Craig and I were alone outside the cold but pleasant part of the house. He asked me to dance and we did, jumping and laughing, having fun with the rock compilations. Then, the ambiance changed from alternative to love songs. I hesitated to hold Craig's hand but he was gentle and didn't force me to do it, so I gave him my hand and we danced the night away. I hugged him and let my head rest on his shoulder while he touched my back to support me while we danced to "When I look at you" by Miley Cyrus. The song was mixed into a light rock tune that made the song more romantic and fun to dance on. Craig sought for my hand and placed it on his chest, then moved the other to hold my chin and slightly kissed me on the lips. But, I felt my libido wanting to break free, being suppressed, controlled for a very long time, the feeling, love, desire I had for Leila that were all bottled up inside me, broke out and kissed Craig's mouth like I've never kissed someone in my entire life before. Craig was surprised but was glad that he made the first move finding out that Sasa liked him too. Little did Sasa know that Leila is watching the whole time and she was so jealous. Jorge was a good boy but he is definitely not a gentle person. Why can't she find a boy like the boys that Sasa dates. The thing is, if I like the boy, he is either a nerd or gay, so, I settled for Jorge, at least he is rich but I didn't think we will end up together. What we have is just a fling, a passing thing.
But unlike Sasa, Craig is serious about her and wanted to meet her mom the next time they'll see each other again in school. Leila hated Sasa for this. When she saw her kissing Craig, she got angry and blasted off to pull Sasa away from Craig. She got so jealous that she wanted to smack Craig which she didn't do since Craig is taller than her like about 5'8" at our age of 12-13 years old. Sasa wanted to be with Craig and she looked at Leila and grabbed her hand to pull it away from her friend. Why did you do that, Lei? I like Craig.
Do you, now? Hmph!!! So you hate me and don't like to be around me, is that it?, Lei added still not letting go of my hand.
Stop, Lei, stop it! Why are you acting like crazy all of a sudden. I thought you wanted to me to like Craig and be with him. We kissed and I liked it. So, you're mad that I like him, is that it?, I replied not knowing what to feel and not understating Lei's weird reaction towards me and Craig. No, but I hate I when he does that to you! You are still young and you know... you need to protect yourself!, Lei said now being moral and all. What the f....! Lei, I don't understand you. You wanted to come to this party and get drunk or get laid. Now you're being moral and protecting me, my virginity and what, you don't want me to feel loved or desired. Lei, you're not the only girl in town who is eligible and has the right o be loved and fall in love. This time, I had enough! I've put up with your crazy ideas and illegal acts but now I've totally had it! You'll sleep on the floor and don't say I warned you!, I cried furiously. I was really mad at her for ruining my special evening with Craig. But when I thought about it, I think Lei was jealous, maybe because I have someone truly loving me or maybe because I like him too. I felt happy inside.
I felt powerful that I made Lei feel what I always feel when I see her make out with different guys every time. Lei was like a sad puppy running after me that night. She looked so cute but I wanted to stand firm and what she did was wrong. I changed on my pajamas, then brushed my teeth without even looking at her. She pleaded and said sorry a couple of time and even tried to scare me that she'll jump out of the window ifI won't forgive her. Which is just okay, since my window, my room is at the ground floor, there's no harm jumping outside it. I told her she can jump outside the attics window, she would automatically die when she does that, for all I care. Then, acted like I was mad and slipped through my blanket and slept.
Though, I waited for Lei, she walked quietly inside my room slipped on the comforter lying on the floor and was sniffing. I felt evil and it's the most satisfying feeling ever, but I couldn't let Lei feel this way until tomorrow. I hate being the villain but she needed to see that what she did was wrong. But she was jealous and I know now that she loves me. Leila slept crying and checked up on her, she was still holding the teddy bear I lent her every time she sleeps over.
Poor Lei. I went down the bed and squished in on her blanket. I kissed her cheek and apologized. I told her I love her, and Lei opened her eyes and turned over to face me. Her eyes were sparkling and kissed me happily on the lips. I felt warm, the kiss I had with Craig was pleasant but not enough to make me feel what I feel right now. The kiss has flair, fun, excitement and oozing with sexuality. I like kissing Leila, her lips are softer, and her body warmer, calmer and homey. I have always loved her sweet and refreshing smell. I loved how her hair so long would clamor all over my face when she kisses me over and over again. The kiss we share together was always in secret, our little secret. I love Lei and kissing her is so addicting.