I jolted realizing my train of thought. Don't get me wrong. I was not disturbed by having that kind of relationship with him. If anything, he could be the only exemption of male x male relationship in my list. But I was his friend, I shouldn't be having such thoughts towards him.
I will not lie that I am a virgin, but it would be the truth that I have never been in love before. I never had such a thought looking at any woman. I just viewed them as a way to vent my primal desires. I never really desired them. I was content with that. Just until this guy surfaced such impure thoughts with not much but smiling.
"Is something on my face?" He looked at me more intently than before.
"You will take responsibility right?" I bloated my thoughts suddenly and it came as a shock realizing my mistake.
"I am very~ responsible, so tell me what I ought to take responsibility for."
"Me."
"Why?"
"Nothing. Lets get breakfast, I'm starving?"
"So will you tell me what happened yesterday?"
"After breakfast." I responded.
"Kay~" He said, leaving for the bathroom.
***
We were sitting on the sofa after breakfast. I was free the entire day with nothing to do. Jadon was lying on the other side with an overly huge buggy and long t-shirt. Nevertheless, one could trail his thin figure. From the ankle to his knees and a bit of his thighs and somehow small waist and small hands. A small neck and well gently proportioned head.
"Hey, Caleb, when are you going to tell me? I need to know. I hate being so unsure."
"I carried you to bed but you wouldn't let me go so I kinda fell asleep again and somehow that happened and we woke up together."
"Thank goodness."
"What! Do you hate me that much that you would rather not …" He suddenly cut me off.
"No! I don't! If anything I would say I like you, but I don't want our relationship to be complicated. You know I like men so it is not really … Shit" He stopped talking and suddenly covered his mouth. Reading back on his sentence I realized why. "I...n-never really told you about this, did I?"
"No, you did not. I never knew a thing about this." He had never told me about any of this. The first time hearing this for some reason I felt happy but I was quickly angry. Did he not trust me or is it that he thought I wouldn't understand.
"That is because I have never really been in a relationship so I never saw any reason to tell you." He said in an almost silent voice.