Lillian, you are a remarkable woman and if I'm single I would love to do this with you, but you are young and I 'm not what you want. I know someone special will come and you just need to open your heart to another, not me! I'm not perfect and I'm not what you think I am!
I know who you are and why mom loves you very much. You are a kind hearted, passionate and generous person she has ever met. I would love to have a piece of you just like her and the other girls and women who you spent your time with and made love with before. Let me feel how they felt and how you made them moan and cum, just like now!, Lillian cried moving in closer and grabbing mine to put her fingers in which I automatically caught seeing her face made a frown, feeling down and annoyed. We wrestled and I fell on the floor with her on top of me. Now, I couldn't move and she kept on kissing me all over and my mouth is like being ravished by a hungry lion which I don't really dislike but her rough character made me feel like when I was younger. This girl is not kidding when she said that if she wanted something or someone she always gets it or the person. Now, what?
I couldn't fight back she pinned me down and since I'm not getting any younger, my defenses lost and I couldn't resist it any longer and gave in. But the whole time Lillian is doing what she is doing to have sex with me I was thinking about Leila and how I could let her know that this is a mistake and I felt so ashamed. Maybe this is the karma that people are talking about. When I was playing around and having sex with all the women I wanted I got them but when time came that I wanted to break free from the bad habit and be clean, be faithful, temptation seems to run after me and force their selves on me.
Clearly, I'm shit and my life is full of it that I need to really reflect and maybe, asking Leila to marry me isn't right all along. This isn't the right time to do it. I need to get away from this and change. I need to to do it now or else I'll go crazy thinking about how I could explain to Leila that her daughter forced herself on me.
Lillian looked at me and when she cum and gave a moan, she saw my face, and tears were flowing down my eyes. She kissed my face and felt sad, then apologized for what she did.
She said that she didn't know what she was doing and she really loved me why she did it. Well, Lillian isn't a bad girl and she made me feel special but my heart isn't in it because I love her mother. It's okay, but Lillian, I was here o tell you that I wanted to marry your mom. I just need to ask for your help but I think I need to rethink my plans. I better go, your mom must be worried since I just took a while to come here to tell you the news, I uttered hurt and embarrassed, fixing my pants and buttoning my short sleeve shirt. Lillian with her body bare on the floor looked surprised with what I revealed and started crying when she heard that I'll be rethinking my decision on marrying her mom.
That would be so sad and it would hurt her mom most if she knew what we did together. This isn't how I wanted things to go down and I think I need to go back to square one. I didn't have a plan but I guess what I can do now is just be honest of my feelings towards Leila. I hope that she feels the same way I do. I love her and no one can stop me even her daughter or the circumstances that happened between us.
Leila knows me well and I hope she trusts me enough to know that I wouldn't do anything to jeopardize our relationship now that I have her in my life. And of all people to screw up, her daughter is the last person I would want to have sex with in the first place. She is like a daughter to me and I understand how she feels. I forgive her and I know this is just an infatuation, a crush or passing thing, a phase that she'll get over with in time. It's sad but true. I smiled at Lillian and told her that she is pretty and she is better off not with me but with another woman who will love and treasure her just like what I have with her mom, Leila. I helped Lillian put her clothes on and touched her cheek, she all of a sudden got shy and wasn't looking at me straight in the eyes. I know she is ashamed of what she did.
But we make and had some bad decisions in life when we were younger. it's just the reality of life that we can screw up too and that it's most likely to be with someone close or special to us. I love life, women and unexpected love makings but unfortunately, this one that happened with Lillian is what I'd be treasuring always> She looked like a lost girl who is seeking for validation, affection and acceptance from someone she considers an icon, a father image maybe. And I pose as someone strong for her that's he admires and look up to. She maybe got confused when I appeared weak when it came to sex and all.
But I explained to Lillian that I'm human too and I do have weaknesses and things I need to improve with myself. And she made me realize that I need to change soon, for I'll be the parent she'll be having in the future. Lillian and I went for coffee after. I drove her to her apartment near my mansion. I smiled at her and she nodded back at me. I parked my car in front of the house and saw Leila dancing in the living room to the loud tune of "How will I know if he really loves me, I say a pray in every heart beat...."
Aha! Yeah, tell me about it!...., I didn't knock since I have my own key and just stood looking at her dance. I missed her dancing like that, so free and careless. Beautiful and alluring at the same time! Nice! Baby, baby, I should go out more to see you dance like this...., I shouted when Leila didn't here me the second time I called her baby.
Leila suddenly stopped frozen but smiling (like she is proud of herself for making me hot all over) when she heard me, and then ticked a control hologram board in the middle of the living room center table to lower the volume. Thanks, I missed dancing too. With these feet I can dance all I want and I love it! I have never thanked you enough Sasa! Thank you and I love you!, Leila said running towards and jumping at me where I almost dropped her like I was forcing myself to carry the weight of her whole body. But she was heavier than before so we fell together and caught her on top of my waist still smiling and all happy.
I love you!!!!, I replied pulling her arms towards me and grabbing her face to kiss her mouth. She smelled nice and her mouth tasted like strawberries and milk. When we kissed, it's like I forgot everything that happened earlier this morning with Lillian and I'm like a bird free and already absolved from the sins I committed then and now. I wished for that to happen and I prayed to God to forgive me my sins and maybe He did hear me and granted my wish. My wish to bring back Leila to my life and I'll do everything He tells me to do for others and the world. God has granted my request and I need to give back, pay forward and all out of respect, promise, gratitude and generosity.
Leila is already sleeping when I tossed and turned unable to keep my eyes shut. I have been thinking about Lillian and it bothers me that she came on to me so strong that I can still smell her breath like drug that I couldn't get enough of. Becca was and still is my lucky charm and my heroine but Lillian, is, someone unusual, exciting and bubbly. Young and talented, hot and feisty. Leila has fire but Lillian is the fire. Now, if I am not mistaken, I think I like Lillian and though getting involved with her sexually is not at all nice and appropriate. I loved what she did to me earlier. Though, I felt violated, I have never met someone who could look me in the eye and tell me she wanted me in her life. It's my first time to be with a woman who really made me feel excited to have sex with and as if it's a game where I get to wait what will happen next like in a story or novel where there's a sequel of what's going to happen, good or bad, exciting or boring it's still part of whole show that sparks the audience's interest, or curiosity.