The ceremony was nothing huge or grand. No fancy decorations or food or refreshments. It was mostly filled with bodyguards who surveyed the place. I could see my uncle a short distance from where I was seated. I couldn't even spot Father who was mother's lover. I guess she wasn't as important. Excluding Jadon, beside me there were a total of 7 family members who had attended. It was a sorry state of a ceremony. In truth probably Mothers side relatives felt sympathy or the like. I knew for a fact Father's side relatives were heartless beings in human shells that thrived for success and nothing else. I grew up like that as well.
I was embarrassed to show this side to Jadon. He himself didn't judge or give hypocritical condolences.
As fast as it started was as fast as it ended. I mean, they weren't even trying to hide that they wanted to get this over and done with. Her ashes were placed in the outer family ancestral grounds. I was a bit angered by that, but it didn't bug me as much. We were finally done. That was what mattered to me.
We walked home. I followed Jadon. He walked at a fixed distance in front of me and slowed down when I did. He didn't seem to pay much attention, so this was habitual. It was a terrifying sense, that took lots of practice. That is to sense someone without even looking at them. It's similar to when you feel like you are being watched or sense hostility from a distance or feel something approaching at a fast pace. It was much more difficult to keep up with my pace since I have trained in silent footwork. It made me curious but as usual I would never be the first to ask.
I liked how safe I felt from just staring at his back. I didn't even pay attention to my surroundings on our way but was surprised to be home already. I wasn't just surprised. I was completely mesmerized. I wasn't supposed to be feeling this way.
"Jade, Can I do something very stupid?" I was at a loss.
"If you like. I don't really mind. You have been through so much already."
"C-can… I... haaah.." I couldn't even structure a question properly.
I sighed.
I let my actions speak instead. I knew this was overstepping my boundaries. I knew I was asking for too much, but he wouldn't turn me down. Maybe that was why I got confident. That was why I could place my lips on his and kiss him.
I don't really know what I was feeling at that moment. If yesterday I was totally drunk and swept in the moment, then today I was completely sober. I wonder why he didn't mention the kiss we had yesterday. My thoughts were trailing off, but I knew I wanted this. No, I needed this. He was a soothing pill I could get addicted to.
ah~
I concentrated on the feeling I was having right then. I could tell he was a novice at kissing. He was awkward but made up for his shortcomings with his terrifying learning speed. Jade's lips were as soft as I previously..briefly..thought they would be. I opened my eyes to see how he was doing. His closed eyes had some moisture on the sides. His cheeks were flushed, and he looked no less aroused. Looking to the sides, he still had his hands awkwardly hanging on his side, with a sign of hesitance, as if he wouldn't dare touch me.
I took my parm to the side of his face and drew the kiss deeper. I slid my finger down his neck and wrapped my other arm around his waist. He seemed startled given how he gasped in my mouth.
I loved how cute and innocent he was. All this happened within 2 minutes. He finally gasped for air when I let go.