June 17, 2016
Here we were again in jail waiting for the additional language class to start, the week had gone by too fast we were already half way through the week and the school was getting heavier every day in terms of homework in all subjects I told them it was going to get crazier less than half way through the semester, they leave millions of assignments so that at the end of the semester they drop you with their heavy exams.
- Brother, are you all right? - Morgan
- Yes, I'm just thinking - he answered and then sat me down.
- good morning young people, sorry I'm late," says a sweet voice behind me.
She was as always beautiful with a smile on her face that brightened the day and made the class less, but not today, she was sad you could see it on her face, she did not have a radiant smile on the contrary she looked sad, angry I do not know how to explain it, but she had a different face than the one she brings every day and besides she brought a baby in her arms along with a stroller in hand, did they have 3 children?
- is your son a teacher? - that's Marisol as always, gossipy as always, the bitch wants to know everything.
- yes, it's my son Marisol, but that doesn't matter, take out the book and we'll start with the class - take a seat at the desk without looking at the floor.
The whole class Emma looked at the desk without saying anything, just monosyllables and that was a lot, she only wrote on the blackboard the pages and the homework for the next class and many pages of the book that she graded at the end. I insisted to ask her what was wrong, but she only answered with "I'm fine Alejandro" without saying more, I knew I was her student, but I had already had dinner at my house, sometimes I had to drop Paula at her house and she always received me very well, sometimes we stayed at her house with the kids, but I think it was too delicate a subject not to say anything.
- Hey, do you know what's wrong with Emma - asked Paula when I saw her come in.
- I don't know, I haven't seen her today - she was staring at nothing - she arrived with a baby in her arms - pointing her finger at me
- yes, she was carrying a baby in her arms why? - with a frown
- forget it, I'm not going into this class, see you tomorrow I love you ale thank you - taking her things and then giving me a kiss on my cheek and running out of the room.
EMMA DANIELS ''
I arrived at school late, I would debate whether or not I would come to teach and then with the child it would be more difficult but a responsibility is a responsibility and you always have to comply with those who support you at all times, the pain killed me I felt with many mixed emotions in my heart I did not know how to feel, feeling this way hurt me and more I could not explain it to anyone I was afraid of being judged again; when I got to the classroom I saw Alejandro's surprised face I never thought I would care about his reaction to see me like this, but I never imagined coming to school with my son in my arms, being here with Ethan was the nicest thing that could happen to me but everything I went through was not the most beautiful thing.
- Emma - voice brought me out of my thoughts
- Javier - with his voice in a whisper
- what are you doing here? Ethan what happened Emma? - grabbing my face
His voice sounded worried and I knew it, but I didn't want to say anything I didn't want him to scold me more than I am scolding him for going there, even if sooner or later he would find out the truth of the whole truth, but it wasn't the time or place to say something that strong it will be another time and when I am better emotionally and physically stable.
- nothing Javier nothing - before I burst into tears and let go into his arms
I do not say anything just hugged me without saying anything, I was grateful for that I do not want to say anything not now was not right to say what had happened, he will always be my guardian angel, which always help me in the most difficult moments and is that he never abandoned me at any time despite all the stupid things I committed throughout my life, he was that I got me out of all the shit that lives for years for not knowing how to defend myself.
- Mom, is Ethan here? - paula entering the office with a cracked voice
- Honey, don't run, you know perfectly well that you can't run, take your inhaler," answered Javier as he took my bag where I had the refills for them.
- yes my love, Ethan is with us - my voice cut off and the tears were running out of my eyes.
- but mom, you're fine, right, tell me he didn't do anything to you, mom, tell me he didn't do anything to you - Paula, with tears in her eyes already about to come out, this is what I want to avoid seeing suffer in the light of my eyes for someone who is not worth it, for that fear that something bad will happen to me, I want to avoid seeing my little girl cry.
- No, my love, nothing happened, so you can relax," he lifted her up and then hugged her.
- it's not going to hurt you anymore, is it mom - with tears in her eyes
- no chiquita, he can't hurt us anymore - wiping her tears from her face, I have never liked to see her sad she is my whole life and I wouldn't stand for something bad to happen
I didn't say anything else, she just hugged me, I felt that hug with so much affection, with so much sadness at the same time, but with so much warmth, how she was unprotected the need to keep protecting her for life, and that she never suffered in the same way I did or that mom did.
- It will be better for both of you to rest, don't worry about the classes Paula, I can explain the subjects at home with more calm, if you like," comments Javier.
- Yes uncle, I want to be at home with my mom" Paula slipped out of my arms and then hugged Javier.
- Thanks again Javier - I answered, and then hugged him.
I just nod my head and then take my children's things and go to the parking lot, it was better to rest the road course was not easy to take and then to come here and grade all the students, I had too many emotions for today; I was about to leave until Javier says....
- Emma we need to talk about that - pointing to my arm with some bruises.
- Javier won't want to harm Paula for now," I looked at him with some fear, I knew he couldn't lie to her, he knows me better than anyone else.
-Sooner or later she will find out everything Emma, she won't be able to hide it for long - taking my hands with a few blows
I didn't say anything it was better to keep quiet I didn't want to bother my family anymore not now that I had my baby in my hands where she belonged and should never have left not now that everything was going relatively better. If I knew the bruises at some point Paula will notice it she is not stupid not to notice something like that.
I knew that leaving Boston was not easy, but I had to leave my past behind and that Paula would never know the truth, that she would never know the cruel truth of her birth, of her childhood, of everything she had lived through, everything she had gone through without having to remember all the pain we went through. She knows few things or rather she remembers few things of her whole life, most of it is blocked and I don't want her to unblock it, I want her to stay that way, to only have in her mind the happy moments with her family and friends, those magical moments and not the tragic ones.
I swear and perjure to my mom that I will never let anything happen to Paula, I will protect her tooth and nail so that she does not suffer what I suffered, what my mom suffered, no she is not the next on the list, she would have a happy ending with the person who truly loves her, respects her and takes care of her as I have always done, she deserves everything in this life, she deserves to know happiness and true love, she deserves to be happy and have a future full of success and prosperity.