"Traitors."
I said as I breathe heavily. I have fully used up my energy and can't event stand up without getting dizzy. The sun before and the energy I have consumed is enough to make me feel like this even at night. Especially when the current season is summer.
"What did you say?" she said as with shock as she glare at me.
"You traitors! You're all the same. You, father, mother, everyone! I'll be sure to destroy you all once I've had enough, you'll see!"
And just like that, with every energy I have left even for a small amount, I used it and run off from the scene.
I soon managed to get away from the fear of being chased as I stumble upon an empty park, I once always play at.
Now that I have said it, it seems I have made my declaration and will surely be the sign of the end of our friendship.
I won't be able to get any support from them nor my family even for a little bit of amount. But I'm sure I'll make it. I have made it this far without anyone's support anyways.
Should I just leave? Or should I just die? I don't seem to have any sort of any idea what I should do now that.
I look at the public clock, the big hand hits at 9 which made it 9 o'clock. With this, I'm sure that the people in the house already ate.
I swing myself as I look at the bright moon, I only reminisce the past I have always hoped to come. Now that I have ended all my ties, I guess I might as well disappear.
A declaration of revenge. Pfft.. Such childish remark. I felt a bit cringe just from remembering it.
Haa~ why do I even have to live a life like this? Did I somewhat destroyed a town back in my previous life?
Curse you my former self, or do perhaps cowardly desert from your group out of fear and ended up dying?
I ended up taking too much time thinking randomly and upon looking at the public clock, I quickly get up from the swing. It's now around 12 at midnight and the streets have now emptied since earlier.
"Chris?"
Before I leave, I suddenly heard someone called my name. However, I frown as I recognized this voice.
It's Mika.
I didn't turn and simply fix my dirty clothes and ask her.
"What?"
"Ah, nothing. What are you doing here late at night?"
"None of your business."
"Chris, what do you mean by earlier?"
"What?"
"Traitors, what do you mean by that? What did we do?"
"Then why do you keep calling me coward?"
"It's because-"
"See, we both have our reasons. It's just that I don't care about yours, so neither should you. I'm leaving."
"Are we still friends."
Suddenly, I froze.
What?
Friends?
Does she really asked me such stupid question?
"Do you even hear yourself?"
Suddenly, I thought out loud.
"What do you mean, I'm not getting any of this. Can you at least answer me properly?"
"No. I have to go home."
"Wait. Chris!"
I didn't turn my back anymore and soon left the girl on his lonesome. I didn't care much what happen to her just like how they felt when they left me behind.
And soon, I was able to get home.
I didn't sneak nor made a silent sound. It's will still always be the same. My mother will always go up in my room and give rants, and so I was met with another glaring eyes of hers.
"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?!"
"Park."
"You bastard, I've been waiting for almost half a day, your teacher called saying you didn't attend your class. Are we going to repeat this again?"
I'm really tired. I just want to rest.
"Are you even listening? How do you think I feel whenever your teacher called. Humiliation! I have been enduring this entire time while hearing the words of your teacher, saying you've done nothing and keep cutting classes. Where do you think do we get the money you use from? Our shits?"
I turn my eyes towards my furious mom, I look at her as I'm already fed up and simply sigh as continue to walk upstairs. However.
"Don't you fucking walk away from me! I'm already fed up with your bullshits you little bastard, every time for God's sake have I need to fucking live with a worthless piece of shit. Just like your father!"
And with this, I made up my mind once again.
"What did you say, mom?"
"Oh now you're talking back. Listen here you bastard, you don't have anything to say about what I do to you, hell even if I kill you, you only need to offer your body! You're nothing but a worthless, useless brat who can't even do anything except cause troubles!"
"I've had enough, mom." suddenly tears starts to flow from my eyes as I walk towards the kitchen. However, she continues her rant as if not understanding something.
"You've had enough? What did you even do to feel tired? Play all day? What do you think we do just to make you feel good?"
I search around the kitchen as I endure the rants of my mother while tearing up. Right now, I don't even know how to feel.
Tired, fed up, confused, angry, embarrassed. Damn, I think I feel lost.
Soon, I have found what I've been finding.
I grab the thing and soon enter the living room where my mother is. There, I found her shock face and turn despair as I walk closer.
"Y-you, what do you think you're doing with that thing?!!! Have you lost your mind! Put that thing down this instant!"
As if not hearing anything, I continue to walk and get closer to my mom. She can't do anything but get back as she get away from me. However, she soon tripped from one of her child's toy and her expression soon worsen as I held the knife in my hand.
"Chris, don't you dare, I say, don't you dare!"
"Mom... Please."
As I cry, I turn the handle of the knife and point it towards her with the intention of giving it to me.
I held her hands as I forcefully closed it with the knife by her hands.
"W-what are you doing?!"
Her former despaired face soon changed to a confused one as soon as she grab the knife from my hands.
"Please... Mom... Kill me."
I said as I cry while pointing the edge of the knife through my chest. With her kneeling, I have to get closer in order to reach for the stab.
"I'm already tired, I've been wandering to find a job. I'm truly tired. Please, you said you can end my life, right? I'll do you a favor. Please."
The knife which held by my mother's hand soon stab a small portion of my chest's skin and soon blood starts to flow down from it.
"Y-you're insane! I-I'm not going to do it!"
"Please, I beg you mom. I'm really tired."
"N-no! Get away from me!"
I once again used my remaining energy as I strengthen my mother's hand in order to stab my chest. However, my vision suddenly went black as pain spread across my nape.