I truly never understood the meaning of missing someone even before one's leave your side until Damon said that he's leaving the next morning.
He was still there, right in front of me, massaging my feet while I was busy acting as if I was reading my favorite novel, with a sinking heart that only had him to blame.
It's never like that with me. I never go with somebody else's moods yet, there I was just because he was sad I found myself to be miserable.
"Is it a must for you to go?" I asked softly after closing the novel. I hated the idea of counting down the time left to be with someone.
"Are you asking me to move in with you? it's kind of too sudden, don't you think?" He said feigning innocence.
"Do you like getting a rise out of me?" I asked holding back my irritation. I was too damned serious to consider joking at the moment.
"Don't you just find it fascinating when you get like that?" He asked me in amazement.
"Why didn't I know you were this talkative before" I asked with a sigh, rolling my eyes at him before slightly shaking my head.
"That's because I didn't know how to speak your language back then" He replied seriously earning a smile from me.
"So, you learned the language for Regan?" I asked with a sting of jealousy.
"No. Because I remembered how it was hard for me to engage in a conversation with a chatterbox plus, there was a lot I couldn't understand that night" Explained Damon with a nostalgic look on his face.
"You're such a pathetic fool in love" I scoffed at how smitten he looked.
"Did Sybil just complimented me? I'm honored, love" He exclaimed happily before setting himself between the legs he was massaging to kiss me rotten.
"Such a devoted husband that you are" I said and he kissed me down again.
"Promise me there'll be no one else to make you breathless like I do, promise me that I'll be the first you'll think about when you wake up and the last when you fall asleep, promise me that we'll continue from here no more setbacks, please..." He pleaded more serious than it was needed making me doubt myself and feelings.
"I... I can't promise you all that, Damon" I said bitterly with closed eyes.
"Why can't you?!" Asked Damon enraged making me shiver in fear.
"Because, I don't want to" I said in a whisper but I was sure that he heard my words loud and clear. I was treading on the edge of an icy road on a sunny day.
He was already angry yet I had to make my stand. I had to tell him what I felt because it was the first thing I regretted when I was in a brink of death. No regrets, no hidden words...
"You're so infuriating!" Yelled Damon in annoyance before kissing me roughly. It wasn't like the usual way he used to punish me because, I couldn't feel even an ounce of pleasure or love in it. Only anger and grievance.
"Fucking get off me, you brute!" I said after pushing him away.
"Anderson Sybil, why are you always like this with me? Where do I even stand with you? Are we or are we not together? I get the whole trauma thing but, what about me... I'm human too, you know" I heard him mumble before he stood up and left me alone in the sitting room.
The problem with Damon is that his emotions are everywhere and he really does know how to influence people around him.
I couldn't bring myself to ignore him as I was feeling awful for hurting him the night before he leaves.
I wanted to go and comfort him somehow but, I remembered something so, I left to do just that.
It took me like three hours to make everything ready for the surprise I prepared for him.
"Damon...?" I called once I opened the front door of my apartment.
I heard there was a search party to look for me when I left earlier so, I was afraid of what I would get on my arrival.
"Love! There you are! I was looking for you everywhere like crazy, I'm so sorry for earlier..." He said in relief and pure gratefulness when he came out of our bedroom and flung himself to me.
"Shhhh, you are not angry? And what's more important is..., didn't you see my outfit?" I asked after I separated our bodies and he was at arm's reach.
"What?" He asked at first confused and then he laughed aloud after seeing my outfit. I didn't waste a moment before I cupped his head tenderly something even I was unaware I could do to someone so boldly.
"I'm sorry I hurt you earlier, Damon" I whispered earnestly, getting all of his attention.
"Please don't..." He started darting his eyes anywhere but on my face, he was really uncomfortable.
"That wasn't my intention, believe me" I went on ignoring his pleas.
"It's behind us, now. I'm over it" He dismissed the apology before he grabbed me on my waist and pulled me to him in a suggestive gesture while eyeing my sexy outfit inside the overcoat.
"So, how about I promise you what I can do for us?" I said in a flirting manner, eyes locking up to his, hands around his neck.
"And what's that?" He pried curiously and I couldn't help but, kiss his forehead and the tip of his nose with my eyes closing. He was such a darling to me.
"I promise to never compare nor assimilate you to no one" I said and he groaned, couldn't say if it was in pain or pleasure.
"What does that got to do with us?" He asked slipping his hands inside the overcoat slowly.
"You hate being compared to and I hate living in the past so it's a win win situation..." I said but I had to leave some space for an intake of breath due to the ongoing assault of his fingers on my back.
"Love...?" He called me so deliciously. It's like he was already drugged and my name is the only thing keeping him from going insane.
"Mmmh"
"I'm sorry I didn't listen to you earlier, I'm such a bad husband" He said with a guilt, I didn't know he had.
"Don't you ever stop calling me that!" I bursted out of nowhere confusing him.
"First: define 'that'" He said and I laughed a little.
"Love..." I said feeling all shy and hot inside.
"Your wish is my command! Now how should I unwrap my present... love?" He asked eyeing my lingerie with his lustful gaze after taking the coat off.
"Don't act rash my dear husband, can we go all slow and gentle tonight? I want to savour the feeling" I told him and he groaned, grinding on my bulge.
"But that would feel like the last goodbye" He pouted and I chuckled. He can be cute when he wants to.
"But it is, I'm giving myself to the untitled you for the last time. You're going to be my husband in a true sense after your return" I said breathlessly.
"Will you call me dear husband again then?" He asked matching my tone.
"Anything for you" I said meaningfully.
"Then slow and gentle here I come!... Wait, aren't you still sore from our earlier session?" He asked seriously.
"Are you seriously worried about me with that tent in your pants?" I had to ask.
"There's still cold-water for me. Let's just sleep for tonight" He said determinedly.
"But, I want you tonight!" I pointed out with a pout.
"You can also fuck... me?" Damon said before he grimaced and I smiled at that, he could do anything for me, even forsaking his comfort.
"Have you ever been penetrated by anything?" I asked in a teasing manner but, I was nonetheless serious.
"No" He replied quickly wide eyes.
"How would you feel if I bent you over that sofa?" I asked caressing his ears and he shivered.
"I... *clears throat* umhm, I really don't know" He said with a dry throat before biting his lower lip. That was something new.
"Would you feel treasured, uncomfortable or humiliated?" I asked softly before walking him to our bedroom and sat him down with me on his lap since I could sense that he needed me closer than ever.
"Love..." He called me again his voice a mask of vulnerability making me hug him tightly by reflex.
"What's wrong, Damon?" I asked after I felt his emotions calm a little.
"Thank you so much, love" I heard his small voice before he kissed my neck lightly.That gave me a panic so I had to ask.
"What's wrong?!" I asked the lazy cat that was busy rubbing his forehead on my chest making my nipples harden to the point where they hurt.
"You're the first person to ask how I would feel, love" He said the words full of emotions before he kissed me on my lips tenderly.
"Let's go eat before we wash up, how about that?" I heard him suggest through my lust induced ears.
"Yeah, thank you" I said before I felt being lifted by him. I was the luckiest.
So, it was clear as the day that sometimes he does things what he doesn't want to because, he can't bring himself to say no and it's fine.
He got his flaws and I got mine yet, I could sense the perfection we bring out of each other.