Leila is still at the corner near the bathroom. She was listening and she recorded every detail in her head about my conversation with her daughter Lillian. I saw her silent and still when I came out of the bathroom. Though, Leila couldn't see me, she knew how I felt. She knew me and knows me well enough to believe that I didn't hate or never hated her. She knew and she doesn't agree that I help her. You don't need to do this Marissa! Sasa! Forgive me! If I could turn back time, I would to tell you How sorry I am and how much I love yo.....!, Leila honestly said but I interrupted her since I didn't want to hear what she wanted to say at the end of the word love. It's not about you, Leila! And it's not always about you! I had a life too, but you were too selfish and carefree that it never occurred to you. That I have feelings too. That I get hurt too. That I am human, a girl who adored you, loved you and wanted to be with you. But you turned your back on me, you left me without even saying goodbye! What I'm going to do is not to help ease your pain or heal your disability but to calm and heal my heart. That even if I can't forgive you now, maybe later, maybe by then I'd be able to, when I see you whole again. You're no good to me, seeing you blind, cripple and suffering. I want to see you well and be able to love again. So that when that time comes that your heart gets broken you'll remember me and feel everything that I've gone through because of you!, I explained while crying my heart out because I was hurting. I thought I already got over the pain, her, but even if many years has gone by, the pain still lingered and it doesn't want to stop until it hurts Leila. I wanted to slap her face but I didn't want to when Lillian is still standing beside me shocked of everything I spitted out just now.
Leila's tears flowed from her eyes then slowly began to laugh. She laughed so hard that she coughed and tried to reach for my arm. Then, so be it! You're on! If I get well and get my heart broken, I will come find you and witness my being pathetic, since you believe that I truly am!, Leila cried trying to reach for my arm or maybe my face. She wanted to feel my face, to know what I truly feel inside, but I stood firm and let her suffer, not knowing what I bare in my heart. Actually, it isn't hate or revenge, but love. I still love Leila. And I think I am the pathetic one here.
Sasa will talk to friends and pay for the best doctors to treat Leila's eyes and legs. She will go through therapy sessions until she can finally walk. Leila knew what Sasa wanted and she will give her that. But Sasa didn't want anything from Leila. She would visit Leila in her therapy sessions and in her operations until she got her eyesight back. Sasa still did her normal routines such as office work, meetings, dates and one night stands every weekends off. If she didn't feel like it Sasa would just fly by her private jet and travel with her assistant or girl dates who some are artists, models or even flight attendants.