Love's POV
It has been a week since my birthday or the day I and Jake left our pack. Since then a lot of things have changed.
Our silver moon pack was attacked by a pack whose alpha has gone 'nuts' as quoted by Jake.
According to Jake, the pack was not yet safe to leave so he opted on staying here in the human world.
Yes, we were staying in the human world and this place was beautiful. While werewolf packs were more covered in nature and greenery, the human cities have advanced buildings and small parks.
The economy as Jake told me was high here, and the reason we traded with humans. They sometimes thought of us as cults but kept away from it. Sometimes they visit our packs and are mesmerized by our pack's beauties.
Living with Jake, I learned more about him. I came to know about the trading that he does, his family which consisted of his parents and unmated young sister.
We were surely connecting. The mate bond was driving us closer day by day and I was surprised one day when Jake came running back to my room and hugged me. Tears were rolling out of his eyes as he told me something related to a nightmare. After that day, we slept together in his room.
At first, I was hesitant because I was guilty of doing Lucian harm but then the mate bond did its wonders and I couldn't make myself decline his offer.
Slowly we started getting closer. Since Jake came to know that Lucian was the mate I was talking about, he was hesitant at first but slowly he's getting comfortable.
A knock on the door startled me out of my thoughts and I went to open the door. It must be Jake, he was out at a party with his friends.
Who else were you even expecting, my conscience says with sarcasm and I roll my eyes at myself? I know the answer but I'd rather not open my mouth.
I open the door to see a drunk Jake half standing. I immediately went to him and gave him support taking him inside. I can smell a different scent on him which was way too strong. It had to be a human.
"Now sit here while I close the door" I leave Jake sitting on the sofa and close the door. With the attack on the pack, we started staying safer because if anything goes wrong for the rivalry pack, they will look for the Luna to obtain an upper hand.
I reach Jake again and remove his shoes. He was now lying on the sofa with his back supported on the soda's back. I reached out to loosen up his shirt when he held my hand. He pulled me on top of him and hugged me.
I was now leaning onto him and he held my knees pulling me on his lap. And now I was straddling him.
"You smell so good Love" he snuggles up to my neck and buries his face. "You smell so good" he repeats.
My heart flutters at his words and his contact gives me shivers throughout my body. He smiles or tries smiling in his drunk state and I can't help but laugh at the silly face he's been making. Without knowing the reason, he starts laughing as well. He leans his face towards mine.
I was still laughing when I felt his right hand holding my chin and pulling my face towards him lovingly. He starts kissing me slowly, full of love and I kiss him back. His kiss grows more passionate as he moves his lips in a newfound fury.
My lips move on their own accord and a moan leaves my lips. He stops kissing me and a passion shines in his eyes.
His lips then find their spot on my neck and he starts leaving kisses, slowly sucking the skin. Another moan leaves my lips and his lips start moving faster.
My whole body goes into ecstasy as I hug him tight.
Suddenly, a strong scent makes its way to my nose as I sniff his neck.
Suddenly shaken by what I discovered, I push him away with tears in my eyes. "What's wrong this time" Jake groans, slowly gaining his senses.
"Who were you out with?" I question him with a shaky voice. I already know the answer, I smelt it.
"How does it even matter" he angrily replies, suddenly composed "my mate is marked by another guy. What am I supposed to do? Wait for that mark to wear off?" He hisses.
"None of us knew what was gonna happen Jake" I get up, tears making their way into my eyes "none of us knew" I repeat.
"Hey. I'm sorry ok. I just lost control" he got up to hold me. His voice changed with his mood.
"How many times?" I countered back. There were multiple women I can smell on him.
"Leave it, please. I said I'm sorry. I just can't" he runs his hands through his hair in frustration. "I don't know what got into me, Love." He stopped and looked at me with now hurting eyes "I can't stand our situation. You're with me, you're in front of me but I can't hold you. I can't hold my fucking mate!" His voice went heavier and angrier " and I have to wait for another guy's mark to fade off of MY mate so that I can fully be with her. Do you think I can take it easy? You think it's easy for me?" He questions.
The pools in my eyes have stopped watering but I still feel the jab at my heart.
"It's not, but we have to do something about it. None of us know what to do, none of us know what will happen but this just isn't it Jake" I reply with a shaky voice. My voice was shaking, out of anger and hurt and frustration.
"I'm sorry ok" he sighs. "It was wrong of me to do what I just did." Another long sigh "I am scared Love" he confesses and I look at him.
He's scared. What can he be scared of? Lucian? Well if I'm not Lucian's mate I'm sure he won't do any harm to us. I mean no wolf has two mates so If I'm Jake's mate how can I even be Lucian's?
Somewhere in my chest, I felt a light stab thinking about not being Lucian's mate but I tried ignoring it.
"I'm scared that I've started feeling for you. And I'm scared I might lose you" he looks me in the eyes with sincerity.