Who am I? Where do I come from? What happened to me? To know about me you have to know my story from the beginning, the very beginning.
I was only 2 years old when my parents passed away. I have no idea who they are or where they were from, all I could remember is that they loved me and called me Raina. I do not even know my last name. Thankfully, the alpha and Luna of the Raging River Pack found me and took me into their pack with them. They gave me shelter, food and hope of survival. By the age of five I started doing a few jobs for the pack, like cleaning the floors and keeping everything in place. I also passed notes from one pack member to the next. It was just light stuff.
The Luna did not like me doing pack jobs. She wanted me to study and live a life like a normal girl. She wanted a better life for me, I was more like a daughter to her. The alpha had a different plan. He wanted to raise me to be a slave so that I could do all the pack houses jobs while all the other important pack members could get excellent at their own jobs. They used to fight a lot about me. One day I heard the Luna say-
"Do not underestimate her, one day you will pay for your mistakes. Listen to me while you still have time and give her a good life. Maybe one day she will grow up and forgive you for everything."
Was he going to listen to his Luna? He has a son of his own to take care of, why would he need a girl to be bothered with. So, I accepted my fate, I did not want to fight over how I was treated anymore. What they had done for me was enough and I would forever be thankful to them for it. So, instead of hoping I would have a normal life, I started doing all the pack house jobs I could do.
When I was about 11 years old our Luna passed away while giving birth to their twins along with both of the babies. Everyone was sad at such a huge loss, but I was completely lost. She was the only one in the entire pack that truly cared about me. She was the only one who noticed if I was sick or hungry. I was alone from the time my parents passed away, but this time I had become completely lonely.
As expected, no one cared about me anymore. The pressure of the house jobs increased on my head, and I was given even more jobs inside of the pack house including cooking and cleaning. Everything for the pack house was now on me, but I was okay with it I was happy that I could be of any service to them. The thing that I could not accept was their torture. With passing time, everyone realized that there was no one to protect me, they could do whatever they wanted to me. It all started the day our future alpha lost in training and released all his anger on me, almost beating me to death. See that the alpha was okay with it, everyone started taking taking their frustrations out on me. So, it came to the point where even my slightest mistake or no mistake at all would cause me a heavy beating.
I had no choice but to except it and take it all without any complete. I was only their slave, and I had to be thankful for the small storage room they gave me. I only had a blanket to sleep on and only what little bit of leftovers there were if any to eat and feed my hungry stomach. I was most thankful to everyone that they never took my dignity away, as long as they did not try to do anything inappropriate, I was fine with everything.
By the age of 14 I understood that I did not have a wolf, because I was supposed to shift by the age of 13. Maybe my body was too weak to handle a wolf. It was not a wonder to me why no one was interested in my body, I had nothing to give to a man, where the other girls were blooming into their beautiful bodies I was not. I started why they had such big breast and hips, and I was completely flat. My hands and legs can be compared to sticks and my stomach is more towards the inside, rather than coming out as the other girls did, I am ugly.
The day of finding my mate is coming soon. I was about to turn 18, and with each passing day I was getting nervous about who my mate was going to be. I wonder how he will react after her finds me. Will he accept a pack slave as his mate? Will he love me like he is supposed to? Standing in front of a mirror, I keep watching myself and become heartbroken. There is no way anyone will accept a girl like me as his mate. I have nothing to offer my mate, not beauty and not a body. I look hideous with all these marks on my body that had been given to me by my pack members. My entire body is covered in purple and blue bruises, there are bags under my eyes from being tired all the time. Most of all I do not have a wolf to become someone's mate, I am going to be alone forever.
Even after knowing the truth, my heart is not ready to give up hope that I will one day find a mate. Who knows what the moon goddess has planned for me? Maybe she will choose someone for me who does not need a body to love, maybe he will love me for the soul I have inside. Maybe everything will become bright after this darkness. So, I kept the hope up till the day of my birthday. Oh! I forgot to tell you. I forgot to tell you; you must be thinking how do I remember my birthday when I do not remember my own parents? Well, I can never forget that day because my birthday was the day, I become an orphan. I remember celebrating my birthday with my parents when suddenly there was chaos, and everything became dark in my life.
Today is my last day as a 17-year-old, by midnight I will become 18 and will be free to find my mate and move out with him. Maybe after today, I don't have to bear this torture anymore. Maybe finally it will be my time to be happy. With this joy in my heart, I was working the entire day. I cleaned the entire house, did everyone's laundry, cooked, served everyone, cleaned the dishes and thankfully got some leftovers to eat without getting into any trouble. It looks like my day is going really well. Maybe everything is becoming good in my life now.
With a cheerful heart I picked up all the dried clothes from outside to bring into fold. I did not see the upcoming person in front of me and bump into him softly.
"You bitch, can't you look where you are going?" I looked up to find the future beta of our pack. He was standing right in front of me with a few of his friends. Oh no! I am doomed today.
