Once upon a time,I met this guy on the school field.I liked him because he was easy to get along with and we had a lot of things in common. When I learnt that he had a girlfriend,I kept it to myself and I secretly crushed on him until he told me he liked me too.At first,I told him to break up with his girlfriend because I wouldn't be a side chick. He said he couldn't break up with her because she doesn't deserve it,so I decided to let him go.
It is a long distance relationship,so we were together almost every time.He made advances to me,I couldn't resist him,so one thing led to another. We couldn't define whatever we had,it was more like a situationship.He made time for me,made me happy,was there for me,took note of the things I like and got them for me,he was everything but I was disappointed in myself when I realized I found peace in someone else's man.When I told a friend about it,she said,
"It may look all rosy but don't ever be a second option.Even if he is everything you want,trust me you'll find better.Had a similar experience,just had to let him go and now we're great friends and I found someone better.Always think about his girlfriend, respect her and respect yourself too.You'd get over it",I decided to let him go.I became unavailable,he complained for a while and moved on.We had fun,it was short but blissful.Now,he's happy with his girlfriend and 'chopping the life of his head' like I never existed.I realized I misinterpreted his feelings,he didn't see me as someone he could date, he saw me as a girl he could vibe with since I was close by.I think the scariest thing is that we can't read people's minds and sometimes we might not know their intentions. It took months to heal and move on but I'm fine eventually.
After everything,I won't be stupid to hate his girlfriend,she's beautiful,supportive,independent and has a good boyfriend. I don't hate him too,he's not at fault,I shouldn't have been always available for someone's man.I learnt a lot from him in all aspects and I still want to watch him succeed.I just want us to start afresh and be normal friends this time.
After everything,I want to make money,be independent and be beautiful,maybe I'll get a good guy too.