||" VIVIANO "||
I have felt the pain caused by Adrian before, even before I met him, he has been a constant source of pain to me. I am supposed to be used to it, I should get used to this pain and make them part of me. Pain from Adrian should be part of my life now.
But why does it feel like someone is trying to suck the air out of my windpipe? Why does it ache all over? Why is there a constant painful thump in my heart? like the entire world, is it crumbling before my eyes and I'm sinking? I saw death flash before my eyes.
I was able to leave Adrian's presence without crumbling on my knees, thanks to Zayn and Craig's help. The first thing I did when I stepped inside the house was lean on the wall, shut my eyes and struggled to calm my breath. Why I torture myself constantly by entertaining good possibility thoughts about my life with Adrian, I did not know.
