My night was spent flipping through the Grimoire; my early birthday present. Without Julien's presence I was having trouble sleeping and really wanted to learn some of the spells, the information collected to fill it and see what could be used.
Not just for my safety but Deans, my moms; everyone I loved. I had to be able to keep up with what is really in this world. Julien couldn't keep me safe all the time, despite him making it clear he wants to.
I traced my fingers over the written words and felt the drawings, able to see different hand writings and styles in the spells; wondering how many people had added to it. How many generation created spells and wrote in information about various herbs and combinations.
I recognized a few tricks my mother had taught me, things on how to mix the right herbs for intentions but there were spells I hadn't known.
A boundary spell, one that could be altered in many ways. I spent most my time learning it, perfecting it so I could remember it well and use it on the house.
Once I knew it and knew it well I casted it, still using a small bit of intention. I set up a few candles to help, lighting them with a blink; to draw a bit of power from the fire.
I wrote down names on paper, those would be invited in no matter what. Mom, dad, Dean, Cordelia and Julien. Since I was casting the spell, those who shared my blood would be given the right to invite other people in. My father and my mother.
With the fire from the lit candles, I used it to burn the paper before beginning the spell.
''Gustodire dion canvivadh aoighean eileasuve.'' I casted the spell, chanted it with my head back and my hands out; always using it to feel the power being drawn around me when I casted . I imagined the whole house with my eyes closed.
Now only a few chosen people would be allowed in the house, a few chosen to decide who else would be allowed in from now on.
I blew out each candle with a small blow before closing the grimoire and giving the wax a bit of time to dry; become solid again before I placed them back where they had been previously.
I sighed, knowing it means I'm both safer and that Julien wouldn't need to be here as much. Being an alpha came with reasonability's and he couldn't spend all his time here either.
After several hours of studying the grimoire and fighting to fall asleep I drifted off to exhaustion. My dreams were starting to become clearer; make more sense, not just because I knew now that Julien and I were mates.
I woke up breathless, like the kiss in the dream had really happened. I didn't know where I was, in a bedroom with him; just barely in the doorway. I wished I could get a concept of when it would happen, just getting details.
''Pax, sweetie you slept through your alarms; Dean's waiting downstairs.'' My mom knocked on the door before speaking and I turned over to look at my phone. How did I miss more then one of them?
I quickly tossed the blanket off me to get up, hurrying to get ready for school and Dean who was waiting to bring us both. As I took my pajamas off I walked to my closet, throwing together an outfit in a rush before dressing.
I pulled my hair from my jacket after I got my phone and retrieved my school bag, swinging it over my shoulder and opened my bedroom door. Mom had gone back downstairs and I heard her and Dean speaking. Stopping when I made it to the bottom.
''Alright, you two get going; drive safe.'' My mom spoke, telling us and giving us both a smile before she turned to return to the kitchen.
Dean of course nodded as I slipped on my shoes, opening the door after and letting Dean go first.
''What made you; Pax, sleep through your alarms and my messages and my call's?'' I nodded, nearly laughing at how dramatic I thought he was being until I pulled my phone where I had put it in my back pocket.
''Oh my god.'' Several missed calls and messages from Dean and a message from Julien. I smiled as I opened It.
My vision must take all my focus, pull my senses; all of them into it.
I got into the truck, getting settled in the passenger seat before reading it.
Julien- I've got a meeting today with some other alphas but I hope you slept well. I'll try you again later, have a good day at school.
I put my seatbelt on, Dean having started the truck to begin driving to school. We had a few minutes before we were late but I checked my missed calls again, seeing one from Julien.
I sighed and clicked my screen off before placing it in my bag. I looked at Dean and smiled.
''You never told me how it went with Charlotte.'' I told him and he let out a sigh of his own as he glanced at me. If I had to tell him every detail then he had to tell me every detail.
He finally filled me in on it as he finished driving us to school, parking just a he finished. Telling me he had kissed her. I was so happy for him. Dean had liked Charlotte since the first time he saw her. She was also kind and never left anyone out of anything. Including Dean and I. Dean thinks it was always me she liked but It was actually always him; not that she didn't like me though.
