Well! One is never healed completely after a breakup. It is a permanent scar. As time passes one learns to live with it. To enhance this time,some prefer serenity,some prefer diverting themselves multidimensional and engaging into self lifting activities. The memories still make you smile,some of them might haunt you. With time these memories fade,they do not vanish.
Was deeply in love with her,I was there for her,helped her overcome the pain of her previous breakup.This was not the first breakup in my life,I had loved before but this was definitely the weirdest. I wanted the best for her,treated her more like a sister. We dated for six months,one month into the relationship,I asked for sex,she gave excuses and I said I'll give her time.
Four months later,five months into the relationship,I didn't ask about it and we were cool enjoying each other's company.One day,I left Ibogun to Ago,we met,missing her so much and the intimacy,I tried it but she didn't concur and I didn't force her. So I asked her why she's always like that,she said she's waiting till wedding night and she can't have sex with me because I'm a Christian and her parents won't let us marry,she said her mum said if she does it her life and the guy's life will be ruined. Omoooo I was angry and confused. Like "why did you lie to me in the first place?",told her I'll cheat if this keeps going,I loved her and didn't want to cheat,so I broke up with her.
We kept talking after the break up,after two weeks,I apologized and told her I didn't want sex again and I'm okay with everything she says,that we should come back. She said she's never coming back,I begged this girl like I was begging for my life. I said I was going to be cool with all her conditions,I begged this girl from 11pm till 3am. She later told me she asked her sis about what their mum said and she said it's a lie to prevent them from unwanted pregnancy. Guyyyy the reason we broke up was a lie,I don't want sex,I shouldn't have broken up,it was a mistake that I regret,I just want to be with you,she said she's done with me.
She even came back one time,after three days she said she can't continue that she's heartbroken already. "Howwwww can you be so heartbroken because I broke up and you don't want to come back to me",she said she doesn't want to go through that heart break again since we won't get married. She's addicted to the k-drama syndrome,that perfect life when you get married to your boyfriend.
From "Thanks for coming into my life,I can't even believe how far we've come. I love you baby" to "I was feeling you but not anymore.Do you want me to come back to you and waste your time and attention? I don't know why you guys are like this". She called me 'you guys'.I've never treated her badly. She checks my phone and tells me the girl to talk to. I've always been available for her. She's my best friend. Our vibe was ninety nine percent match.The one time she'll be available for me emotionally,she said no.I've always put her first in everything I swear. We were still cool after everything,still vibing,still used to have long conversations until she said she's catching feelings again. Guyyyy I just wanted friendship. You don't get treated the way you treat others for real.
One time I told a friend I was overthinking and she said "You should let go of her,she doesn't want you,you need to move on. You were fine before she came,you should be fine even now that she left". And I was like "she's beautiful asf. I may not meet someone as beautiful as she is.She's playful and full of energy.I know I'm fucked,just tryna accept my fate but it's hard".
"Someone will give you the love you deserve"
"That's what everyone say but the chance that I won't meet someone better is actually high".I had oneitis.That shit ruined me.I can't even have a crush now,it's not worth it.I'll rather look for someone that has a crush on me.I'm never going extra mile for a girl never again.I won't get attached hundred percent anymore.Love made me stupid.
Skin,hair,eyes,everything ten over ten.Alpha male shii.I know I'm peng,one thing I want to work on then it's over.I want to have a stone heart and learn how to control emotions strongly. Then my playboy phase is 10/10.