Hasta who heard Hanin's answer felt a very deep sadness. For some reason there was pain and pain in his heart when he found out that fact.
"Thank God Han, I hope we are loyal to each other until the time comes where I come to pick you up." Rafka said with a happy heart.
"Rafka, sorry I have to go back inside, because it's dinner time. And again, I haven't seen Mr. Hasta's condition since the afternoon," said Hanin who felt uneasy.
"Okay Hanin, take good care of yourself, okay.. I love you." said Rafka there who was a little unwilling if Hanin was so attentive to Hasta.
"I love you too Raf, take care of yourself too, okay?" Hanin said after closing her cellphone.
"Where is Mr Hasta? since the afternoon I did not see him? and now it's time for dinner?" Hanin muttered as she got up from her seat and went into the house to look for Hasta.
"Aunt Minah, does Aunt Minah know where Mr. Hasta is?" asked Hanin worriedly.
"Wasn't Mr Hasta back for dinner, Miss?" Minah answered while tidying up the kitchen after cooking.
"I've been waiting for Mr. Hasta in the back, Aunt." Hanin said in surprise.
"Why didn't I see Mr. Hasta, if indeed Mr. Hasta was behind?" asked Hanin in her heart.
"Is Miss Hanin looking for Mr. Hasta?" asked Rahmat who was suddenly behind her.
"Yes Uncle, does Uncle Rahmat know?" asked Hanin feeling that something had happened to Hasta.
"Mr. Hasta is on the front porch doing something, Miss." Rahmat answered who was a little worried seeing the sadness on Hasta's face.
"Thank you Uncle Rahmat, I will invite Mr. Hasta to have dinner first." Hanin said then went to the front porch.
On the front porch Hanin saw Hasta was seriously working on something.
"Mr. Hasta." Hanin called in a low voice while sitting beside Hasta.
"Yes, Hanin, what's wrong?" asked Hasta with his eyes never leaving his laptop.
"Have dinner first, sir." Hanin said looking at Hasta's face, which he had seen lately that was always pale.
"In a moment Nin, you eat first. I have to finish this work, because tonight I have to go out of town," said Hasta, who was still serious about his work.
"Can't you leave it for a while to eat? because Mr. Hasta's health is more important than work." Hanin said gently.
"Yes, Hanin, I know... eat first okay, let me finish this work first." Hasta said without seeing Hanin's face.
For some reason, Hanin felt something different from Hasta's unusual attitude.
"I'll just bring the food here, okay sir? While you're working, let me feed you, how about it?" asked Hanin, trying to soften Hasta's heart, who was suddenly stubborn.
Hasta stopped his work after hearing Hanin's words of wanting to feed him.
"Do you mind, Nin?" asked Hasta who was still sad when he remembered Hanin's words.
"Why should you mind, sir? I'm happy to do it for Mr. Hasta." Hanin answered praising Hasta a little but sincerely.
"Alright Nin, I just do what you say." Hasta said with a look full of happiness.
Hanin smiled sweetly feeling happy to see Hasta smiled again and was willing to look at her face.
"I'll take the food now." said Hanin immediately stood up from her seat to get food for Hasta.
Not long after, Hanin came back with a plate of rice and a glass of water.
"Hanin." Hasta called while waiting for Hanin to feed him.
"Yes, sir, what's wrong?" Hanin answered while feeding Hasta slowly.
"I'm going out of town tonight, maybe a week or two before I go home," said Hasta who had intended to forget his love for Hanin, because it's been almost three years since they've lived together, Hanin still loves Rafka and can't love him.
"How long, sir? two weeks?" asked Hanin who suddenly felt something different from Hasta's tone.
"Because this job requires Nin's special attention, I have to stay there until everything is safe." Hasta said in a deep voice.
"If it's still not safe there, Mr. Hasta will still go home right?" asked Hanin with full eyes.
"We'll see, Nin, if I'm still needed there, maybe I can't go home yet, I'll let you know if I can't go home." Hasta answered sadly.
"Can't you sir, just one week out of town?" Hanin asked with tears in her eyes.
Hanin sensed that there was something different about Hasta, as if Hasta wanted to leave her.
"Can't Nin, I've taken the contract and I have to finish it quickly," answered Hasta who was very tired of his life without love for him.
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After finishing his work Hasta cleaned up all his files and put them in his bag.
"Mr. Hasta, if Mr. Hasta is already there, I can call, right?" asked Hanin with a sad look.
"Of course Nin, you can call me whenever you want." answered Hasta who planned to turn off his cellphone so he could completely forget about Hanin.
"I have to go to my room first to prepare my clothes, you rest it's late." Hasta said rubbing the top of Hanin's head.
"Let me prepare the clothes, sir?" Hanin asked with great concern.
Hasta nodded slowly.
"When I want to forget you, why do you care so much for me Nin?" Hasta asked in his heart with his feelings getting more and more tortured.
Walking beside Hasta, Hanin felt something else in her heart. Like something was about to disappear from inside her.
"Hopefully Mr. Hasta will be fine there later and nothing will happen to him," said Hanin in her heart with a sincere prayer.
In the room Hasta who is preparing his shoes gets Hanin's attention.
"Mr. Hasta let me prepare everything okay? Mr. Hasta just says what I have to prepare." said Hanin, taking over the shoes that Hasta brought to put in the suitcase.
Hasta's chest is getting tighter to breathe, seeing Hanin's attention that he can feel without being able to have it.