After Dean and I's shared first few classes we parted ways until lunch and then again until after school. Charlotte had joined us, along with a few of her friends; not used to more then him and I eating lunch together but he enjoyed the time with Charlotte and I'm sure her friends were sizing him up.
Dean was after all going to ask her to be his girlfriend and I'm sure they knew that since Charlotte had shared the detail's of their kiss just as Dean had with me.
''Hey, do you mind if Charlotte rides back with us? She is going to help me study.'' I nodded.
''Of course.'' It is his truck and I wouldn't stand in the way of him not failing. Maybe she would have better luck at actually helping him too.
''Ok, sweet. I'll meet you there; I'm just gonna go tell her.'' I got one of my extra notebooks from my locker, going to use to help break down some of the spells in the grimoire before putting it in my bag and both closing and locking the locker.
I readjusted the bag on my shoulder and made my way out of the school, going to wait by his truck for them.
I checked my phone when I leaned against it, looking around at a few other students beginning to rush out to get home, away from school.
Nothing more from Julien but I sent him a text, asking how the meeting is going. I didn't want to call in the middle and interrupt it, if he was still in it.
I clicked the screen off and placed it back into my bag when I saw Dean and Charlotte coming out of the school together; talking and laughing about something. I smiled but looked down to not embarrass him with my happiness for them both.
''You ready?'' Dean asked, in earshot and took his keys out to unlock the truck; I opened the door for Charlotte. Giving her the middle seat, I would be getting out before her anyways and she could sit next to Dean.
''Thank you.'' I nodded as she got in and got in behind her.
The ride home was short but I checked my phone often, waiting for Julien to text me back or call. He was clearly still busy in his meeting.
''Do you wanna join us, I know your like super smart but we're just doing homework?'' Charlotte offered but I declined, hoping to speak to Julien soon.
Maybe even see him but I would wait to see what he says before asking him to come all this way from wherever his territory is.
I did however want to tell him that the house is spelled and safe.
I got upstairs and placed my things down before pulling out my spare notebook and putting it top of my grimoire for later. I wanted to work further on the boundary spell as well, try to make it useful in more then one way.
Between breezing through my homework I glanced at my phone, waiting for it to light up with a call or message. What was this meeting about? He had texted me before I even woke up about the meeting, It's been several hours.
I sighed and fell back on my bed, my homework done and having nothing else to do I laid there; staring up at the ceiling. I pulled the blanket to me to hold, getting a bit chilly without my jacket and sleeveless shirt. My eyes fell shut before I knew it and I was falling asleep.
I blinked awake, hearing something and I looked at my window the light from the day gone and my room dark besides the light that came from my phone; blinding me in contrast as I answered it.
''Hello?'' I didn't get to see who was calling and just answered.
His voice however woke me up instantly.
''Hey Pax.'' He said simply and I could hear the smile in his voice. Picking that up before I felt him. Not noticing it at first.
''Julien.'' I said a smile spreading across my lips as I pushed the blanket away and got up. Keeping the call going as I made my way downstairs.
''How was your nap?'' He asked, having heard my tired still in my voice when I first picked up.
''It was good...how was your meeting?'' I hurried to the back door, not running but not walking either.
''Long and utterly boring without you around.'' I smirked and made my way onto the grass toward the woods and he stepped out. Having been waiting there for me.
He pulled the phone away from his ear and we both hung up.
''I missed you.'' I told him with a small smile and put my phone in my back pocket.
He quickly closed the space between us, those words being something he must have wanted to hear. Julien picked me up with a hug and I giggled but hugged him back before he set me back onto the ground.
''I missed you more.'' He nodded and pulled back a bit with a smirk. ''I'm sorry I didn't call sooner, I just wanted everything settled before I came back here.'' I turned my head a bit and let my hands fall a bit lower on his back, more comfortable to hold him that way.
''Get what settled?'' What was this meeting about?
His smirk became a smile before he got more serious; to answer my question. ''I've called on some of the alpha's I know and trust to help me track Daven down. None of them want him running lose, they have found their mates too and understand.''
''Wait, wait; I can help you with that.'' I nodded, being better at it too. I didn't need a scent or a trail to follow. I could just wonder.
