I didn't even know that I was having another episode in a span of three days untill I heard Antonia's angry voice in a far distance at first before it's intensity increased with each passing second.
Then I felt her hands around me begging me to return to her, to stay with her and that everything was okay, No more Trevor there with her, She was Antonia my sister, the priceless jewel of our parents...
And thanks to her words, I had something to hold on to. The present. With Antonia. My lovely twin sister.
I didn't have the energy to refute anything she said because deep down I knew that nothing was ever going to be okay if I don't let go of my past. Nothing was going to move when I'm still stuck with Trevor in my head.
Sometimes it felt as if therapy ain't working on me but, I kept cooperating with my shrink, Louisa, wishing that maybe someday I'd bring me back to how I was three years ago.
I missed me so much at that moment.
"Do you seriously want to kill yourself? Aren't you satisfied with the 'almost died' experience?" She complained, chocking on her sobs, increasing the strength of her embrace.
"I'm sorry, Teety" I said weakly before I cried my heart ou, returning her hug.
"It's time for his medications" Reminded Troy softly at our tightly hugging pair.
I pushed Antonia off me so I could accept the tabs when Troy handed them to me and swallowed them with a will of a soldier. I wasn't a fan of bitter medicines but I didn't want to make a fuss. I was just dead tired from all that happened.
"You should go back to get some sleep, I'll take him to the hospital" I heard Troy speak to his wife.
"He is my brother!" Antonia said, crying hard.
"I know, Teety. But, I need you well rested if we ever gonna take that trip to HULU tomorrow" He said with a smile in his tone
"'We' are going out? With you?" Asked Antonia who'd probably be jumping up and down like a three year old. I was happy for them. Really. But...,
"Why should I go to the hospital again?" I asked because my doctor's appointment was the next week on thursday but, that became something I regretted just the second after asking, My leg was hurting like nothing ever did in my life.
There was something about pain, It always catches you by surprise but, leaving you would be the harder piece of the puzzle. I wanted to cry and shout but, I was afraid I'd lose the strength to stay awake.
I couldn't even allow air to pass through my lungs afraid that I'd allow the other portion that I was blocking in my head if I did that. I groaned like a wounded beast. Damn! Why did I ever thought to kill myself in the first place?
Was he even worth the pain?.
The answer was no and if the lovebirds didn't think that it was high time to send me to the hospital then I was going to die. Right then and there. No exaggeration.
Seconds after I felt being carried bridal style and walked to the cold before it was warm again. Being strapped to the seat and just like that we were on the road. Driving like we were robbers and police were chasing us.
I was so relieved when I felt dizzy after the nurse sedated me. I was saved at last. No pain no problem.
I left them discussing about my condition while I went happily into my dreams.
Maybe I slept for way too long to make sense because at the time I woke up, I felt hands caressing my face tenderly. At first I thought it was Antonia but those calluses I felt on the palm told me a different story.
It could be Troy but, the man is Antonia induced specie. I would bet my life if his cock erect for other people. And those were all the closest people I had in my life at that moment. That made me panic.
It couldn't be Trevor because, I could smell his scent from miles away. And he always smell like cigarette and weed, if not alcohol. Safe to say, I never met him sober.
"W... Who...Who_?" I stuttered only to feel two long hard fingers on my perched lips.
"Shhhh, little bunny. I've got you now" I heard a domineering deep voice state calmly.
I don't do domineering, at least not anymore because in my head domineering was equal to pain. And I'd hate to relive that nightmare again. I didn't want another one to dominate my peace like Trevor did.
So, I pushed my head to the side so as to shake his fingers away. Making my stance. Wrong move.
"You do not refuse me!" Thundered the man, grabbing my chin tightly. He was cracking my healed bones there.
"And you are fucking hurting me!" I shouted at him stubbornly. Good thing he heard me and released me just as fast.
Okay, I was never good with memories of acquaintances so maybe I may or may not know the guy.
"You're hurt?" Asked the man sympathetically. Was he sick in the head or should we blame it on his low EQ?
"... If you haven't noticed my wounds all over my body then let me tell you a short story. I had an accident so, who are you?"
"You forgot me?!" He asked getting worked up for no apparent reasons again. I was pretty sure I was in hospital from all the scents I was getting from the room So, it wouldn't be a surprise if that man was an eloped mental clinic patient. I wasn't judging. But, that grip on my already delicate neck? That was another thing entirely.
"Ho... How could...I ever forget you?" I choked the words out. He was really strangling me.
'If a second life was this full of pain surprises then, I don't want a repeat' I thought in my head before coughing as I felt my throat free once more.
"What kind of an accident?" Asked the anonymous man holding my hand carefully like he wasn't the one who choked me seconds ago.
"Everything just happened so fast, and did I tell you I suffer from amnesia? And on top of that I can't see? Please, remind who you are" I pleaded in earnest. Hoping for hell, my words doesn't get me stabbed this time.
"... Damon, Your husband" He said seriously yet so smoothly that I would've believed him if I wasn't laying on a hospital bed, all hurting with my eyes black from the accident that was due to my real husband.
Or was it all a dream?
How much I hate mind games!.