"I... I'm really sorry please" Before I can finish apologizing to him, a hard slap fell on my face making me lose my balance and fall to the ground.
"It looks like you didn't get any punishments today. That is why you are flying like a bug. You should be taught to stay in your limits every day, and for today it is my turn to show you your place."
With that, it started, all of them together started hitting and kicking me. I was in so much pain that I wanted to scream so badly, but I am not allowed to make any sounds. They say that my screams disturb everyone in the pack house and that will cause me more beatings. So, I cover my mouth and endure everything they do to me until they become tired and leave me whimpering on the floor. It is now my daily routine. I get beaten up by someone every day and no one ever thinks to stand up for me. No one even comes up to offer me help.
Like every day, I know no one is coming to help me. So, instead of laying on the floor crying, I force my tired and aching body up and go to see that only person who will offer me any help. The pack doctor. Thankfully the alpha has given me permission to go to the doctor and get some treatment. He does not want their only slave to die anytime soon. So, I went to ask for some more pills. He gives me a full bottle of pills that last me a entire month, as I only take one a day. I took the last one yesterday and did not bother to ask for some more because I thought I will not be needing them again. But it looks like I will need another one today.
"Finished another bottle?" He asked me with a sad face while applying some ointment to my bruises.
"Yeah, can you give me another one?"
"Sure, but Raina you should stop taking these they are not good for you."
"I know, you have told me several times, but these pills are what help me sleep at night. It takes away all of my pain and lets me fall asleep so peacefully. If I try not to take one my entire body aches like hell and even my head pounds so badly that I cannot take it. I am trying to stop, but I can't. What are these pills anyways? Are they so kind of painkiller?"
"I can't tell you that, the alpha forbids me from telling you about these pills. Do you understand what I am trying to tell you?"
"Yes, I understand that I can only come here for treatment and must leave without asking any questions. So, I better leave before he gets mad at the both of us."
"Oh, Raina! Why are you so naive? Okay then, I hope you grow up soon. See you later." I bid him goodbye and head back to the pack house to complete the rest of my jobs. The doctor's chamber is the only place I am allowed to go except for the pack house. I don't even dare to go for a walk around the pack to pass some time. If I have any time in the first place.
Soon it will be midnight. I have just a few minutes left till I become 18. So, standing out in the garden I look up at the twinkling stars and try to find my parents among them. The moon is above my head giving the blessings of the moon goddess and I am turning 18. I am finally and grown up.
" Mom, Dad can you see me? I am finally 18 now, I am finally a woman. Soon I am going to find my mate. Do you know who he is? Is he a good person? Will he love me how you would have loved me? Am I finally going to get my happiness? Please ask the moon goddess to bless me with a mate who will care for me and take me away from this horrible place. I know I should be thankful to them for keeping me alive till now, but I can't take it anymore. I am tired of being beaten all the time. I want to live a normal life like the others do. I want to be happy. Please tell her to bless me with love. Thank you." I prayed to my parents and hoped that they were listening to my request.
After standing there for bit longer, I finally felt tired and thought about going back to my room to sleep, but just as I turned to leave, I found our future alpha Peter standing there. My soul immediately shook in horror to see him there. Whenever he is with me, something bad definitely happens. He comes to me only when he is mad at something and needs someone to release his anger on, like everyone else I am his first choice. I don't know what to say, as I start to shake in fear. Closing my eyes, I waited for the hit to come on me at any moment, but surprisingly it did not come. Instead, he said something that made my heart shatter.
"Mate? You are my mate? It is your smell that I was following. How...? How is it possible?" I felt my entire world breaking apart from his words. He is my mate? Out of all of those people, my mate is the one I never wished for. Is this what they call moon goddess blessing? If yes, then I nave to correct them, it is not a blessing it is a curse.
The future alpha of the Raging River Pack, Peter Barrett, is one of the top playboys of our pack. There is not a single girl left in our pack whom he has not slept with. I am not educated or outgoing enough, but I have witnessed the lives of all the people living in the pack house for so many years to understand what is wrong and what is right. Mating with another person before finding your destined mate is not good at all, but he does not care about that. All he wants is to enjoy his life before getting tied up with his serious responsibilities.
He is currently 19 years old and in just a year he is going to take over the alpha position with his Luna. If I am his Luna, then he will definitely die rather than accepting me. I have seen the types of girls he is into. He likes his girls to look like an hourglass figure and plumped up special parts. I am just a mare slave who has nothing to offer compared to those girls. He is surely going to reject me tonight.
I lost the remaining hope of getting my mates love. My heart is completely broken by the thought of being rejected. Tears start to flow out of my eyes like a waterfall from the pain I am feeling in my heart. I lost everything today. I can't just stand here anymore and look at him. I don't think I am ready to accept his rejection right now. So, before he can say anything I ran out of there and head straight to my room locking the door behind me. I broke down and crying and started cursing my fate for this misfortune. It is the only thing that I have to do for the rest of my life.