After applying the cream, she bandaged his wounds carefully. She was aware of his passionate gaze on her but didn't dare to look at him. Keeping her head down, she continued to tend to his wound.
"It's done," she said when it was finished.
"Thanks, love." Qin Yufeng smiled at her.
"Did you eat something?" she asked.
Qin Yufeng shook his head.
"Then do you want to eat something?"
"No," Qin Yufeng shook his head, again.
Bai Liyue frowned. She titled her head and looked at the big ancient clock on the wall. It was already past midnight and yet, this man wasn't hungry. "Why? Are you not hungry?" she inquired.
"Hungry," Qin Yufeng answered.
"Then? What's the problem?"
Qin Yufeng lifted his injured hand and showed it to her.
Bai Liyue continued to look at him for a while. "You know I can feed you, Yufeng," she said, mustering a little courage. "You married me. I am your wife. If you are injured, then I must take care of you. If you can't eat, then I must feed you. You just have to tell me. That's what I am supposed to do, as your wife. That's my duty."
Qin Yufeng chuckled, but there was a hint of sadness in his voice. "Yueyue, you are wrong. I don't want you to do anything for me just because you are my wife. I want you to do things for me because you are concerned for me. I want you to do things for me, because you love me, and care about me. Not for anything else!"
Bai Liyue was speechless.
Qin Yufeng stared at her lovingly. With a sigh, he moved a strand of hair away from her face and tucked it behind her ears. "Go and sleep. You must be tired. Goodnight, love."
Bai Liyue looked at him for a moment, got up, and walked away.
After she left his side, Qin Yufeng glanced at his bandaged hands and smiled bitterly. With a sigh, he leaned his head on the couch, closed his eyes, and decided to take a small rest. Few minutes later, his ears perked up when he heard someone sitting next to him. That sweet and tantalizing, citrusy scent filled his nose, and immediately, he opened his eyes with a surprised look. "Yueyue?"
"Why didn't you go to sleep?" he inquired softly.
"Open your mouth."
"Huh?" Qin Yufeng was confused.
However, the next moment, he saw her holding a plate in her hand that was full of his favorite food. Though he had a surprised look on his face, he still obeyed her words and opened his mouth. Bai Liyue fed him gently and slowly. Under her watchful gaze, he quietly ate whatever she fed him. His heart was swelling up with happiness and joy and he couldn't contain the smile that was showing through his eyes.
All of his earlier depressed moods brightened up with her sweet actions. "Love, you didn't have to do this....." he said to her.
"Right now, I just want to feed you. So, don't speak while you eat," she replied.
Qin Yufeng nodded. "Okay."
Time passed slowly because of Qin Yufeng. He was purposely chewing his food slowly to spend more time with his wife. This was a rare opportunity and he just wanted this moment to continue, for a little longer. It wasn't like an everyday scenario, where his wife would take the initiative to feed him.
Then how could he let this moment pass away so soon?
If he could have made it happen, then he would have frozen the time so he could enjoy this moment to the fullest.
Bai Liyue realized his small actions but didn't expose him. She continued to feed him until all the food on the plate was finished.
"Thank you, love."
"Hmm." Bai Liyue nodded and got up to leave.
At this moment, Qin Yufeng called her. Bai Liyue halted in her steps and turned around to look at him.
Qin Yufeng smiled. "You know, love, sometimes, I really feel like I am the luckiest man on the earth to have you besides my side. Maybe, I must have done something good in my past life to get you as my partner in this life. I know you don't think the same, but I am happy to be with you."
"I love you Bai Liyue," he said. "I love everything about you, especially your smile. It's like a bright ray of sunshine that can cheer anyone up."
-Flashback ends-
Bai Liyue hugged her teddy bear as she thought about that memory. From the beginning till the end, she recalled everything clearly, precisely to be exact. It was as if everything related to that man was imprinted in her mind, in her soul. No matter what, she could not forget him, or remove him from her memories.
Every single thing reminded her of him.
Why?
Qin Yufeng, why are you still on my mind?
Why can't I remove you, your memories, and the days I spent as your wife from my mind?
Why can't I forget you and move on?
Why are you still haunting me in this life?
"Qin Yufeng, you have to leave me. You have to let me go," she murmured again and again and again in her mind. She realized that she needed to forget these memories related to her past life. She cannot continue on like this. She was not Bai Liyue anymore, she was Chen Ziyue. Qin Yufeng was related to her past life, and in this life, she doesn't have anything to do with him anymore.
And, it's not like she was going to meet him in this life, ever. He has already moved on with another woman in his life. She should be happy for him.
"Yes, that's it. You are Chen Ziyue, not Bai Liyue. Qin Yufeng was Bai Liyue's past and becoming an actress is Chen Ziyue's future," she motivated herself.
Suddenly, there was a knock on her door. "Miss Chen, lunch is ready."
"Coming!!!" Bai Liyue answered. She kept the teddy bear away, looked at her new face in the mirror, and walked out of the room with a newfound strength.
Yes, she is Chen Ziyue and this is what she should remember.