Julien nodded now, ''Pax he want's to hurt me and he knows the only way to do that is to hurt you; your not going anywhere near him.'' I pulled back now and he let me but didn't seem happy about it.
''No, no.'' I nodded and turned a bit before looking back at him. ''I've done some my own research.'' I told him, referring to Deans. ''You said I'd make a good Luna and that means we'd be equal. Your not even discussing it with me.'' I let out a huff, feeling good to get that off my chest, not liking him always shooting me down when I wanted to help.
I wanted to help and I could. I can.
I looked up at him again and he was smirking; finding it amusing for some reason. He put on a straight face at me looking at him, trying to hide that he had done so in the first place.
''It's not funny Julien.'' I crossed my arms as I told him.
''No, it's not and your right; we should discuss it.'' He told me, touching my crossed arms to in a way ask if I would open them for him again. I dropped them though.
He turned his head at my action and sighed. ''I only thought you were being cute, I like your interest it being a Luna; equals but...he wants you dead Pax.'' He let the end of his sentence fade away, the thought bringing us both down.
''I just want to help.'' I told him after thinking on it.
He reached up and cupped my face with both hands. ''And I would love it but just don't wonder, if that's what you had in mind.'' He told me before making his request and I nodded.
I grabbed his hands that held my face to hold.
''I'll find more in the grimoire, I'm sure of it.'' I told him, even if it wasn't exactly the spell I needed I could create one by mixing some; I'd be helpful.
''Find more?'' He was asking about what I had already found.
I nodded, nearly forgetting but he took my hands and let go of my face. ''I spelled the house, invitation only from now on.'' My excitement was obvious and he smiled again.
''Well I hope I can still get an invite.'' He smirked again and I nodded. And so long as we were equals he would keep it.
I thought it would have been harder to convince him, given his clear opinion against it and it's danger's.
''Already invited.'' I told him, having prepared for him to still be allowed in. He was my mate after all and one of the only people who was able to keep me safe.
''Do you wanna come upstairs? With me.'' I added making sure he knew that I wanted to spend time together.
Julien raised one of his eyebrows at my question and I realized what else that could mean and my face immediately heated up.
''Of course.'' I could hear the amusement in his voice before I looked up, knowing that wasn't what I meant but rather how it sounded.
I finally took him up on his offer when he extended his hand for me. Leading the way once again, all the way upstairs to my room. Once I got inside I released his hand to turn the light on, not doing so when I left it.
I moved further into my room and sat on the end of the bed, turning as I did so to see him still standing in the doorway. Not fully in the room.
''Come sit.'' I offered, not sure what he was doing but it was amusing to see him not sure what to do; unlike him. ''I promise I won't ruin you.'' I said after he began walking.
I joked but I was still the one he had ruined. He smiled at me and sat beside me, looking over at me afterwards.
''Oh, I'm already ruined.'' He told me before laying back on the bed, seeming tired from his long meeting. He placed his linked hands over his chest and I laid next to him. Watching him.
Julien was deep in thought, lost in it until I moved closer to turn on my side further. He looked over at me before removing one hand from his chest and lifted his arm up. I moved even closer to lay on his chest, his free arm wrapped around me; holding me as I cuddled into him.
I closed my eyes contently before breathing him in, the closeness. He kissed the top of my head before I too felt him sniff.
His sense of smell far better then mine.
''What do I smell like?'' I wondered how he smelled me, it was apart of the whole mate thing so I had to smell different.
I felt him move a bit and looked up at him for his answer.
''Like all the forest flowers, after a rain; just grown.'' He described, smiling toward the end; proud to know it. And he knew it well.
I smiled up at him, the description beautiful and far more then I thought it would be.
''Will you stay, or can you?'' I asked, meaning for him to stay the night. It was Friday night and I didn't need to worry about waking up to leave right away.
''When's your birthday?'' He asked instead of answering my question.
''October 3rd.'' I told him, sitting up a bit to better look at him, confused by it.
''Will you come with me to the pack house tomorrow?'' I nodded and smiled when I asked my question again. Hoping he wasn't avoiding it.
