"Wura I want you to know that I am not telling you these things to harm you, but rather to tell you how I truly feely about you and everything else." said Mero honestly as Wura looked away.
Saying that he had feelings for her was one thing, admitting that he might be in love with her was another, but sharing his plans to end things with Nora was just too much for her to handle.
Wura could not lie, she saw just how happy being with Mero made Nora, and she did not think that she would be able to handle the guilt of knowing that she was the reason her beloved friend had a broken relationship.
"It is just too much Mero, too much, I honestly do not need to know about your plans in such detail, in fact I would rather that I knew nothing, do you know how hard it is and how terrible it feels to know that you are the direct cause of the problem of someone you love." she said as she looked at him, her eyes glistening with tears that she was holding back.
Crying would not solve anything, and she knew that. Her aim now was to try to maybe change Mero's mind and let him reconsider. If he could stay with Nora, she would be happy, then maybe at least he would be able to discard of whatever it was that he felt for her.
"On the contrary, I believe that you need to know. So in the future when my actions are not what you expect you will know why." he said as Wura scoffed in pain.
"Stop telling me, like I said, you do not know how guilty I feel to see the person I love dearly suffer for my sake." said Wura.
"You are wrong... I do.. I know how it feels to feel guilty for someone else's suffering." said Mero as Wura shook her head.
"No Mero, no you do not, tell me how you do?" she demanded because to her, it seemed as if he was not taking her words seriously.
"I know because of you... I can see you suffering because of me." said Mero as Wura looked at him, the sincere expression in his eyes and she felt guilty for pushing all the blame on him.
She had forgotten that they were more or less in the same boat, they did not ask to develop feelings for each other, they did not want to hurt those around them that they cared about, and yet, look at where they ended up.
"I know because I can see the pain and struggle in your eyes. I know because you do not want to hurt anyone, and neither do I, and I am sorry for causing you this pain, but I cannot continue lying to myself, neither you." said Mero.
"Mero, I beg you, do not end things with Nora, she will be miserable, you do not know how much she cares for you." said Wura.
"I know... I know, and it is for that reason that I cannot continue lying to her, I am a loyal man, and what is the point of being with someone if your heart is not with them?" he asked as Wura sighed.
"But stay with her, just stay with her, for all we know maybe you will be able to forget whatever you feel for me if you stay with her." said Wura as Mero shook his head.
"And deceive myself?" he asked.
"I would not do that to her, neither to myself, the best thing is for me to end things, that is the only way that I will not hurt her more than I am already going to." he said as Wura sighed, knowing that his reasoning was right, but she just could not bear feeling like this.
"I will not lie Mero, I respect you and I respect your decision, but... I certainly cannot understand your reasoning right now, no matter how hard I try." said Wura as she sighed.
"Oh if only that stupid kiss we shared never happened." she said as she groaned. She had pinpointed the cause of all their problems to that problematic kiss.
"Actually Wura, if I am being honest, I do not think that the kiss not happening would stop me from developing feelings for you." said Mero as Wura looked at him, her gaze questioning.
"Yes, the kiss did cause some problems, and in a way, it did speed up my feelings for you changing, but I am sure that regardless of if the kiss had happened or not, I would still like you the way I do now." he elaborated as Wura groaned.
She could see that Mero was really serious about these feelings that he said he felt for her. And to be honest, it only made her more scared.
She too at one point in time had started to see him in a different light, but she quickly slapped herself back into her senses. Nothing could happen between them, she was already a married woman, and he, one of the most trusted men of her husband, she could not let this thing ruin her more than it already had.
She had to put an end to it right here and right now.
"Mero... I like you... a lot... I really do, but this will take us nowhere." she said with a sigh.
"I love Liam..." she said her voice barely a whisper.
"I know... and it pains me every single time I remember that you are his wife, and I know that I should not feel this way about you, neither should I try to pursue you, because Liam is my King... and my friend... I never intended to betray him this way, but I was not even aware of how or when I fell for you, but I just did." said Mero as he looked down, his tone solemn.
"I just hope that Liam will forgive me for betraying him like this... because I know that he loves me like a brother, and I feel the same way." he said as he sighed and Wura felt terrible, why did things have to go this way?
"Mero... if there was no Liam, if I did not love him... if I had met you before I met him, then maybe... just maybe I... I would be able to reciprocate your feelings... but not now." she said sincerely. She did not even know what she was saying or why she was saying it, but she just did.
Wura bit her tongue as she was not even aware of when the words she had uttered escaped from her lips, but it did, and as soon as Mero looked up at her, she instantly regretted what she said.
She could see a little flicker of hope in his eyes, the look of acceptance and understanding, and the appreciation for her consideration.
If Wura was being honest, Mero was a very nice man, he was humble, he was kind, even though he had a temper, he was someone you could always count on. They had a lot in common, from their parent's origins in the East to moving to Wyverdale, if there was someone that Wura truly felt a deep mutual connection with, it was Mero.
But Liam... Liam was incomparable, he was a man of many accomplishments, and he was her husband, the first man she had ever fell in love with. There was no competition because in her heart, Liam would always be first. She loved him with all her heart and all her soul.
Even though their marriage was rocky, even though they were separated, he was still very deeply rooted in her heart. Even though it seemed impossible and naive to believe that he would return someday, she still did.
And maybe that was the problem, he was still very much alive in her thoughts, in her mind and in her heart. She could not move on even if she wanted to.
"Thank you Wura..." said Mero as he smiled.
"I think that we have laid out everything, and I appreciate you for your understanding, I hope that this does not change the way you see me." he said.
"No, not at all Mero, this could never." she said sincerely as he smiled and nodded knowingly, the same went for him.
"It is late, we have said many things, and we should rest now.. goodnight Wura." said Mero as he sat down on the couch.
"Goodnight...Mero..." said Wura as she agreed that it was time to end this conversation.
She turned around, climbed into her bed and closed her eyes. She wished that she could forget everything, that she would wake up in the morning and this would have all been a dream, alas, it was easier to hope, because reality was stronger than anything else.