humans who just recently added to the pack.
Jonathan is also updating whatever is needed if a female is pregnant so vitamins and dried fruits as Jasmine and Julia will be picking fruits and vegetables from the garden and dipping them in wax to see if they can last longer. I groaned out as I walked I grabbed the book from the very corner. I always have it very close to me as this is very dear to me. It has been pass down to each alpha in this pack. Each Pack has a relic for generations to hand over. This book is enchanted so it won't disintegrate or turn yellow.
I hope I can fix things after what I have done.