When we got home I tossed my bag away and sat on the couch. I felt a sudden type of way like I was relieved.
I smiled knowing I passed my first test and would probably get more deals that would give me more money. I checked my phone for any text from the dealer but there was none.
I sent him a text saying I wanted to meet with him but there was no reply yet. I shoved the phone back into my pocket and stood up. Emily was making lunch and I didn't want to join her. If I did, she'd be forced to ask me a bunch of questions that I wasn't ready to answer yet.
I walked to the room and removed my clothes. I took the remaining drugs in my jacket and hid them in my bag.
It was safer that way, no one would take my bag for any reason but Emily could take my jacket and say she was cold or Dad could give it to her saying it fits her better.
I walked to that bathroom and looked at my reflection in the mirror. I bent my head in the basin and washed my face for some minutes. When I raised my head, Emily was standing right behind me.
I saw her reflection in the mirror and flinched. I wasn't expecting her to be in the bathroom, she was in the kitchen some minutes back.
"Why are you acting surprised?" She asked brushing the fact that I was only on my boxers.
"That's 'cause I am. You were in the kitchen just now."
"And I came here. Been standing here past 60 seconds. You didn't seem to notice."
"Yeah, I was rinsing—"
"I know. You have thirty minutes left before your shift."
I gave a nod at the reminder.
"You should tell me now. What you said you wanted to tell me."
"Ohhh," I blurted, I knew that was why she came.
A surge of reluctance swept over me. It always happened whenever she wanted to know. I thought of telling her about James' plan, the child service case, and the contract marriage mom had with James. Basically, she was a contract child and I had no idea how she would take it.
I didn't want her feeling bad and getting all emotional. I instantly waved off the idea, I couldn't do it.
Instead of that, I thought of something else to ask.
"I wanted to ask a question actually."
Her brows arched. "A question?"
"Yes, a question."
"Okay, go on. I'm listening to your question."
"Would you go with James if he comes to take you?"
I looked at her roll her eyes at my question. "Xavier is that it?"
Was she doubting me? Well, it wasn't but I also wanted to know if she changed her mind overnight. The other day at the ride with James, she smiled at him and it made my tummy tighten.
"Yes, it's a question," I huffed.
"You've asked this question before Xavier," she stated throwing her hands in the air. "Well, I've answered this question. I can't go with James, I'm not willing to stay with him."
I felt the need to ask if she was sure of her response but I thought against it. Giving emphasis to the question would only make her suspect. Emily was everything except dumb, she knew went to grow suspicious.
"Okay."
"Was that really what you wanted to ask?"
"Yes. Uh—"
She looked on and I twitched my lips. "Emily if you go with him, it would make being together easier."
Her jaw dropped and she said nothing. It was obvious it left her speechless. She couldn't believe I thought of the possibility of that.
Her eyes widened at my confession and she turned her head. "Xavier they can hear us."
"Who?" I asked nonchalantly.
"Mom and Dad. They can overhear us discuss this."
"They are not home Emily. There's no way they'd overhear us. I just need you to see it from that perspective, at least for a second."
She paused and stared blankly.
"Haven't you noticed how they seem to be overworking lately?"
She gave a nod and thought about it. "I don't know."
I gave a nod too, I wasn't expecting her to know what to do. I just wanted her to know and possibly know if she'd take chances.
"I guess you should get ready for work, you're running late."
"Not yet," I responded. I didn't want the moment of realization to end yet. It made me feel okay brainstorming with Emily.
If she found out she was a contract child it would eat her. She believed her mom when her mom said she was hoping to get twins and then got her. It made it so real, we all thought she was really waiting for a kid. What we didn't know was that the child was a contract child that got rejected by her father.
It sucked that James thought he could easily get Emily. He was trying his best and even using me as proof. He believed we had a sexual relationship and was trying to get Child service to give him Emily.
That was crazy, we've done nasty kinds of stuff, and gone naughty with each other but we never fucked. As much as I wanted it, Emily wasn't ready and I respected her so much to wait.
I blamed myself for that morning and for letting James walk into us. That was why he worked harder and tried to get Emily away. Knowing I was at fault on my part, made me want to fix it all.
Selling drugs wasn't a good idea but it was the only shit I could think of that would give me quick money and help me fix the whole mess. Dad was overworking his ass and his car was gone. Mom was doing the same and you could see it on her face that she was drained.
I looked at Emily and gave a soft smile. She walked away and I finished up. I applied lotion to my body and got dressed in a joggers and polo T-shirt.
When I was done dressing, I took my zip-up hoodie and my wallet. I stormed out of the room and met Emily in the sitting room.
She was about to make a call when I met her. "what are you doing?"
She turned to face me, "I want to order Pizza. Trying to make an order."
"Oh."
I knew she loved pizza a lot and she couldn't do without it, that was why Devin bought a box when he came to apologize.
I tossed out 20$ from my pocket and gave it to her. "Here, order some, and don't leave the house."
She smiled and I walked toward her. I bent and left a quick kiss on her lips.