Now I am sure, he is not interested in me. I have been back for two weeks now and I haven't seen sign of him.
So much for being his mate.
I guess this is a good thing, I should be grateful he is not interested.
It's not as if I want him back anyway. Our lives are as different as night and day.
𝐼 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑓𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑖𝑐𝑘 𝑖𝑐𝑒-𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚, 𝒉𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑓𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑖𝑐𝑘 𝒉𝑖𝑠 𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑏𝑢𝑡𝑡. Amongst others.
Besides it is risky for us to be together. Although I have consolidated my gifts, I don't know if I can entrust my life into his hands.
𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝒉𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑜 𝒉𝑜𝑡. 𝑇𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝒉𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠, 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑛𝑖𝑔𝒉𝑡 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚, 𝒉𝑒...
What am I thinking?
It's been more than 3 months since I last saw him. Move the fuck on Zenith.
Being hung up on a guy I just spent a day with, huh. Just one day! The time we spent together is so negilligent it could be easily said I have never met the man.
There are so many guys around, anyone of them will drop on their knees in front of me if I do willed it.
𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝐼 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑒 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑡𝒉𝑒𝑟 𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝒉𝑖𝑚?
𝑊𝑖𝑡𝒉 𝒉𝑖𝑚 𝑖𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑝𝑢𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑚𝑎𝑙 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛. 𝑆𝑜 𝑟𝑎𝑤 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑜 𝒉𝑜𝑡
Okay, that's it. I snap out of my thoughts and focus on sweeping the floor.
Ese usually helped me with this but she doesn't come to my cafe again and I rarely see her nowadays. I have no doubt my mom has something to do with it.
This is my life now. Sighing I brush past Aurora.
You know you could help out you know.
She stares at me as she eats a brownie cake. Eating is an understatement, she is wolfing it down. Hand and lips stained with cake.
It's been two weeks now. You can go back to the island.
And miss all these delicious treats? She shakes her head. You are not getting rid of me that easy.
I roll my eyes and get back to sweeping.