''Will you stay the night Julien?'' I wanted him close and there was no reason for him to patrol with the house spelled.
''Yes.'' He nodded and I felt relief in him wanting to.
I wondered why he had asked about my birthday, unrelated to the topic. It was coming up soon though, this Monday after the weekend; Dean and I were taking it off and Tuesday. A tradition we had begun a few years ago, to camp. We are going to leave Sunday in the morning. Stay for a few days and drive back for school the next day. Dean always picked the site for his element of surprise and I wouldn't know until we got there.
I'd be granted all my magic and hopefully understand my gift a bit better but there isn't a better place to do it then under the open sky and in the woods. Plus we both enjoyed camping.
''You don't have anything more comfortable to wear.'' I told him as if he didn't know what he was wearing. Although I had just fallen asleep in jeans I didn't want him to have to sleep in them all night, I would be changing into something more comfortable for bed. I didn't even intend to fall asleep in the first place.
''I'll be fine; I'm next to you.'' He told me with a small smile before speaking further. ''Why don't you go change though, It's getting late.'' I moved to sit up and looked at the time on my phone; it was.
I'd be worried about my parents if it wasn't date night; every Friday night and they liked to watch a film too so they came home pretty late.
''I'll be right back, get comfortable.'' I offered and gestured to my bed as he sat up too. He'd need to if he was going to stay the night after all.
He nodded just before I walked to my closet to grab some pajamas. Something comfy but not too warm. Most the time I slept without pants but I was with Julien and I didn't want to give him the wrong idea. Not that he would do anything without my permission but still.
I went into the bathroom not fully closing the door and trusting Julien. I was relived to get out of my jeans after wearing them all day and tossed them in with my dirty clothes before taking my shirt off too. I couldn't help but look at myself in the mirror. I wanted to look good for Julien in more then one way. I gave myself a look over before grabbing my shirt to put on and debated for a little too long on whether or not to leave my shorts off. I decided against it and put them on.
I pulled the bathroom door open and looked for Julien who was fully on the bed now, he had fixed the blanket and was laid above it, arms behind his head; supporting him and his eyes found mine. He was looking at my wall. I had it filled with shelfs, each covered with things I personally forged from nature and an assortment of books. Where the Grimoire lives when I'm not using it, hidden in plain sight.
I made my way over to the bed and used my magic to turn on the lamp beside it before flicking the main light off. He smirked at my magic use, liking it more then I was aware someone could.
''Are you tired?'' He asked as I stopped beside the bed before removing his arms from behind his head and sitting up a bit.
I nodded though, not tired after my nap. Not to mention him being here; in my bed looking like a roman god. Or I suppose rather then a roman god, a werewolf god; If those were real. Julien was perfect, far more then I ever could be.
I moved onto the bed when he reached for me. It made me smile, the way he wanted me. I sat, crossing my legs as I faced him and he laid on his side, supported by his elbow as he held my hand.
I absolutely adore him. I wanted to tell him but he spoke first.
''Do you accept me Pax?'' He asked, looking down at my legs before back up at me; a rawness to his voice.
''I'm not sure if that mean's more but absolutely.'' It could be a werewolf thing but I would never not accept him.
He smirked and glanced down again. ''Mates can reject one another.'' He told me, looking back up as he did so; the information shocking.
''Why would anyone do that?'' Reject what was made for you, Julien is perfect and in our short time together I couldn't image never being with him. I needed him.
He shrugged with one shoulder. ''Some don't want a mate, or don't like the one they've been given.'' Julien kept his gaze directly into my eyes, that intensity behind them making it hard to doubt his feelings on it.
I moved to lay down and he readjusted to lay with me, letting me lay on his chest again. I enjoyed hearing his heartbeat as we spoke; the warmth he gave off naturally. I didn't need a blanket with him around, he gave me plenty of heat.
''I want you.'' I clarified further once we settled and he rested his hand on my waist, giving me goosebumps. His skin on my skin was doing something to me I wasn't familiar with, a new but none the less enjoyable sensation.
''I have to tell you something Pax.'' He spoke, a seriousness in his voice causing me to look up at him.
