When will all this charade end?He handed me the box of chocolates and the flowers, I took them gracefully, I knew he wanted a reply…
But I had no interest in him, " uhmm…. Jordan I Know you like me but I really don't feel the same way about you, I just hope with time you will find a girl who would love and cherish you''..
I said before giving him back the flowers,but I held the chocolate tightly. I need it for my trip, I left him standing as I walked down the road, I have a long day ahead.
No time for love games, I boarded the bus back to my house, home sweet home" I said as I entered my warm apartment, I spent all my personal savings on this house, it's funny how I built my first house at twenty years
It isn't big but it's just perfect for me, I hung my coat on a coat hanger not far from the door, same with my boots, I need to go prepare my box…
For my trip, I took my bath…. After eating my leftover pie, I headed to my bedroom to tell my diary how my day was. There's nothing more relieving than telling your best friend how your day was after a long day…
I reached out for my dairy, and my favorite pen, which I usually tie on my dairy, I hate it when I have to look for something I shouldn't be looking for,I get really Frustrated…
" Dear diary, I had a slightly nice day, but I had the trauma again, you know I hate it when it comes up, but this time it was triggered by my thoughts, I remembered mom..
. And I couldn't help my body from shaking, then the head pain came again as well, I just can't wait to get my thoughts straight again, I just need a little bit of time I guess…
And secondly guess what?.... I would be going to Whitehaven beach in California, Mrs Anna rewarded me for my behavior. Remember when I told you I would love to be punctual and consistent, it paid off…
And thirdly, that silly boy Jordan knelt down before me today, asking me to be his girl, I don't know how many times you need to reject a man before he finally figured out that this girl doesn't need him.
A million times I guess, but he's just too stubborn. What do you say I just end him, then have his tongue in a jar? '' I concluded as I smiled maniacally…
I will do that right after my trip, it will be a smooth and very painful murder, he has tormented me for so long, my life would be alot more better and peaceful, I would miss the cold cofee
I always feel better after pouring my heart out. When it's finally time to sleep, I placed the dairy back home in my wardrobe then headed to sleep..
" One dead sheep one corpse" I muttered continuously, til my eyelids were heavy, this mantra has been my only way to sleep after mom took away my lamb
Dad bought it for me on my birthday. It was a weird wish,but dad never saw it that way. Immediately I wished for a lamb and he started making preparations…
But mom was so allergic to peace she had to kill it. I remember waking up to see a dead animal, with flies passing through it's nostrils , it hurt for days because she didn't care..
She bluntly told me she killed it, I knew dad wouldn't react even though it hurt him so much, he loved his wife so dearly, she owned half of his life
His heart and his soul.. he had no control over anything, they had the money but there was nothing like love between them, it was just two adults living together with a child..
My love for animals never died, back dead I wouldn't sleep without petting my lamb, but it hurt more because I loved only one living thing, it would hurt more if there were much
Just one sheep on corpse two sheep's two corpses, the more the merrier, I created this mantra when I developed insomnia and it had helped ever since then
Ding.!!! My alarm clock rang, time to prepare for trip, I took my bath tired my hair in a smooth Ponytail still Letting my bang fall down my face , each time I do that I always look like a ten year old girl
With my ocean green pupils, and thin lips, I feel so bad each time I look at the mirror then realize I have more of my mom's features then my dad's, I have her eyes, her innocent look…
But I am not her. When it's time to get dressed I want something simple and comfy. A jogger's and a simple shirt would do the trick, and I have those in different colors…
Pairing a nude colored jogger with a white T-shirt with a black teddy drown on it, I should really go into modeling. I merge colors real well, no time to admire yourself, my goddess said within me, I just passed a smirk before heading out of the house…
I already have what I need, I got my bikinis, my ticket, my ATM card and lastly my dagger and dairy, so there's nothing more I need, I have them all packed safely ..
I called miss Anna before. she wished me luck then I headed off the apartment to the airport, my flight would commence by 10am, I was an hour earlier
No problem, I could just sit down, and view how everywhere in California would be, Including the Massive beach I would be spending most of my time in..
It never gets old, '' hi dear" a musculine voice said, I totally ignored it. I know it's not time for the flight. I had my alarm prepared thirty minutes ahead, so he must be interested in the lady before him..
I didn't want to be disturbed, he kept calling but I totally ignored, then I felt him touch me, " shit!" I yelled, successfully bringing everyone's attention towards my direction