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Chapter 7 - "You Occupy My Thoughts"

The gestures you do might mean little to others, yet they hold so much meaning to me... ― Florence Joyce

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[Rinako]

For me, two weeks had passed by so fast. Well, I think the reason for me to feel that way was that I wished for it--strongly. Why wouldn't I? There wasn't a day at all that that heck of a jerk truly ruined my days.

My goodness! That was a torturous 2 weeks for me that had passed by in my life. This was frustrating! If I could just go on a rampage and yell at him, I would've done it.

But for now, I couldn't do it even though I wanted to. I don't know. Today was a bit different for me. It was kind of energy-draining... seriously! I kept experiencing a lot of unluckiness since then.

All I did was scratch my head. What the hell was happening to me? It felt like I was going to become crazy in a matter of time because of this.

"You're pissed again."

I raised my head towards the one who said those words from the novel I was reading. But I guessed I couldn't even concentrate on the novel I was reading because of so many thoughts running in my head.

I couldn't even sort out my thoughts just for me to calm down. Seriously, my mind seemed to be in pieces.

I saw Seiho smiling as he approached me and eventually sat beside me. At that point, I thought of one thing. Maybe my mind was right when it pointed out something when I first confronted Setsuji.

I would have a way to distinguish Setsuji from Seiho whenever I would see the twins. Well, I don't think it was that hard to determine the differences between the twins. They were not identical.

Right at that moment, my heart wasn't beating that fast.

"Since when I didn't feel so pissed off after I transferred here, mind telling me?"

Seiho laughed heartily. "Was it my twin brother again?"

"Who else? He's the only irritating being in this entire university who would tirelessly ruin my day. Now I won't be surprised if I end up with hypertension at an early age." Along with that, I could only let out a "Grr!"

I sighed heavily after that. Until I remembered something and faced Seiho. "Speaking of which, what are you doing here? And how did you know I'm here?"

As far as I knew, I didn't mention to anyone where would I be at the moment. Even to Mayu, although I knew that Mayu was pretty sure where would I be. I was sitting underneath a large tree located at the back of the Arts building which was three buildings far from the building of the Engineering and Architecture Department.

It was better that I stay there since I didn't want to be disturbed from my novel reading. But no matter how many buildings apart I might be, I couldn't stop my mind from thinking of anything related to the Engineering and Architecture Department. Especially that annoying Setsuji.

It appeared that it was that time Seiho was able to remember the reason why he went there I would base it on his 'light bulb moment' expression on his face that I eventually noticed. He immediately crouched in front of me and took something out of his bag.

I could only frown as I watched Seiho since I don't know the reason for him to go where I was at the moment. Until I saw him take out a white rectangular box from his bag.

The frown on my forehead didn't disappear when Seiho handed the box to me. "What is this? An early birthday gift for next year or a belated gift?"

But even though I said it as a form of a joke, I couldn't understand the reason why I suddenly felt my heartbeat this fast again. It was beating in a familiar tempo.

Oh, God! Don't tell me...?

"I don't know what is that for but it didn't come from me. It was from my twin brother," Seiho replied with a smile.

And seriously, I thought I stopped breathing after hearing that. Just as I thought.

"What exactly is your brother up to now for him to make you do this thing again?"

"Hey, I just did him a favor. There's nothing wrong with that. And besides, he has a point when he told me the reason why should I be the one who has to give this to you."

I was still frowning as I waited for Seiho to continue what he was saying. It even came to a point where I want to shake him just to do it. Seriously, he didn't have to be leaving a cliffhanger effect on what he was about to say. If only he knew, I'd been holding my breath as I waited for the next things that Seiho would say.

Wait a minute...

Why was I anticipating the words that this guy was about to say in continuation? There was supposed to be nothing for me to anticipate about all this, right?

"Setsuji said that his face would end up quite pitiful if he would be the one to give that to you," Seiho finally said before laughing.

Okay, what exactly was the funny thing for Seiho to laugh like that? Seriously! You know what, Seiho? You should be thankful that you were not Setsuji or else... your face would experience the receiving end of my irritation with that guy.

But it was a good thing that the jerk knew what would happen if he showed his face to me. No kidding, I had the urge to kill him even though I could only see his shadow. I only had that kind of urge when I knew his day wouldn't be complete if he didn't do something to piss me off or irritate me.

"By the way, he said that you shouldn't throw that since it's his message for you. Whatever that means." Seiho shrugged his shoulder before standing up. "So I guess my job is done... for now. I have to go since I need to get ready for my date."

"Yeah, right. Don't tell me you've been dating different girls lately and have the same thinking as your jerk of a twin brother when it comes to relationships." Well, I meant that as a joke, though. Besides, I don't care about anything concerning the lives of the twins.

Seiho just laughed. Now that I thought about it, I wonder who between the twins had the most amazing smile? I never actually noticed that part.

Or maybe I just don't want to notice because of my intense irritation with that Setsuji.

"You're crazy, you know that? The one I'm going to date is your cousin, though she doesn't know that it would be a date. What she knew was that we're just going to have a stroll and I would need her help in thinking of a perfect birthday gift for my cousin."

If I wasn't thinking of so many things at the moment, maybe I'd started planning some matchmaking events for Seiho and Mayu. But perhaps I'd be able to think about doing that someday. It was just today wasn't probably the right time to do that.

Okay. Let us return to the real issue. The issue that would seriously give me a major headache and turn my mind to pieces at the moment.

Anyway, since when did that jerk never ruin my mind?

I was still holding the rectangular box that Seiho gave to me. I still don't know what to do. The truth was, I only had two choices. It was either I'd throw it away (which I had the strong urge to do so) or keep it--albeit begrudgingly. But in this case, if I chose the second one, then that jerk would have more reason to ruin my day. If I chose the first one, then Seiho's words would seriously linger in my mind and haunt me until I learn the truth behind them.

This was just great. More hassle situation to deal with. There was no reason for me to feel something like this. What to choose, what to choose?

~"By the way, he said that you shouldn't throw that since it's his message for you..."~

This was what I was talking about. Those words began resonating in my mind. This wasn't supposed to happen.But then I ended up doing some thinking about it. So whatever lies within this box that I was holding was Setsuji's message for me? What kind of message would that jerk want to convey to me?

Right after asking myself that question, my curiosity emerged all of a sudden. I just hoped that that certain curiosity won't kill me because as far as I knew, curiosity kills the cat. But thinking of the fact that Setsuji was the source of my curiosity, I won't be surprised if I died because of that.

Ah, forget it!

I took a deep breath and readied myself to open the box. I was so nervous and I couldn't understand why. But I should just ignore it. I had to.

But the moment I opened it, I didn't know what to think or even to feel. I even blinked a few times just for me to confirm if I was dreaming or something else. And soon after, I frowned due to confusion.

It was a fresh flower--to be specific, a pansy.

A weird reaction that I gave for just a flower? Yes. But not everyone would understand. Flowers all held meaning. I didn't merely admire them for their appearances and scents but also their hidden meaning in the language of flowers.

That was the reason why I stiffened the first time I saw that fallen gloxinia flower from somewhere up, right?

"He did not just give me this... right?"

Why was I reacting like this? It was because pansy flower meant... "you occupy my thoughts".

Just what kind of a joke does that guy was thinking for him to give me this? Does he even know the meaning of that particular flower when he asked Seiho to give it to me?