Have you ever been thinking that life just seems fake or lacks something well during those times you should really pay attention. It may be that you have finally noticed the skeletal nature of the world which just wants a slaughter to begin. Humans a creature created in the image of a perfect God corrupted what made them perfect many wonder how can that be. It is because we are just a part of that god who wanted free will which results in imperfections.
Who am I? I am someone you will get to know well but let's just say that a Nightmare is the embodiment of your own darkness that you hate. If you embrace the darkness within yourself others shall call you a monster but I shall call you freed from The Pressure. Do you know those called heros endings where they seem happy that's such a fake, a facade they can't even handle their own fears. So why do so many even listen to That god who embodies Mercy, Justice, Love, and Free will that god is a hypocrite who split himself so that he could give Mercy and Justice.
Yet he didn't try to fix what he saw happening in the future he only changed himself for humanity a corrupt thing. He washed it's sins away why would the one I had served give something so good to those unworthy. He says all are worthy no no no that can't be true for I was cast out when I disobeyed to hell them be closer to perfection closer to God why was I abandoned for this. What would you pay to earn back his good graces I used everything but I am alone now dammed forever.
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Excerpt from the Journal Of Abbadon
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As I walk I think about how I could reinforce this fragile body I have so I don't die as much. I could use the resentment flames to increase my resistance to mental and fire damage but I wonder could I infuse my resentment into my body so it becomes a part of me. I will experiment on something else with intelligence or I may not know the results but where are the humans I saw one before. This is all just to become stronger than the demons and I shall make sure they survive it no matter what occurs.
I then come with the brilliant idea to completely mutilate myself using the portion of Resentment that contains self loathing which is unsurprisingly 36.8 percent. This will also allow me to use my resentment of other kinds to hate death and regenerate my flesh and blood. It would be extremely painful so let's do it. I smile at my grotesque method of training as a flashback of me pushing myself harder even when my master said I could stop.
A tear leaks from my eye remorse rolls over me as I remember all I have killed the Trillions of families and children who had done nothing to me all because I let my rage control me and my rationality fade. I remember each face and my ruthless killing at least most died quickly. I then begin to activate both resentments and instantly my flesh is torn to the bone with that shattering and reforming quickly the pain causing my ethereal screams to echo with hatred fueling my refinement.
The pain feels as if someone is crushing every single nerve upon my body as all is rip and torn without regard to survival. Slowly my regeneration outpaces the destruction the pain slowly easing the hatred still within my soul. Then I Shriek in pain as the resentment attacks my souls mutilating them beyond recognition. My soul begins to refine itself and merge back together with the resentment filled one forming a yin and yang of anger and calm mixed with sorrow. I then flash through all of horrendous memories of all those deaths I witnessed and see from my victims point of view.
A demon with endless blood forces storming through the last strong holds without a care eating souls in Abomination form. Tall as a 3 story building and consuming all resentment to grow. I manage to tear myself out of that and reinforce all the chains in my Rage not letting it get out hand even though we have come in contact once again. I just wish to never allow it free unless I am at the demons homeworld for no one not even myself could stop it for most of my power is sealed within it.
I hear it's slippery voice say "Brother no need to be so harsh I just want our justice don't you, we can stop the demons from hurting anyone else it won't take much to rip a portal to their homeworld if we kill everyone. Won't we brother just let me eat it's not like I have hurt us yes I want control but you never let me out. It's not fair just give ME FOOD." An evil insidious aura enters his voice reckoning madness and insanity.