He was also staring at me now. I smiled at him and hoped he would help, but no, he turned his back on me and left me in that situation. I frowned and my eyes narrowed while watching him leave.
"What was that? He was supposed to help me."
A deep sigh came out of my mouth, "I get it. This happened too and this is the third time. Yes, that's right. I am Abigail Brown, the hidden wife of Noah Brown."
I went home, but I still think about how Noah ignored me back then. When should I keep doing this to myself? When will I be able to stop hurting myself because of this man? When?
I was still thinking about it, but suddenly the door opened and I saw him walking closer to me, "I'm home," he greeted me, but I ignored him. He then got closer to me and smiled at me, "I'm sorry."
I sighed deeply while rolling my eyes at him. "Noah..."
"Hmm?"
"I might be out for days. So, you'll be alone starting tomorrow," I uttered to him.
"Okay," that wasn't the word I wanted to hear from him. I want to hear something else than those cold words from him. I clenched my fist as I turned my back on him while tears staining my face.
I went to my room as I started to pack my things in my bag. I stopped when I thought about him again. "How cold a man he is," I uttered while clenching my fists. I continued to pack my things when he went inside the room.
"Make sure to bring everything with you. I don't want to bother with my work because you have forgotten about something," he uttered coldly. I took a deep breath and then I faced him.
"No... This is all wrong, Noah! This... this is not the marriage that I want," an involuntary whimper escaped my lips. A flood of tears gushed down my ashen cheeks. My eyes swollen from the tears shed just moments ago, Alex lets out a shaky breath. "This isn't the marriage I dreamed about, Noah... This... is all wrong!" I started throwing him the pillow and, if anything, I could handle it.
"Abigail. What's wrong with you!" he raged at me, but I continued to throw things at him. He got up and was about to touch me when I suddenly pushed him and immediately left the room and was immediately let out of the house. As I started walking, I mumbled incoherent things through her hands and choked on her sobs.
My whole body weakens. This was the first time I spoke in the two years we had been with each other. I never complained, I never said a thing about him. This time … It's the first time. I was also shocked at what I did, but I should have done it. This is for the better. I need to free myself from him. I need to... go on living without him.
I stopped at the center of the road while tears were coming out of my eyes. My heart felt so numb, and I could feel my breath was so shaky. Suddenly, my heartbeat increased, and I was shocked. I wasn't able to move even, it was something like an explosion of energy within and what could I do just to witness this shocking moment. It was completely new, unaware and moreover, it was strange and powerful.
The pain is only felt by ourselves, which cannot be understood by anyone until it comes to them.
Deep emotions stir with no other outlet but through my long-lasting sobs. I am tired. I don't feel like I am living. I don't want to end our relationship like this.
Early in the morning, the artistic golden sun got up like a baby and started painting the dark black sky into a bright blue sky. The bright looking milky clouds got up from sleep and started travelling around the sky visiting the wonderful environment. I opened my eyes half-open, but what I could remember was what happened last night.
I took my phone and saw a message and missed calls from Noah. "I... I want to go back, but my mind says that I shouldn't." What should I do? I am confused. I am exhausted.
When my phone rang again, I looked at the contact name and it was my husband. "Hello?" I answered.
"Abi? Where are you?" he asked me as I answered the call.
"Where are you? Answer me," he commanded.
"I don't want to see you," I said to him.
"Why? What's happening to you? I thought we were fine?" he said over the phone, but tears spilt over and flowed down my face like a river escaping a dam.
"I... am hurt," my breath was shaky when I said that to him.
"Then... Why didn't you tell me about it?"
"I... I want you to initiate it, Noah. You're my husband, and I'm your wife. So, please... treat me like one," when I spoke, it sounded like my voice was made of gravel. My clear tone was undercut with a choking heaviness that forced me to pause several times. My watery eyes closed and a single tear, as clear as spring water, flowed down my cheeks. Eventually, I stopped trying and lowered my head in a quiet sob.
"I want you..." I sniffled between my words.
"I want you to introduce me as your wife." I took a deep breath, "I... I don't want to be your hidden wife anymore," I added as I sobbed between my words. I'd been crying, so my voice still cracked and caught in my throat.
"That's all I want, Noah."
I never heard a response from him for a few more minutes. I could hear that he cleared his throat. "Alright. I'll do it," he uttered, sincerely. I was stiffened while holding my phone in my ear.
"Abigail? Are you still there?"
"Hmm."
"So, can you now tell me where you are?" he asked me.
"After..."
"What?"
"After you announce me as your wife. I'll tell you where I am," I stated.
"Alright. Just wait and see," he said, and ended the call. I don't know if it's real or not. I just had the feeling that he'd going to do it for me. Did he ever love me? No... Did he really think of me as his wife?
I turned on the television and was about to change the channel when I saw him. I saw my husband on the TV. I stopped as I looked at him.
"Hello, good morning. I am Noah Brown. I would like to announce something..." my eyes were still fixed on him as I was waiting for him to tell everyone that I was his wife.
A smile was slowly forming on his lips as he started to talk, "I... I am married," he stated in front of everyone. My chest started to throb so fast while looking at him right now.
"I... am married to Abigail Ellise Alvarez. She's... my wife," as those words came out of his mouth, I felt the chills and shiver inside me. It feels so unreal. I pinched myself as I was still looking at the TV.
"Did he really... say it?"
"Have a good day," he ended the press conference, but reporters were about to approach him when his bodyguards blocked their way. I was smiling after he left the press conference.
I now wonder... I think he really loves me... I... love you so much, Noah.
After a few more minutes, I received a call from him. "So, can you tell me now?" my bottom lip quivered, and my shoulders dropped in resignation. I told him the address where I was.
It had passed an hour when I heard the doorbell ring. As I opened the door, I saw him in front of me, looking at me, coldly, but I also saw worries. Tears spilled over the sides of my eyes and I hugged him tightly.
"Don't do that again, Abi," he uttered while he was hugging me. I nodded my head as I let the tears begin to drip from my eyes.
"Yes. I won't do it again. I'm sorry, Noah."
He placed his palms on my head and he started to stroke my hair. He had never done this before. He had never held me like this before. It was all new to me. The way he holds me... the way he strokes my hair... the way he touches me...
He suddenly released his grip on me. He cupped his hands on my face, guiding them and lifting them up to face his. My eyes were focused on him as he suddenly leaned in closer to me, giving me a kiss on my lips. He leaned in and planted his lips on mine. I wrapped my arms around her neck in return and held her tight as the kiss continued.
I love you, Noah.
To be continued...