After going through all the pictures of bts on her phone while ignoring the "free up space" notification that was displayed, she felt a kind of happiness that only a loyal fan of an artist would understand. She dropped her phone and herself on the bed with a sigh.
"Omo! being an army is not easy o" she said to herself.
It was a Friday night and she had watched those pictures and videos from bts to calm her exhausted body and mind, but it seems like it backfired.
It left her wondering what it would be like to attend a concert in person. To hold on to her light stick while singing along to the song the boys performed. She it was moments like this that made her feel jealous of the armys that can attend concerts or can readily get merchs to design their rooms and books.
They can also participate in fan signing while all she does is look at the pictures of those who got their signatures or pictures or something else from them.
"It's really annoying!" She whisper screamed to herself not wanting to alert her siblings.
She wondered how it will feel to be close to them,see them face to face, have a realtime picture of them,or more impossibly; to call them and to eat with them, to talk with them for a very long time about random things and not having to "compete" for you to be heard; like on VLive.
"Ugh! Dear God, I really wish I can see bts at least once or twice before they disband."She said earnestly.
"And I also want to have a special mecrh signed by them or not. I just want to have something from them!. Why is life so hard?"
These questions and many more ran through her head as she connected her phone to charge and went to sleep.
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"Ahhhhhh!!!!"
" We love you bangtan!!"
" I love you Jimin!"
"Saranghae bts!"
She heard as she opened her eyes.
"Oh! It's a miracle!" She said as she looked around the stadium filled with girls (she sighted a few boys too) screaming and jumping.
"Ese, this one na better dream o" she said laughing and looking around the stadium.
Then she looked ahead and saw all members of bangtan singing "permission to dance" with one or two of them calling out for army to sing with them.
She saw the boys' interaction on stage; playful, happy, cordial and everything she usually saw on videos (except the crying though).
Suddenly, the song was over. And RM shouts;
"Army! Army!" "We love you so much, army!"
Everyone screamed in response. She felt so many goosebumps grow on her skin from the shouts and energy coming from both sides.
"We are so happy that we were able to have a concert once again and see you all fever to face!" He continued
"I'm so happy to see army again" Jhope shouted, smiling and waving his two hands in hello.
Most girls around me screamed while some laughed because he's such a fanboy for Army.
"We hope that you be healthy and happy during the holidays!" Jimin said
The other members clapped affirming that they too wish the same.
As all of this went on, Ese stood still, observing it all. She hadn't moved from her spot since she got there—she was too scared to move—because all of it felt too real and her brain was still trying to understand a lot about what was going on.
She heard someone say they hoped they could get front row tickets for the next concert and came back to her senses.
"Is it over already?" She said, asking no one in particular.
Everyone was leaving the auditorium, but she stayed where she was, confused.
"Where do I go from here? I don't know anyone here" she thought as fear suddenly gripped her.
She walked out and saw people leaving with their friends or family and suddenly felt alone.
"Hey! What are you doing out here?" She someone ask. She turned and saw a girl looking directly at her.
"Are you talking to me?" She asked confused.
"Isn't she korean?" "How can I understand her so we'll?" Ese thought
"Of course! Who else is standing on the road alone" The girl said like it was the most obvious thing
"You?" She stared at her in wonder.
"Nice one, but I'm the one asking so I don't count" She said, laughing
"She doesn't even know me, yet she's being so friendly"
"I don't know where to go. I just suddenly appeared here with no money and I don't know anyone here", She said, sadly
"Oh. Would you like to stay with me then? You could get a job that would help you make some so you can go home" she said
"I'm not sure about that"Ese said, skeptical
"Oh come on! It will be fun I promise!" The girl said.
Ese felt like the whole situation just got extra creepy. Like, how can a total stranger try to convince you to stay in their house in such a happy way?
What if it's a trap?
What if this is all a bad dream?