May 10, 2016
We are all gathered in the living room of the house, today is Mother's Day here in Mexico and it is also my mother's 34th birthday, I was happy to have the whole family together on such a special day. My parents are my biggest pillar in life, although lately they fight all the time I know they love each other because they promised us they would always be together.
- My love, let's eat," my mother scolded, coming to my side.
I just shake my head with a yes answer and I run to the dining room where I see all my family, I think I was the only one missing to sit down, you never eat if someone is missing at the table you have to wait until the whole family is complete, it has become a habit after all you have to take advantage of the small moments you live with them.
- While we're here, I want to tell you family," says my mother with a huge smile and crystallized eyes.
- Ernesto, kids, I know there are already a lot of us, but it was a surprise for me. .... I'm pregnant- looking at us with her teary eyes
Everything became silent on my father's side, he said absolutely nothing, I think he even lost his breath because of the big surprise that my mother told us, but the family was more than happy, they were jumping and congratulating my mother for her son that is on the way for a new member in the Parker brothers, something that we wanted to imagine, the dinner was partly cheerful but my father was not saying anything; I do not talk anymore with the family about the subject, they talked about the company and the other members of the family but ours did not touch the subject anymore, the night came and tomorrow there is school so the family left shortly after the gifts were finished, as with the table is a tradition in each dinner each one brings a gift for the family as an exchange and we do this because we almost do not see each other it is very complicated to see each other every end or every month.
- Abigail we need to talk - commented my father with a hard voice and a look of anger and contempt towards my mother.
- My loves, go to your rooms, there's school tomorrow, I'll catch up with you later - giving each of us a kiss on the forehead.
We went upstairs and I stayed at the last one watching how my parents went into the office with long, angry, sad faces, I accompany my brothers to their room to tuck them each one in their bed to sleep, although only Laura and I go to school, it is necessary for the twins to sleep, they are going to the nursery.
- Brother, are you happy about the new baby brother? - Laura looking at me with curiosity
- Of course I do, little one, don't you? - sitting on the corner of the bed
- Of course he is, but daddy isn't, is he - huge smile and then a sad face.
- Of course I did little one, but I didn't expect I'm already 4 Parkes," he said with a smile, so she wouldn't worry.
Well the Parker's are: First is me Alejandro with 16 years old tall, hazel eye, teenage body, then there is my sister Laura, brown hair, blue eye, tall, 8 years old and lastly the twins Lucas and Pablo the most restless green eyes, blond like my mother they are one year old. She just smiled to then settle down to sleep, I carefully get up from the bed to then give her a kiss on the forehead and leave the bedroom without making any noise so she can sleep well, I know I should go to sleep, but I want to know what dad thinks about this I shouldn't, but I have doubt why she acts like this I had planned to go downstairs, but the screams can be heard all the way up here.
- Know perfectly well Abigail that this child is not mine - father shouting furiously
- Of course it is, I'm 5 months old Ernesto - mother crying
- I went away for 5 months Abigail and in those 5 damn months and long before I left we had nothing, you had already signed the divorce - sobbing
- But... of course you do, Ernesto, you don't remember - crying.
- Now it turns out that I'm the one with the bad memory, you forgot that when I came back from that trip you were in OUR BED, IN OUR HOUSE WITH VICENTE, you know it's time to go, I don't want to deceive my children with a happy family when their parents have been divorced for more than a year- father shouting, but his voice was cut off as if he wanted to cry.
I couldn't take it anymore, my tears started to run down my face I didn't realize I was already downstairs in front of the office door with my hand on the door lock about to open it when my father came out and his eyes red with tears look at me with fear.
- Ale honey... what are you doing here? - look with sadness and fear passing saliva hard was heard, the place was silent
- It's true... you are leaving home... dad... - with the words running out, I still couldn't assimilate it, it was all a lie.
- Ale, champion, it was only for tonight, tomorrow we all have to talk as a family, it's clear my champion - sideways smile and then he kisses me on the forehead.
I just nod my head, I didn't know what to tell her, I didn't know what would happen with us, with our family, they always painted my family as the best, perfect, yes there were problems, but they were always solved by talking, they have never been so serious, my perfect family had collapsed in such a beautiful night. My mother saw me with sadness I can't see her anymore I decided it was better to go straight to my room I couldn't see her, I felt anger towards her, towards that baby that wasn't my father's it wasn't a Parker. I put what time I fell asleep, I just know that I want to forget everything, go back in time to that moment I made the foolish decision to go to listen to other people's conversations, if I clearly knew that I should never listen to adult conversations.
- Champ, get up today, I'll take them to breakfast and take them to school- father entering the room with a huge smile, typical of him.
- And let's not talk about what happened last night - I said curiously waiting for him to tell me that everything is a lie and that everything is a dream.
- Yes, champ, but only after they come back from school, for now get dressed, it's getting late - running a hand through my hair and then leaving the room.
I take the road to change and then we go to breakfast together, it will be our last breakfast together I know it; I can feel it. All the way to the restaurant that we like to go to for breakfast we go singing, laughing of bad gossip from my father everything was perfect like the perfect family that we were not but for now we have to enjoy what we have, we arrived to the restaurant and as always we ordered blackberry pancakes, they are the most delicious, in all the breakfast we did not spend it talking about how we did in the week, what we had done and all that since we had not had the opportunity to talk about it before. We arrived at school 5 minutes late, but as usual dad arranged it by saying we had a doctor's appointment so without any problem they let us in.
Finally bye bye jail high school is a horror, we had just started and we already had like 20 thousand homework for this WEEK I won't sleep the whole damn week, my dad was already out of school when I left, I got in the car, but now he didn't say anything just took the road to Laura's school and then the twins' school he didn't say anything the whole way home nothing the car was in absolute uncomfortable silence.
- Children get down, we're coming home - getting out of the car
- Ale help me - Laura pointing to the twins who are sound asleep as she was carrying the twins' backpacks.
I carry them very carefully so they don't wake up and if that should happen, they wake up in a bad mood that no one can stand, they cry for hours until they calm down and that can be very tedious and late.
- Well, children, we are all together - father pointed to all of us.
- We want to give you some news - mother with her crystalline eyes, I saw her, but I didn't know what I felt when I saw her if it was hate or if I just didn't feel anything anymore.
- You know her mother is pregnant, but unfortunately she and I can't be together anymore," he says delicately, knowing it's not easy for any of us, not even for me who already knew.
- But daddy you promised that we would stay together all our lives - Laura was crying, I stood up from where I was and went to hug her, I don't like to see her crying.
- I know my love, but your mom and I don't love each other anymore -stop from the couch to hug each other.
My mother did not say anything, she was silent, inside, in her world without realizing that this silence was killing us, I wanted to know if it was true that my mother had deceived my father in such a way, but she did not say anything.
- My loves I will always be for you, I will never leave, but for the moment it is better that I leave the house so that your mom can think things over and be calmer as you all know you are my world, she loved you- giving each of us a hug and a kiss on the forehead.
I love you too daddy, was the last thing I said to him before we walked out that door without saying anything else to each other and not knowing that this would be our last I love you.