The tone made me nervous, nervous as to what that something could be.
He gave me a small smile upon me looking up at him before speaking.
''Werewolf's mark their mates.'' He told me, hesitating but getting it out. I wasn't exactly sure what that meant though.
''What's a mark?'' I asked and adjusted myself lower to better look at him for our conversation. I hadn't found anything in Dean's or my own research about it.
Julien brushed my hair aside from my neck, exposing it before he looked at it. I couldn't help but notice how he licked his lips; ever so slightly.
''I'd bite right here.'' He told me before looking back into my eyes. ''It'd heal, immediately but more then just that comes with it.'' I turned my head a bit.
I shivered under his touch, the spot he chose sending a sensation down my spine.
He smirked at my reaction before I asked him what he meant by more. ''What more comes with it?'' I asked and swallowed, nervous about him biting me but there still being more after that.
Julien bit his lip, thinking on the more before he told me. ''We mate.'' He said simply and moved pulled his hand back.
My mouth fell open before I closed it to swallow. We mate, after he marks me; bites me. I assume to portray us being mates.
''Will it hurt?'' I asked, mainly asking about the bite; but I wondered if the mating would hurt too.
Julien nodded and sat up a bit more. ''Cassie told me that it only stings for a second.''
''Cassie?'' I hadn't heard her name before.
He smiled, sensing my concern at her name, It wasn't him who had marked her right?
''Alex and Penelope's mother, she's the pack healer.'' I nodded, relief coming over me at his explanation.
''I hope she's nice like Penelope and not like Alex.'' I assumed I'd meet her, given that she is part of the pack. I just would rather assume her like Penelope instead of Alex who didn't even need to speak the few words he did to me to know he did not like me.
''Alex was mad at me, not you.'' Julien sensed or had maybe heard it. He had been short and in a rush to get away from me. I'm not sure it was just because he was mad at him though; he seemed mad at me too. ''I didn't tell him right away that I found you.'' I raised an eyebrow at the statement.
''He was mad you didn't tell him?'' I was surprised, thinking that It was only me who would be mad. He is my mate after all.
Julien nodded. ''I think he was more mad I told Cassie before him.'' He shrugged; seeming weird of him to be mad at, at all.
''When do you want to mark me?'' I asked, not sure if there was a way or certain time it should be done. I knew mating would follow but he said he'd mark me so it seemed like something he would choose.
Julien sat up at my question though, pulling me up with him. ''Oh, no; Pax you choose that.'' He nodded. ''When your ready.'' Clearing up my other questions.
I nodded and thought a bit on it. I didn't know when I'd be ready or what it felt like to know that. I didn't want him to think I don't want him.
''Can I...can I see them?'' I asked, his teeth; the ones he'd bite me with. Mark me.
He hesitated but nodded before showing me his teeth, his mouth open a bit. Just his teeth, 4 sharp canines. I swallowed and reached forward; wanting to feel how sharp they were.
''Woah.'' He grabbed my hand, stopping me and getting me to gasp at his quickness. ''They are sharp Pax.'' He told me, his voice gentle with his grip but he released me.
I nodded and let my hand drop back down. He said it would only hurt for a second but I found that hard to believe, if they really were sharp enough to prick my skin with a simple touch. I looked back up at him after, the intensity somehow more. The thought of marking me doing something to him too.
His eyes traveled to my lips before looking back up at my eyes when I spoke. ''Julien?''
''Yes?'' He asked, waiting intently for what I had to say.
''You should kiss me; If you want of course.'' I offered, wanting to very much myself but I would let him decide if that's the source of intensity behind his already intensely beautiful eyes.
He smirked before leaning in, closing the space between us; between our lips. The kiss was short and quick, like he didn't want to make it too long, go too far. It was still none the less perfect no matter how long it lasted.
After our small kiss we laid back down together, talking together until I drifted off at some point. Not remembering when but being comfortable with him that laying together made me tired. It's almost like he soothed me to sleep at one point, gently rubbing my back when he had to of noticed.
Julien took my fear away of having a vision and not just a bad one but any at all. Like he was my new anchor for any of my magic.
.....To Be Continued In the Next Chapter....