Two weeks have gone by.
Two weeks since I called William and told him I'm redrawing from the film score project.
Two weeks since he touched me. I feel clean now. I feel no more guilt. But just because I feel clean doesn't mean I don't miss his touch.
Because I do. I feel like I'm going crazy. I have dreamt about him touching me in my dreams repetitively whilst I slept next to my boyfriend.
I have been cheating on Chris with William in my dreams.
God, I have no shame. The least I can do is to avoid him to save my dignity. But it getting harder for me. Because he's everywhere I am. In my house, at orchestra practice, and anywhere I go with my sister. He is there tormenting making my body beg to feel his touch once again.
Now I will see him again at my father's retirement party with my sister in his arms.
Will I feel jealous? Yes.
Will I feel jealous if my boyfriend Chris flirts with another woman? Yes
